Anxious to see a loss.....

Hi peeps! I have a few minutes to blow before we head out for radiation, so I thought I'd jot down a few thoughts here. My weight loss has slowed to a crawl and I've pretty well ignored this in the last 5 or 6 weeks.  As usual, I put on like 12 lbs from the ride and it took me a couple of weeks to take it off which left me at about 4 lbs less than when I left SC.   I have not been as diligent with my vitamins and lasix as I should be but today I decided that I need to kick this thing into high gear... something just for me... something personal...just to see a small loss would do wonders for my psyche right now. Today I began a meat and egg fast... I was sure to take all of my vitamins and did 80 mg of lasix which has left me running back and forth to the bathroom in between getting Joyce fed and dressed... but the relief of the fluid drain is worth a little chaos.  It just had to be done at 5:30am so I'm not looking for a bathroom on every corner when we leave the house.. LOL   (I don't do well with public bathrooms... yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck) So this is where I am....  2 eggs and about 3 oz of ground beef with a tablespoon of that 1 carb ketchup Chris was telling me about. I'm getting back on my water beginning today as well.  I have had maybe 4 bottles in the last 6 weeks... and today I'm shooting to get that in and THEN some before bed. Okie Dokie...  Hope all is well with everyone   Janina.. I hope your hiny feels better REALLY soon Be Blessed! Lori Today 310/209/180

Lor, i think you are doing fantastic for being so out of whack with your schedule. But, it is true, seems like you girls are getting this down to a science.  I was going to share a recipe with you that eggface website reminded me of:  to use grilled lengthwise strips of zuccini as pasta. her recipe was to roll up cheese/beaten egg in each strip, cover with sauce and bake like lasagna.  I used to use my mandolin and shred it, saute it up a bit and sauce it.  I have a  dream of tasting your sauce!

My sister seriously creams over this sauce.. and I don't know why.....  it's just sauce I fry up some peppers, onions and garlic in olive oil and add that to crushed tomatoes w/parsley, oregano, basil, more garlic (tee hee).. throw in a pinch of sugar.. and cook it for 4 - 7 hours depending on the size of the pot... OH.. but I do cook the meatballs in the sauce.. adds flavor I guess...   Man I made this KILLER eggplant on Sunday and I just had to snitch some.  My sister has been eating the hell out of this,.... PS.. I LOVE zuchinni...... I gotta find that recipe.. try that on Joycey... the veggies are good for her.  I told her.... it's good on the plumbing darlin'.. .better out than in with all of these chemicals running through her.. lol Alrighty.... 10:25....   time to do the do.. GPS is on...  she's dressed  (she looks like a gangsta with that hat and scarf) lol  Thursday I gotta get up at 4:30 so I can pack her meals for the day, run to the hospital and register her for the chemo by 7.. then hop back here and get her before her daughter leaves the house... crazy crazy.. and I'M TAKING MY WATER WITH ME!  lol

How's that ketchup taste??  Good huh!?  You can tell a difference between it and normal ketchup but I must say I actually like it better!  I like the tomato tang of it. G'lord you don't have far to go until you hit goal!  Less than 30 lbs! That's fantastic!  Hang in there girl. I started all of this back in January 2007. Here it is May 2008 and I just now hit the 50 lb net loss mark. We're all in it together! I started at gas station taquitos for breakfast and almost a year and a half later I'm doing romaine salads for lunch! :)

Yea.. it's getting close, Chris...  but of course I want it NOW!   I miss working out although there's barely a moment when I'm sitting still around here.  After the hospital, I mowed the lawn (front and back) then took her to all the stores.. lots of walking and I feel my left knee giving out again along with my hip.... but God willing.. I'll stay on my feet.  There's just so much to be done every single day. I love the ketchup!  I don't want to overuse it though... I see there is one carb per tablespoon and I tried to stay under 2 with tonight's food.  I did about 3 oz of ground beef with 2 eggs, 2 pieces of provolone and that ketchup.   I did it this morning and didn't get hungry until like 7:30 tonight....  so hopefully doing this for a few days will kick the loss back into gear.... I feel like I need some sort of ego boost here (besides the  usual doors being opened for me one whole hell of a lot more than they were at 325 lbs).. I need.. I NEED to see a loss.

Maybe you need to ask one of those door openers for a night out on the town? :P Might even get you some exercise to boot! 

hahahha.. not to be TOO graphic here, Chris.... but I've officially reapplied for my virgin status (certificate is on the way)...  yanno.. there is a statute of limitations on this!   seriously though... I'm not askin' nobody for nuttin'...   I wouldn't humiliate myself like that (no one likes rejection).. so why be an idiot and put myself in that predicament?  I'm MUCH betta off by myself.  :) Besides.. I got a hot date for next week.  When my eldest sister comes back and stays with Joyce, another sister (Carol) and I are going for a haircut and pedicure.. and with any luck.... one hell of a deep tissue massage.. oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh.....  this bod is ACHIN'! I'm very disappointed in myself today... last night I stuck my fingers in the chocolate cake and eggplant in the middle of the night... so this "pledge" of meat and eggs was all BS.. what the hell is wrong with me...... Ah.. this whole weight loss thing just gives me agita sometimes.  I know.. I know.. MOVE ON

You said it, move on! Besides, doesn't chocolate do something good for your heart?? heheh Just get back to the eggs and meat.  Nothing is lost and it's not reason to throw in the towel.  but you know that! Ooooh massage!  The wife bought some lavender & patchouli massage oil and used it on me last night. Now she has me jonesing for a deep tissue!  I'm gonna call my MT and schedule a Saturday appointment! My muscles are so sore from starting back to Karate. It's gonna hurt so good!

Tell me about it... I'm Jonesin' for a hot bath with that pachouli burnin' and a few candles....     In a couple of weeks, when Edie is here for the night... I'll just go get some supplies and get a nice hotel room for the night.  A little Stoli.. a little lime... room temp just absolutely perfect... a hot bath and if I'm a good girl.. I might even get a little room service and a movie! I'm so freaked at myself for this chocolate cake thing.  I think it might be the stress because I'm tellin' ya, boy... I haven't looked at chocolate since July of 2007 and I've been a much happier person for it. My soreness is coming from some unusual movements.  IE:  At home I have a lawn tractor, so using the mower is a tad different.. different muscles.  Also, there are stairs all over the place over here and now they won't let me take the laundry out to do (no stairs), so I'm hoofin' it up and down steep cellar steps.  My hip has been out for a few days now again. Alrighty, I'm actually getting hungry (probably because of the sugar spike although I was at a 109 when I checked this morning.  Gonna go get some fat in my stomache.