once again
Aww Stacy, I feel for ya girl. I'm right along with you girl. I wish I had a magical answer for you, but I don't. I don't think anyone has one other wise we would all be skinny!
Treat yourself right and take it one day at a time is all I can tell you. When I go off for a while there is so much guilt behind eating that bag of chips or ice cream. Seems strange how we just keep stuffing our face when we know it's wrong and we even feel guilty about it . But when I do get off plan I KNOW in my heart that I will only be like that for a while. I KNOW I want to lose weight, and I KNOW I have it in me, and I know you have it in you too . It's just finding it!
Keep at it as much as you can, PUSH yourself with all your power daily. That is what I have been trying to do. Whether it works is all up to us. But I do know that you have to be determined. Look how long we have hung around this board? If we were quitters do you think we would still be here? I want this, and I know you want this. Just think if you didn't do anything, didn't do any dieting at all, how much would you weigh? See, you are doing something! I for one know I would be at LEAST fifty pounds heavier than I am now, if not dead.
For one, you are trying to form habits. Now this is one thing that I KNOW I have been doing. I just need to form a lot more.lol Stick with it girl. If you fall off the wagon, get right back on it when you are able too. Don't ever give up.
You know deep down that you will not do that, of course! So for now, observe (study) that dramatic response.
Here is a list of things you can think about:
that response was too big for the situation, was it not?
It was food lying there, so why was I compelled to eat ______ that may have triggered more bad behavior. Was it anger/fear/loneliness/exhaustion? Am I eating enough? How do i fix the triggers for those feelings that seem to lead me into using food as a drug?
Does hanging around certain people seem to affect how much i eat?
what actions can I take to not continue this behavior?
How can i integrate these foods that seem to tempt me int a healthier plan that will work long term?
Am i disciplined enough to restrict calories/types of foods? Do i need to investigate more ways of eating?
Be gentle on yourself but do continue to find ways to really change your life. Like I've tried to say, if you find yourself in the "same pattern", let's say it is finding yourself every single night in front of the fridge at 9 p.m. eating tons of calories. What can YOU do to re-route? is it leave the house very night after supper? Is it chaining up the fridge (not kidding here)? is it eat more at supper? is it to plan a healthier snack after supper?
WE have the power to change this!
"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not." ~Mark Twain
Just keep repeating that to yourself, believe that you've lost alot already, and BELIEVE you can loose even more! I was talking with my councilor the other day and she was pointing out that I know I can succeed with my weight loss because I've already lost 53 lbs, and that is a big loss. I've been just repeating 53 in my head when I'm tempted for food. I messed up one evening and ate all the leftover junk in the house. I don't know why I did it. I think I was just bored and it was there, and because I couldn't ignore it or bring myself to throw it out, I ate it to get rid of it. 
Riddiculous, huh? But the next morning I made myself get back on plan, cuz I kept thinking 53, I've lost 53 I can loose more. Just keep telling yourself you can do it, and FORGIVE yourself the times you slip up. Because it's gonna happen, and the guilt doesnt' help. I know you can get back on plan, and next time you give in to temptation, shrug it off and get back on track as soon as possible, either next meal or next day. And know that we're all struggling with this, just like you. 
And we all mess up. Just have faith and believe that you can do this, know that we all believe in you too! Whatever you do, don't 'just give up'! Then the food would win! Take care honey, you CAN do this!! 
Luv, Heather
HW: 460 (12/18/14) SW: 419 (6/4/15) CW: 330 (10/19/15) Mini goal: 319 by 10/4/15
on 2/1/09 8:56 am
You've gotten some great advice from Holly, Neecee and Heather. I don't have anything to add other than to encourage you to NOT beat yourself up and keep climbing back on that wagon. Weightloss isn't linear; it's a process of start/stop, good/bad, easy/hard, up/down, good times/crappy times, etc. Don't ever give up.
then I imagine myself eating that dirty covered food, and it makes me want to gag. It helps me lose the craving for it, then i look for something nutritious to eat, I think the reason we crave the wrong food isn't so much that the food itself is that great, but because it has some great emotional attachment to it, like I ate those cookies when I was growing up, or cake means celebrating and so on, I am trying to learn how to attach those positive emotions to healthy food, to enjoy and savor the flavors, and really enjoy eating the "right" things, that way I dont feel so deprived and it helps me stay the course, dont give up you can do this! we are all woking on this together! 
That one stumps me too! When we talked about cheating this came up. Why do we do it indeed - no really....WHY????
Very often if we would only take a moment and just ponder that before we did the bad choice.
For me, i did - and still do - think past how doing this will make me feel. We know already how crappy we get, how very low down....
If I cannot let the shame and anger go, I don't do it.We must remember that no matter what, we have a choice or three:
do it and feel like crap or
eat a small amount and feel like we are in control or
pig out and just go for that crappy feeling.
"The only way to keep your health is to eat what you don't want, drink what you don't like, and do what you'd rather not." ~Mark Twain
