Less weight loss this past month
I don't know if I've shared the fact that I lost 1 pound this past March. I attribute this lesser weight loss (lost 5 pounds last month) to having 4 binges, and eating theatre candy every weekend while watching a DVD on Saturday night.
I am working to gradually eliminate emotional binges, by catching myself in the first part of it, before the eating starts - the sick thinking that comes before it, justifying my binge afterwards. I come up with the dumbest rationalizations for bingeing. They are so flimsy, but I never seem to "remember" or don't want to remember to ask my Higher Power for help, or call somebody, or even have a substitute healthy food instead of the binge (like an apple, for instance).
My therapist suggested slowing down the eating during my next binge so I can enjoy the food. I disagree with her, since the purpose of my binges is to cover up unpleasant emotions as fast as possible - even slowed down, I would still be breaking my abstinence and indulging in compulsive overeating. I'm not sure she completely understands what it's like to be a food addict. She's been thin her whole life, and has sugar cravings if she eats a dessert, but she's able to resist them, because there is no emotional component underneath the cravings, driving her to overeat and cover up emotions.
Denise Phares
I am working to gradually eliminate emotional binges, by catching myself in the first part of it, before the eating starts - the sick thinking that comes before it, justifying my binge afterwards. I come up with the dumbest rationalizations for bingeing. They are so flimsy, but I never seem to "remember" or don't want to remember to ask my Higher Power for help, or call somebody, or even have a substitute healthy food instead of the binge (like an apple, for instance).
My therapist suggested slowing down the eating during my next binge so I can enjoy the food. I disagree with her, since the purpose of my binges is to cover up unpleasant emotions as fast as possible - even slowed down, I would still be breaking my abstinence and indulging in compulsive overeating. I'm not sure she completely understands what it's like to be a food addict. She's been thin her whole life, and has sugar cravings if she eats a dessert, but she's able to resist them, because there is no emotional component underneath the cravings, driving her to overeat and cover up emotions.
Denise Phares
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