What a surprise ! and not the good kind

 HUGS!!!
Know that we are here for you and we understand what you are feeling.  

Char

Take a few hours and feel bad - you are entitled to right now.....ok .....then pick yourself up and get going....you are on the road to making improvements....and pretty soon you wont recognize the new person you will become....

I am not putting this very well as I am in a hurry....but I did want to reach out to you....

It will get better.....YOU are still under there OK?

Barb

 My hear broke for you as I read your post. But then I smiled because you are on this incredible road. Soon enough that scale will start sliding down.
 We all made mistakes, lived in denial and slid down this very slippery slope of weight gain.
And as the nurse said you have so many things that are right. 
We all now that feeling of complete sadness that you have right now, but we are all here.
Sending many virtual hugs! 

 I just wanted to say this to everyone and i mean everyone on this site...this site has become a "family" to me and something i visit everyday for hours at a time..i have no parents and very little family and my children are my best friends but having this site has given me a link to others you can understand the same trials and tribulations that i have and i want to thank everyone from the bottom of my GREAT BIG heart that i appreciate all your words (good or bad):
Isn't it funny how some special people don't even realize that they're special at all? They're thoughful without even thinking about it. They're always right there when you need to talk. They share not expecting a thing in return. Yet always seem richer for giving. Isn't it lovely how these special people can teach us so much about living!
All of you are those SPECIAL people.Thanks for the kind words and hugs ..i definately needed them (and still will take more..lol)
Thanks

There there now, sit back, close your eyes, and feel my big hug of support.

I know that was likely one of the hardest moments in your life, it's so sad, we all feel your sorrow.

But again, you are on your way to a new beginning, so take comfort in that.

I hit that point when i found out i weighed the same as tony Soprano, imagine how i felt at 5'5" and him being a man of over 6 feet and being that big. Lord knows i was mortified. But no more, been there done that, got thru it.You will too.

take care

J

As hard as it may be, don't take your highest weight as a measure of much you've failed.  It is a measure of how significant your victory will be as you are on your chosen path to health.

The story of David and Goliath wouldn't have been nearly so interesting if they were both the same size...

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Big hugs to you! It sounds like you need it. I think almost everyone on this forum who is going through or has had surgery has had one of those moments that just makes you want to cry (I know I have). Know that the scale is not go to hurt you, it's just a machine that weighs things and shows numbers (unless someone picks up the scale and smacks you with it --sorry just trying to add some homour-- it can't hurt you), but it's good that you are recognizing where you are so you know what you are aiming to go down to. Know, like many others have said, you are already showing that you are not okay with this number and are doing things to make a change. I wish you all the best in your surgery adventures!  

Big cyber hug!!!! 

We have all been shocked at some point.  We are here for your.  Doing something about it, like taking on WLS is a really good feeling.  You are taking back control of your body and your mind in the process. 

I lost my mom last year and I really wish she was here to help me through this experience.  Since she is not I am relying on a couple of good friends and family and, of course, my OH family. 

Going thru this journey also teaches you who cares and who doesn't.  The people you think will be there for you aren't always so supportive.  And then others will surprise you.  It's all a part of the wonderful journey to a new you.

All the best
Julie

I'm so sorry you're feeling so sad right now.  Like everyone else I am sending big hugs and the knowledge that you are not alone.  Like you , I'm still waiting for surgery but be proud of yourself for taking this step.  I know actual numbers can be shocking at times but you are more than just a number on a scale.  We all are no matter what size we may be right now.  Take a deep breath and think about all the people here who understand you and share your journey, this is the best place for you right now! 

 I completely understand what you are going through. When I went for my first appointment at the assessment centre and got on the scale and it read out 498lbs my heart dropped into my asshole (best way to describe it) I wanted to be sick and I was teriffied. I thought was how could I let myself get to this point and than the nurse did something I will never forget. She leaned over to me and said "Don't be upset my dear... this is the last time you will ever see this number" That stuck in my brain! No matter how upset I have been or has been through this entire journey leading up to my surgery I just played it back in my head "this is the last time you will ever see that number"

So I will pass it on to you..

Don't be up maryjakedesa, this is the last time you will see THAT number!