I need help getting back into the right mindset!!

I'm keeping track of water intake and protien but not a dedicated food journal.  Part may be water retention, I am having issues with my system being completely out of whack right now and my thyroid is swelled up now as well. I have no restriction at this point, first fill is tomorrow. I am hoping that by getting a few of these issues under control, along with more effort from me, I can get back in the game. Thanks!

I think you have just answered your own question.  This is not about you not having control or doing the wrong things.  Your body is going through some stuff and once it settles down I am sure the lbs will start dropping.