Down with evil scales!!!
Babycakes, it is those days that make lists like this MORE important!
Your self perception is a result of a carefully constructed narrative. A big part of that narrative you write for yourself. So you have to start to change the story you tell about yourself in your head. It’s hard and there are days where you wanna say fuggit but you must persist.
About clothing sizes. I fell out of 26’s pretty easily. I stayed in 22’s FOREVER and then one day…whammo! Sixteen. Then I stayed at 12 FOREVER and whammo! Ten. Now I’m an 8/10-ish. But it took me a LONG time to get there.
And for the record, I can still fit some of my old clothes (from 327 lbs.) with them not falling off and I’ve lost 155.
RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!
I sorta did the same thing, went from, 24's to 18's and now 14/16. I was wearing 32's when I first started this journey. It amazes me how I won't lose a pound yet my clothes fit better or get loose. I think my body randomly distributes the muscle/fat whenever it darn well pleases! I didn't own a scale until this week, my goal is to only weigh once a week, but so far, that's not working out, luckily I don't obsess over the number so much, my body is so weird.
It is all about the self-talk in my head, though. I need to be kind to myself and think positively and reassure myself, as I would a good friend. I'm still learning to do that.
This made me laugh. I needed something to support my middle yesterday and all of my shapers were dirty so I tried on my Spanx that I wore when I was 339. It still fit!! WTH?? I know it's stretchy, but really, after losing close to 200 pounds, you'd think even Spanx would be too big...lol.
Laura
Laura in Texas
53 years old; 5'7" tall; HW: 339 (BMI=53); GW: 140 CW: 170 (BMI=27)
RNY: 09-17-08 Dr. Garth Davis
brachioplasty: 12-18-09 Dr. Wainwright; lbl/bl: 06-28-11 Dr. LoMonaco
"May your choices reflect your hopes and not your fears."
My thoughts are also that self esteem is a measure of self-worth and it should not ever be based on what the scale says. Ability, talent and beauty comes from within. We should all be proud of our successes.
It's been quite awhile since I've posted, but you and I were sticking together at 172 pounds for a long, long time. I sat in the 170s for 4 months and really thought that the 170s were where I was going to land. Then the school year ended and summer vacation began (I am a teacher) and miracle of all miracles the scale came to life and here is what I think is the reason.....
My entire lifestyle changes in the summer. I sleep more, I don't work at the frantic pace that I keep during the school year, I ate totally different things (not off plan, but different) because I was home to make a decision at lunch and I did different activities (bike riding and such) that I didn't do during the school year.
I lost 20 pounds over the summer.
I also took the summer off from OH. I really think I needed to get my head in a different place. I enjoyed the first really healthy, relaxed summer of my life. I didn't get to the end of the summer and think, "why didn't I exercise and lose weight this summer?" We went on a fabulous family vacation to the Bahamas and I wasn't embarassed to be by the pool.
Just a thought, but is there any way to turn your habits completely upside down? I think that is what worked for me.
I'm glad to be back with OH and the regular schedule of school, but I am going to try and not bring the same three things to lunch every day.
Jeannine
Seriously though. Congrats. I think my 172 was a fluke or something although I tend to go between 174-180. I think it has something to do with my poo schedule and what time I weigh.
RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!
It's so nice to talk to you again. I am down to 152 but I am much shorter than you (5'4") and I am wearing size 10s.
Seriously, I know you are kind of compulsive about your plans and schedules, but give some thought to completely changing things up. Your little miracle might just happen too.
:)
Oh, I've switched up every which way I can think of. I've done different exercise, more exercise, less exercise, a new exercise class. I've eaten more, eaten less, more carbs, less carbs, more fat, less fat.
Nobody here is that obsessive to pay close attention to my habits (at least I hope not - y'all do have lives!) but I'm not particularly married to old ideas. I am always getting some "big idea" and trying it. I suspect that maybe I need to follow through with one of them and maybe they will work. The follow through is what gets me :)
Anyway, I don't wanna focus on me. I wanna focus on you and your 20 lbs. girl! Congrats!
RNY Gastric Bypass 1-8-08 350/327/200 (HW/SW/CW). I spend most of my time playing with my food over at Bariatric Foodie - check me out!