went to PCP today...pain update...and rant...long again

Went to see PCP today about the body comsuming joint and muscle pain I've been having. The nurse first asked me if I had a tick on me in the recent past and I told them definately not. I told my mother last night that this what I imagine Lyme disease to feel like. The attacking of joints and muscles.
 The doc asked if I had been constipated or had diarhea recently, and I have had constipation, but only for about 3 days. Then I took care of it.I asked him if he thought it could be some kind of deficiency and he thought that it could be a possibility. I told him that I was getting all my protein in (60g) and am taking all my vitamins daily and like I'm supposed to. He said that we didnt have any idea how well my body is absorbing them though. He did not mention the other thing he thought it was to me, but ordered labs for it. RA. So the labs they pulled for was a CBC, metabolic panel, and a rheumatoid factor or panel, couldnt tell which.
 The nurse and I talked about the RA and said that's one more specialist I'll have to go to!! The more I read about RA and its symptoms, the more I'm convinced that is it. GREAT. I finally get this surgery to try and have some sort of life with quality and not be in pain all the time from my spinal osteoarthrits,  and now my whole body hurts so bad that I havent even thought about my back as much as usual.
 I have really been trying to have an optimistic attitude here lately. I just the surgery I've been waiting for, for the last 15 years. I havent written the post that everybody writes about how they're not losing weight. Which I am not. I havent lost one pound in 2 1/2 weeks, since I got home and started eating properly. WTF. I am supposed to be one of those people that the weight just comes right off of. But noooo, just like everything else in my life, nothing ever turns out good and everyhing has to be complicated, nothing ever goes right or ever comes easy for me. What the hell have I done to the universe to have made my whole entire life be this way. I just dont understand, and I never will. I just keep hanging on to the one thread I've got and try not to just throw my hands up and give up. I cant throw my hands or arms up anyway, because it hurts too bad.
 O.k. I'm sorry for the pity part, but I just had to get it out. Thanks, if you're reading this. I really appriciate you making it the whole way through. 

I am sorry about your pain, and I understand the pity party.  The weight WILL come off, as long as you keep working the rules and trying your best to take care of yourself.

I hope you feel better soon.

I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. I, too, deal with chronic pain and hope for it to ease after I have surgery. I just wrote a post quite similar to this on the light weight board, though I don't really belong over there. But I'm at the end of my 3 month doc supervised diet and I gained 13lbs over the weekend. There is much more to my story, but I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone. Vent whenever you want to. Sometimes life just plain sucks and you need to share it or scream your head off.

((hugs))

Thanks Kelly, I guess it does feel better to just put it all out there. Yeah, life as pretty much sucked for me since I was born. Thats what I dont understand. What do I gotta do to catch a break? Sorry about the gain, I know that sucks royally too. Hugs to you too!

Oh Anni, I know it is tough. From time to time I get a lot of the symptoms of RA myself, but I'm an..... ostrich (Had to think what the animal was, and I kept thinking "oyster" but that didn't sound right)...... I like to keep my head in the sand. Ignore problems. Seems I can only deal with oen medical issue at a time, just don't have what it takes to deal with more than one. I salute you for going with this.

Don't give yourself up as having RA yet, seriously, there are a lot of things gonig on in your body right now, and you're not going to feel totally even close to normal until you are about 2 months postop. That was when I began to really feel human again (strangely it coincided with my going on solid foods.... hmmm food for thought....also when the weight loss stall from hell subsided....also food for thought)

keep on plugging on..... you'll get through this, and if you have RA, you'll deal with that too.

Thanks LL. I really do hope that it is some deficiency of some sort. Maybe I can at least supplement that into regularity? I've just "graduated" to soft foods 2 days ago, so maybe I'll at least start feeling better in that way. I've survived by ignoring problems too. But, damn when I get a new one to deal with on top of everything else, this oyster (he he that was funny) just wants to bury herself in the sand and suffocate! Thanks again for listening

I just want to jump in and say I too am sorry you are feeling so much pain and so much frustation - there are alot of ppl out there that understand what you are going through. I have pretty much lived with a chronic pain condition in my neck for about the past 6 yrs, have tried everything to help it, chiro,massage,P.T. and injection? You name it I've done it. Chronic pain can take over every aspect of your life. The only thing I have been diagnosed with is cervical degenerative disc disease. I had a spinal cord stimulator put in last year in hopes that I wouldn't have to be on so much pain medication. Sometimes I wonder if all my body aches and pains aren't from deficiency as I am 7.5 post-op and you name the vitamin and over the years I have at one point or another been deficient in it - and I'm afraid my body is just really confused, right now I'm battling the protein and my WHOLE body hurts so I sooooo totally understand where you are coming from. Think of it this way - IF it is RA then you have an answer and you can work with a specialist on managing it - sometimes I think its better to know what you have then to not - hope that makes sense.

Oh and the weight loss will happen - sometimes I think slow and steady is the better way to go about anyway - just my opinion

Hang in there

Joy

Thanks Joy, I really do appriciate people, that have an idea about what I'm going through, dropping me a line. You know I figured my back is already that of a 70 yr old, the docs have told me, and I'm only 32! If its RA them I will probably never have the life that I dreamt of after WLS. I'm kind of the opposite of you though, in that, I think I would rather it be a deficiency of something and I try to supplement it, than to have to go through flare ups of entire body pain. You know, its kind of like, what else can happen to me? And you're right on the money when you said chronic pain takes over your life. Just with the spinal osteoarthritis I have to pretty much plan every move. I cant even get that arthritis managed appropriatly. I dont know what in the world I will do with RA and OA at 32. Thanks again for the support. It means a lot....