Did you back out?

Every time I've had surgey I've cried and told them I didn't wanna do it.  Fortunately, they were prepared an knocked me out.  Being put under scares the hell out of me.  If they could do this without me being in pain and my being awake I'd be less freaked out.  I was perfectly fine during my c-section.  In fact, because I'm a control freak and wanted to know what was going on, I asked my surgeon to tell me what he was doing step by step.  I don't get grossed out easily so I thought it was cool.  My husband on the other hand could see what they were doing and I thought he was going to pass out. 

I go see my PCP tomorrow and I'm going to ask for something to take the edge of the anxiety.  I had a panic attack earlier thinking about being put out.  The actual surgery doesn't scare me.  Anesthesia sends me into a panic attack.  I guess I'm scared I won't wake up.  Logically I know that I've been put under twice before with no issues.  So, there shouldn't be any problems with anesthesia.  It's still hard not to freak out.

I'll be there with you in spirit on the 12th.  It's hard to believe it's so close isn't it?  It hit me hard yesterday that we're in the single digits now.  I think it's been especially tough today because I had to make all the arrangements for Aubrey (my daughter) while I'm in the hospital.  I've never been away from her overnight before.  For me that is the hardest part of all of this.

i haven't been under anesthesia since i was 4 and that was when i needed stitches in my arm and i don't remember any of it really at all. so ever since then i have never had any surgeries or been put under so i'm afraid of not waking up. it hit me over the weekend that it was closer than i expected when i thought to myself next weekend(this weekend coming up) will be my last weekend of having any fun without pain for several weeks lol

I was scared but I hid it well because my DH was more afraid than I was so I played strong.  I would never have backed out.  I did tell everyone that came in the room that I was scared and didn't want to feel anything and I didn't!

I had a friend who cancelled her surgery less than 2 weeks before her sugery date.  That was 6 years ago and she still has not had the surgery.

I was not even nervous until the morning of surgery.  I was just VERY excited and so grateful for the opportunity to finally be a normal-sized person!  Until I was in the prep area.  Despite listening to the most calming music I had on my iPod, and having my mom in there with me for much of the time ,when my surgeon poked her head in about 45 minutes after I started the process, I burst into tears.  I was terrified!  My surgeon looked SO surprised, but took my hand and asked me what was wrong, and told me that it was completely ok if I had changed my mind. I assured her that I hadn;t but I was very scared and that they had not given me the "courage medicine" (as she calls it) that she had promised they would give me once I had talked to the anesthesiologist.  When she saw that I did not even yet have an IV, she excused herself (I could tell she was annoyed) and VERY shortly afterward, the nurse came in, put the IV in and, after I assured the surgeon that I did still want the surgery, I was given some Versed. I was honestly surprised at how scared I got (and how suddenly).  Not fear of surgery (I had already had several major surgeries) or even of complications... just fear about what i was about to do to my body and how my life MIGHT change because of it.

Lora

 I suffer from panic attacks and have been on Lexapro since my diagnosis of PCOS 2 years ago. I slept like a baby the night before, was calm during the car ride, calm even after my name was called, calm as i changed into a gown, the nurse put in an IV, then when the surgeon came to see me he asked me "how was your weekend?" didnt know how to respond! lol saying good bye to my boyfriend of 6 years and my mother really hurt. Then the nurse came to wheel me into the OR and she told me she was going to take care of me as if I was her sister. How nice....BAM im in the OR. I could not believe what i was about to under go. GASTRIC BYPASS>!!??! never in my life did i think id be lying on an OR table waiting to have my guts rearranged. The anasthesiologist said hes going to be my boyfriend for 3 hours(they did it robotically) and my surgeon asked what kind of music i wanted to listen to..i told him what ever makes himm do his job really well. he laughed and told me he didnt need to be calm, i did. So then they gave me the Versed and an epidural which i wouldnt sit still for. I had to hug the scrub nurse. Then i dont remember laying back down...woke up in recovery tired as hell! 3 weeks later...its all a distant memory. HOPE THIS HELPS SORRY ITS LONG LOL

thanks everyone. at least i'm not going to be the only one who is panicking right before surgery. that helps some lol

Well it is the night before my surgery and I am a little freaked out right now.  However, more than freaked out I am FRICKIN HUNGRY.  I have not eaten in two days and I am just plain hungry.  Being on liquids with a full size stomach is no fun.  If I could do this on a regular basis I would not need this surgery but obviously I can't. 

Good luck to you!

yeah i am having hunger pains tonight too on my pre op diet. good luck in surgery tomorrow and wish you a fast recovery!!!

Robyn,
I just said a prayer for you - I know you will be ok.  I have one week to go.

I wasn't nervous, as a matter of fact I was very calm and very excited about waking up and getting on with my life. 

Now I am scheduled for a TT this Friday and I am nervous, not about the surgery, but about the pain afterwards.  I might think about backing out but they already have my money, so guess it's a go!!

You will be fine, but it's perfectly normal to be nervous.  I guess I'm just abnormal.