Tomorrow is my day

So tomorrow is my surgery day. I am having a lot of emotions. I go from feeling okay to wanting to call the Doctor and tell him forget it. But I know I can't do that. I know I HAVE to do this. I chickened out two years ago, I cancelled the day before I was supposed to go in, and said I'd lose the weight and here I am, not much has changed. Well, one thing has. I had a son in November. He is the reason I am doing this. I want time with family. I know I have to move forward and can't look back. I have an experienced surgeon and he is good and quick at what he does. A couple days in the hospital and I will be on the mend. I am trying to be positive. Some thoughts keep popping itno my head about what ifs but I can't let it stop me. I can't believe the day is finally almost here. 31 years in this body....maybe it's the idea of changing so much that is scaing me. I've not known what it's like to be a normal weight my entire life. I hope I get that chance finally.

Best wishes!  You are going to do fantastic!!  From what I've read, what you are feeling is very normal.  My surgery date isn't till October so I'm still too far out to get nervous. 

I do remember at my scheduled csection with my son two years ago, I was ON the table and just after the spinal block kicked in (I was awake), I FREAKED and said I had to leave.  I told the nurse and the doctor that I was willing to wait to see if the baby would come naturally (long story but we knew he wouldn't come naturally).  I really got insistent and said, "I have to go.  NOW!"  So it's very natural to have freak out moments.  They gave me this wonderful drug soon after and it made me feel like melted butter.  Although at the end after they had gotten the baby out, I had a mini freak out again (I think the drug was wearing off) and told the doctor to hurry up.  Let's just say I am very happy we are totally "out" for this surgery! 

Anyhow I got off on a tangent.  Really I'm trying to say we all freak out at different times and knowing it is the BEST thing for you and for your family, that's where to keep your focus.

Keep us posted!!

my spinal wouldn't work for my son, so they put me to sleep! I literally didn't even have time to fret. The anesthesiologist said to me that he couldn't get the epidural to work on me, so he'd have to put me to sleep. Next thing I know hes got me down on the table, they are putting stuff everywhere and im out. i woke up and my son was like 2 hours old. i was so upset but I didn't know a darn thing that went on haha. Thanks! I will keep u posted.

Good luck... you will be fine!! This will change your life and you will be so happy you went through with this decision.

 It is normal to be nervous and anxious.  Before you know it, it will be over and on your way to a new you.  The best wishes to you!!