I'm still waiting

I'm 30 1/2 hours away from the time I need to depart for the hospital for my surgery and I'm still waiting...

I'm waiting for it to hit me that I'm having major surgery, that my life is going to change... you know... that panicky anxiety attack like "What am I doing?!?!??!!!" I've been waiting for this to hit me ever since I got my surgery date. lol

And still everyone asks if I'm scared or nervous. Scared???? No. Not an ounce! Nervous??? Eh. Maybe a little.

I'm starting to feel like a freak because I'm not panicky. I'm eerily calm about everything. Then again... perhaps I'm lucky and not a freak.

Did anyone else go into their surgery completely calm about everything?

I was pretty calm with my surgery, and it went well. What's the point of being scared when you know you're going to go through with it anyway?

Good attitude! I'll be thinking of you tomorrow- may it go well!

I was calm and ready. When I would mentally examine what they were actually going to do to me, I would get a little nervous, but I have thought about having this surgery for so long and in my gut (pun intended)I knew what I was doing was right, I was ready to start my new life. I was calm but excited.

Hey there darling!  First let me congratulate you on your journey!  Secondly, allow me to remind you that in your darkest hours, when you thought nobody was listening to you or could feel how you have felt, someone was there.  God Almighty.  He heard you, even when you thought your prayers weren't getting past the ceiling.  Smile.  You deserve this.  You've done the research, you've been to all the classes, etc.  But more importantly, you've suffered most of your life with this.  You've hurt, you've experienced every possible emotion there can be felt.  You've been the target of ridicule, and the reason for a lot of discrimination and humiliation.  You are a most beautiful lady.  Your calmness is the Spirit that's already engulfed you.  The angels are camped around you and are going to see you through this.  You will be just fine, and you already know this.  It is NOT your destiny to come through all you've gone through to fail now.  We are with you.  He is ALWAYS with you.  Good luck to you honey.  Enjoy and embrace this new life that's ahead of you....while NEVER forgetting where you came from.  Hugs, Cindy

I was completely calm.. until they gave me the pre sugery ****tail shot.  (No idea what it was, but I don't remember anything after).  Anyway, my support people told me that I told the guy that gave it to me that I hoped he got hit by a bus.  (WHAT?? I would NEVER say something like that!!)  Then I guess I said my good byes.  
  Silly, because EVERYTHING was fine.  Surgery went well.  Recovery was easy. 

You'll be great! 

Hey lady
I wasn't nervous at all - I was ready to start my new life.  I was excited, if anything.

You're not a freak of nature.  I promise.

Thank you everyone for letting me know I'm not alone in being calm about everything! :)

I'm really excited about tomorrow!

I was so hyper-focused on prep and making sure nothing went wrong with the processing of the approval that I actually being wheeled in on the gurney when I finally caught up with myself and realized I was 10 minutes away from the actual cutting part, and that it was actually, irrevocably, really about to happen... and that it was too late for second thoughts.

I was fine until they prepped me - and then I was about to freak out when I fell asleep. Hang in there, it sounds like you're in a good place.