Desperate times calls for desperate measures

I had a home party yesterday. I made a ton of food. While I was cleaning up, there were still some brownies left in the pan, that I took a bite of. I knew, what I was doing was a no-no. So, instead of saving the ones that were in the pan for the family. I sprayed PAM cooking spray all over them so, I wouldn't be tempted again to nibble on them while I was cleaning up.

It just reinforced to me that I was an addict and can't have certain things in the house. It's sad that I had to take such drastic measures, but I had to do what I had to do. I thought I had the emotional eating thing worked out through therapy. I know now I need to make an appt with my therapist. Pre-op, I thought "I'm not going to be like that." When I read posts about people early out testing their boundaries. Looks like I am not above it. There I was just 3 months out eating a brownie.

Any advice?

To be honest, I'd say you did pretty well.  You had A BITE of brownie.  The rest you tossed.  We are not PERFECT.  We are only human.  You being able to spray Pam on them means you realized they were a no-no and took action to make sure you didn't further endulge.  Honestly you did great.  Don't beat yourself up.  That only makes it worse. Just move on and continue on your journey.

Shell I think you dis well. We all have triggers that are hard to handle. You did what you had to do resist temptation. I've poured salt on food before so I wouldn't be tempted to graze on it.

I don't few foods as good and bad, I do allow myself treats but try to away aware of how much and how often I allow myself a treat. Avoiding certain foods for me makes me want them more.

I've had to do similar things.  Even when I quit smoking, I would toss my cigarettes in the garbage, but pour water over them first. 

If you didn't have a few relapses I would be worried about you.  There's no such thing as bad food, and a bite of brownie is okay.  My problem is I can't stop at just a bite, so congratulations on getting rid of them.  

Sue
 

My method for my madness is dumping the food in the trash and either pour dirty kitty litter on it or the crap from the vacumn cleaner bag!! works like a charm!

Yup. Advice: have some compassion for yourself.

You did well recognizing in the moment that the behaviour was problematic and then took swift action to make sure that it wouldn't get out of hand. That's how change is made.

Maybe the next time (and there will be one, you're human, not a robot), correct as you did then go sit down in a quiet place for a few minutes and ask yourself why you ate what you ate. Maybe it's that you felt like everyone else got the "bad food" and you didn't get to, maybe it's because you were decompressing and that's how you used to relax, maybe it's because you were taught that it's better to eat something than let it go to waste.... whatever it is, be honest about it, and really let yourself feel it. The more inquiry of this nature that you do, the more clearly you can see it coming and build strategies to cope in different ways.

You're doing well, don't beat yourself up. Every one of us has been or will be there.

Me and a pan of brownies are old friends.  If they were in my house right now we would be getting reacquainted.  I looked for the WLS that was the all brownie diet but I never found it.

Good on you for spraying them down.
Deb T.