I don't think I *want* to be a size four anymore...
I brought this up to The Cowboy and he got very uncomfortable. He told me that he thinks I'm beautiful, but he thought I was *perfect* when I was up around 180. He has been VERY supportive, and didn't want to tell me to stop losing because he wanted me to be whatever I wanted to be. We talked for quite some time. I found that I felt ... *FREE* after we spoke. I felt like.. "Oh, thank GOD.. he doesn't want me to be a size 0.. I can stop now." He feels terrible right now. When I asked him why, he said that he knows I have worked very hard to get here and he feels like he just told me that I look bad. He's a sweet man. =]
Now what? I have spent SO much time dreaming about/thinking about/reading about/studying weight loss... I have no idea how to HEALTHILY gain weight without risking losing control and gaining it ALL back. I don't want to get back to 180... but, I would like to gain maybe 15 or 20 lbs back.
Advice?
Kelly
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So, if I was losing past my comfy 145, I'd be happy for the insurance.
If I was going to try to gain or stop weight loss, I'd do small, slow changes as Kelly suggests. If you try to go up two sizes in say, 3 months, I believe you'd be asking for trouble. Or at least I know that would be true for me!!!
Yah, you have a nice sweetie pie - a lot like mine. Gentle souls who just love us!!!!
That said, I echo the voices saying be careful, and to give yourself time.
Also, are you exercising regularly? I'm a size 2-4, and exercise (running 5 miles a day 5-6 days a week plus strength training) has given me some nice curves for my age (60). It also has made me "look younger and vibrant", as my truth teller says.
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And you are very blessed to have such a good husband---my husband is very supportive of me too.
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That means we need to be honest with ourselves if we see that happening, though. Not like I was before surgery, when I wore the same clothes even when they did not fit well anymore because I did not want to admit I was gaining weight. And refused to get on the scale because I didn't need to weigh myself, I could tell my weight had not changed. Yeah, right.
Honestly, I think in your position I would just keep doing what you're doing now. If you are healthy and feeling good, just go with the flow for a while and see what happens.
Kelly
Please note: I AM NOT A DOCTOR. If you want medical advice, talk to your doctor. Whatever I post, there is probably some surgeon or other health care provider somewhere that disagrees with me. If you want to know what your surgeon thinks, then ask him or her. Check out my blog.
