9ish months out, still full-out PCOS, feel like a failure

Well..... I am mainly posting here today for my own sanity

I initially stopped logging into these forums a couple months ago because I was increasingly getting more and more jealous and depressed after reading every ones constant weight loss success, and what I perceive to be my failure.  Yes... I know, I know, I have lost weight too, but why cant I be in the "already met my goal" category? or the "yay, im a size 10 category"?  Why am I only down a couple pants sizes?  Is it too much to ask just to be successful once in my life?

I haven't lost any weight for about 8 weeks, have incredible joint pain, and my latest blood test sorta shows that my PCOS is still full blown with a high fasting glucose level-97, high ferritin level-314, and pre diabetes hemoglobin A1C at 5.8%.. which might explain the no weight loss problem.

How does someone just be happy?  Why do I feel like a complete failure despite the weight loss I did get via surgery?  I am a good patient.  I follow instructions, I am a carb nazi, I avoid sugar religiously, I dont cheat... now what?  Do I just eat lettuce for the rest of my life?  Why do I feel like im gonna be one of those people who gains back weight after RNY?

I have permanently changed my body through surgery and I still feel like Ive failed at another fad diet.  I thought weight loss surgery was supposed to put you a step closer to leading a "normal" life?  Why cant I sit down and eat my 1 cup of food for dinner and just feel normal?

ugh.

Some of us are just slow losers.  We have more reasons why we are fat above and beyond eating too much or the wrong things.  yes, it is depressing to be like that when everyone else seems to be melting and dropping sizes faster than a candle burns.

Yet, you have lost 67 lbs which is no mean feat.  It is more than i have done in more time I havelost a little over 50 lbs close to one year in. I often get frustrated like you and wonder why I went to all this trouble for so little.   I am at about 180 lbs and fitting into size 18.  When I am not losing lbs, I find I am losing inches.   What I do is trust that my body knows what it is doing, that it is doing what is best for its optimal health and I breathe along with it and allow it to do its work.

I think I am going to be one of these type losers too. I am beside myself and getting quite depressed. Desperately depressed. I have lost 10 lbs then gained back 2 in the last two weeks despite only eating 500-800 calories a day!

Perspective is everything. I am just 3.5 weeks out from surgery and I'm having some issues. Today I woke up determined to look at the positives. I don't see you as a failure - far from it. Give your body time to adjust and focus on the victories enjoyed so far.

Examine your food journal and try to shake things up. I am trying to focus on getting all my protein in this week. Maybe you need to lower your carbs. Ask your doctor and nutritionist for some help in analyzing what's going on with your weight loss.

I wish you continued "success" in your weight loss journey. ((((Hugs))))

67 is good!  Keep on the plan.  It will come off.  Make sure your getting enough calories too.  I wasn't for awhile and I didn't lose either.  I then changed things up.  Ate a few carbs (good ones) made sure I got 800 to 1000 calories each day and I started to lose again.  Everyone thinks they are the one who this isn't going to work for.  Rest assured your not that person as long as you stay focused on the plan.   

 

First, keep in mind that you began at a much lower weight than many who have this surgery.  You started out 135 pounds lower than I did so the weight is going to come off more slowly.  Second, if I am reading your ticker correctly, you are currently at 168 pounds.  With a weight that low and only 18 pounds to go,  your loss is going to trickle down and my take another 6 months to lose it or it may take 3 months.  Bodies are funny things.  They rarely do what we expect, let alone want.  I am 23 pounds from my 150 goal and I don't wear a size 10-far from in fact because of a large panni.  Is that frustrating-YEP! Daily! With the issues it is causing and the hernias that also need to be repaired, I hope to have it taken care of within the next 6-8 months, but that doesn't make dealing with it daily easier.  We both need to stay the course and practice patience.  Lastly, at 9 months, what is caloric intake? protein? carbs?  This stall could be because you are not getting enough to eat overall, or not enough of one thing or another.

I will be 9 months out the 16th. I am not a carb natzi.  I found that by missing a little rice or bread, I wanted them all the more.  I always do whole grain, 1/4 cup or less ofcooked  whole grain rice is plenty and if I eat bread, it is a good quality like whole grain cibbatta and just half a piece is enough.  I found I starting loosing more by making sure I got between 800-1000 cals a day.

I have had several plateaus that lasted a month or more.  Just came off one and think it changed because I started water therapy a couple of weeks ago.  Is that something you could do?  It is amazing what you can do in the water that there is no way on earth you could do on land.  I have osteoporus and osteoarthritus and a bad back.

Don't let the scale be your measurement of how successful your journey is.  Do you have more energy?  Can you do things now you didn't before?  Does your bath towel wrap around you?

My panni is disgusting.  Everything flops around when I walk and by body makes stange sounds because of it.  So keep in mind that will change your pant size.  I am down to 155 from a start of 238 but am still in a 14.  But, it has been 30+ years since I was in a 14 so I am not complaining.

You  can eat lettuce?  I can't eat any raw vegetables and have to peel all fruit.  Veggies are cooked to mush.  Had a semi cooked califlower a couple of weeks ago and threw up for two days.  Hang in there!  This site saved my life and sanity, keep cruising it.  No one else understands the struggles like we do.

I have not yet gotten my surgery date set and this topic makes me nervous. I also have PCOS and am extreamly worried that I am going to have a problem losing weight. I have tried everything possible, except surgery and the only thing that ever worked was when I was pregnant with my twins and I couldn't eat and I lost some weight. When I lost the weight with the twins it was pretty fast coming off. I just dont want to have this surgery for it to be a total flop.

I'm dealing with that a bit now, I am seeing about a 2 lb loss every week which is so frustrating when you are trying so hard. I have said to my hubby it would be nice to see the scale reflect how hard I try, but I have to keep telling myself that I am still losing even if it is slow. My sister said that it might be better if it comes off slow because it is more likely I will keep it off. Sometimes I up my protein, and water and I seem to drop faster. I am pretty impressed by you weight loss so far, keep going!
Rhonda

Once you are further out 2lbs a week is pretty normal.  So you are doing just fine.