Needing to keep my spirits up...kind of a setback, today....

lesserman
on 5/28/12 12:03 pm - Chicago, IL
...though, on the whole, a pretty good day...

My wife and I worked through a situation that in the past would have ended in mutual explosions at each other, slammed doors, raised voices, tears and then apologies (but, sadly, no make-up sex)...but instead, we actually worked hard to keep level heads, focus on the issue and be honest with our feelings and so it was not the drama that it would have been in the past...I'll take that victory...

Was able to get out riding again, today...always a plus...

Got home before dark and before the storm clouds (meteorological) began to gather and ran a few errands...it was at the Walgreens that it happened and I didn't expect it...as I walked into the store and to the middle aisle, I caught a glimpse of myself in those huge mirrors that line the rear wall where it meets the ceiling...and I saw the same guy in the same shape as the guy before surgery...I now can see why no one who hasn't seen me in a while hasn't mentioned that I've lost any weight...it isn't noticeable...yeah, I can put on a pair of pants and I know that I've lost not quite 30 lbs in 8 weeks...but no one else sees it...hell, I don't see it...why should anyone else?

The past two days my glucose readings have been in the 140s and 150s...I'm in a stall...and I'm still the fat guy...not feeling so good, right now...


Weight at Heaviest: 320 lbs. 
Weight at Surgery:
283.6 lbs.

   
Everyone is entitled to my opinion...

soozieq
on 5/28/12 12:12 pm
I think you're not giving yourself enough credit.  I know I still see myself as fat - had the same issue as you today as I walked past a mirror at the mall. *sigh*  But, I know others notice because someone said something to me at church yesterday.  Just because someone hasn't said something to you (yet), doesn't mean they haven't noticed - because I guarantee someone has noticed.

Don't beat yourself up.  Chin up!
Suzanne    RNY:  4/17/12  -   HW:  267  -   SW: - 256  -   GW:  150           
julieb1256
on 5/28/12 12:14 pm - WA
RNY on 07/31/12
I'm sorry your spirits are down. Maybe celebrating your outstanding successes will help you through this tough time. No knock down fight with the Mrs., time for a ride, and down over 30 pounds...it sounds like you are doing GREAT! Chin up!
manda2108
on 5/28/12 12:19 pm
 It takes time for us to see the differences..many people don't recognize me but when I look in the mirror I still see myself at 280lbs...even though I'm weighing in at 186 right now. 
            
Cherokeesage
on 5/28/12 12:43 pm
RNY on 02/24/12
I'm sorry it is what it is.  I'm pretty much in the same boat.  My pants are loose and I am starting to have some that I can set aside but no huge difference yet.  Oh, I take that back ... my hair is falling out and it's already very fine and thin.  But I certainly do feel better eating smaller quantities.  Let's compare notes at six months - I bet we both will be doing a happy dance! 

Banded  Oct 2008:  290       
RNY Feb 2012:        245    
Dr's set goal:            170 reached Oct 11, 2012
My goal:                     160  reached Dec 1, 2012
Today :                       145-150

I am half the person I was in 2008.

Trianni
on 5/28/12 1:05 pm - Maryville, TN
RNY on 04/02/12
My bariatric coordinator warned me that all too often those who have had WLS have a terrible time seeing their successes for themselves. She said that they continually believe they still need a much larger size than they actually wear. She suggested that I take my measurements periodically as well as climb on the scale because you'll continue to lose inches even when the scale slows down or goes into a stall. I've found doing this often gives me a big boost when I start feeling down on myself. 

It sounds to me as if you're doing very well. Maybe, like me, you're feeling frustrated because the weight isn't coming off as quickly and dramatically as you would like. I had to readjust my expectations after a slew of people pointed out that what I was wanting was neither realistic or healthy.

Can you call your surgeon's office for advice about your glucose readings? They will probably want to know that it is still elevated.

Best of luck in your WLS journey! Just hang tough. Things will get better!

Rebecca
redlady9337
on 5/28/12 1:15 pm - Pittsburgh, PA

                         We ALL have been where you are now so,  hang in there!!!!   IT WILL
                GET BETTER!!!    Fighting your mind IS the hardest thing your going to go
                through!   Down 149 lbs.  from 315 lbs. and still need to remind myself just
                how far I have come.  YOU will all of a sudden look in a mirror and wonder who
                IS that person......laugh and say ME!!!   People WILL see the difference very soon
                today you just stumbled a little...........WE'RE HERE so SMILE your going to get 
                get pass this.........and when you see someone else on " OH"  saying the same thing
                pay it forward!!!!
Mary Beth "keeping the FAITH!"
LJ1972
on 5/28/12 1:27 pm - FL
including the weight I lost on my 6mth diet pre-op I have lost about 170lbs. I still see the same person in the mirror. counseling is really helping me work through it
Sarah R.
on 5/28/12 1:28 pm
 The important part is you can feel it in your clothes! When we are so heavy to begin with it really doesnt show for a bit so you have to acknowledge and pay attention to the other indicators. I think It took a good 70+ pounds before anyone outside my immediate family noticed LOL and after 100 pounds before coworkers said anything. 


 
  

 

 

 

lesserman
on 5/28/12 8:11 pm - Chicago, IL
Thank you to all *****sponded for the words and sentiments of encouragement...

It is vey, very much appreciated!

Weight at Heaviest: 320 lbs. 
Weight at Surgery:
283.6 lbs.

   
Everyone is entitled to my opinion...

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