Will I always find something to nit pic?

Ok, feeling good about my weight loss so you would think I would be more confident & whatnot. Now I'm thinking I'm looking old. Don't know if it has to do with my birthday coming up on Saturday & turning 35. I so wanna turn back the hands of time, to be in my 20's again. I used to have a pretty face & now I feel I've aged so much. Will I always find something to nit pic about? I wanna be happy with me. My husband said I'm crazy, that I've always been beautiful & still am.

Some pics of me in the past.

 Since when is 35 old?! LOL. 

Unfortunantly, our culture teaches women to focus on their looks, that our happiness and our ability to acheive success is tied to them. It takes a strong confidence to say "f that." And even the strongest people have moments of self doubt, maybe this is one of your moments?

Personally, I think you're gorgeous, and that your looks are the type that improve with age. You'll be stunning at 50 and lovely at 70.  IMHO.

Cheers!

 Stolen...

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving
safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in
sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine in the other, body thoroughly worn out
and screaming "WOO HOO what a ride!"

Haha! Love it. I know I'm having a moment. Normally I don't care. Thank you for your nice comments. When I turned 30 I said I was going backwards so that would make me 25 now? Lol I just see my face aging & I don't like it. Maybe its because I whacked all my hair off. I wish my hair grew faster & with it falling out at the moment, that doesn't help the process. Thanks for the pick me up.

 I'm at the whacked hair stage too. Thankfully it's starting to grow back now from the super short length it's at. 

I personally have a "thing". Green makes me grin. There's just something about the color. When I have a self doubt moment I tend to go have green streaks dyed into my hair. Sometimes just hidden out of sight. Sometimes for the whole world to enjoy. Usually, No one else can see them, but I smile like a loon when I catch a glimpse. And then, they're all I see when I go looking. 

You ARE beautiful! I turn 55 in August and I will tell you what my husband told me not too long ago, "You look alot younger when you're smiling."

I think that you have to work on not obsessing over yourself- whatever the look. We've done that for years and as the weight moves away I think we just move the obsession to a new thing- like skin, or age, or whatever imperfection we see- instead of actively working to be gentle and kind to ourselves. It takes time to change. Just realize that this is your old self looking for something to criticize and you don't have to be that mean to yourself anymore. You can let go of thinking about yourself all the time... this is what I tell myself. I also try to measure all my internal criticism with the question: would I say that to someone I loved? It's a hard process to realize that our "when I'm thin I'll be ____(insert adjective here)" may not always pan out. We're still the same person, only older and with less fat and more skin. So, even though I feel like you do (especially the age thing- very hard) sometimes, I try to remember that I'm more than how I look, that I'm loved, that I'm alive and have the chance to experience another day...that reminds me of how little my looks really play into my life. It's not easy but with time I think we can find some inner peace. Until then, keep venting on here...we all get it and it's nice to have support and also read posts that are things we struggle with, too. Take care and have a good day. :)

You are beautiful. And you are not old, I have shoes older than you.   

girl I feel ya!  I am 35 and wish I could just go back to my 20's and not feel so dang old.

my surgery is in two weeks and I wish I would have done it a lot sooner than now because I feel like I could have enjoyed life more.   Of course I wouldn't have my son if I had.

They say we are our own worst critics!  You look pretty!

Im 32 and get that same feeling. Its extremely hard not to nit pick and see the positive changes. I think we all just have a day here and there where we look in the mirror or put on our clothes and just hate it all. You look fantastic and in no way old (hugs)