NSV

Today I stopped by my local thrift shops & bought a couple pairs of jeans since I only
have 1 size 20. Picked up a size 18 because it still had the Old Navy tags on it & it was
only $4.99. Tonight I came home & my husband said I should try them on to see if they
fit. I was able to get them buttoned & zipped up. They are a little snug at this point, but I 
was able to wear them. I haven't worn a size 18 in 13 years. It is so wonderful & exciting.
The fact that I'm now able to wear name brand clothing like Old Navy & Liz Claiborne is
so exciting, of course I only buy those name brand clothing in the thrift shop cuz I'm cheap.
Lol

I still have head issues, I guess. I still tend to go to the 3x shirts & look to see what they
have, then I'm like "what am I doing" & I go to the 1 & 2x. Sometimes I feel like people are looking at me & thinking "what is she doing looking at those sizes, she is too big for those"
I feel self conscious about shopping for smaller sizes & I don't know why. I sometimes come
up with a response in my head that I'm buying them for my daughter, if they ask. Why would I 
do that?

Alot of feelings of unworthiness runs through my brain & I know that's not healthy.

Congratulations on the size acheivement!

Maybe with continued counseling and support you will get over some of the feelings of unworthiness.  It sounds like you have good support in your husband since he was the one that encouraged you to try on the size 18 and knew that they would fit.  Maybe you could lean on him a little more.

Thank you! Yes, he has been a great supporter through this whole process. He tries to make helpful suggestions & tells me I'm doing great & that he is proud of me. I don't know what I'd do without him. I know I shouldn't have feelings of unworthiness. Usually I am pretty confident, but when I'm alone & I start thinking too much that those thoughts creep into my head.

Try those 18s on often or you will try them on one day and they will be too big.

congrats!

Thanks! I know, Its crazy how fast you go through sizes. I keep trying on my wedding dress because I want to be able to put it on when it fits not when I'm too skinny to hold it up. Lol

 Way to go, you will be doing the happy dance every time you try on something smaller that fits.  I still go to the big sizes and I am over 2 years out.  I am now in a size 10 (love the thrift stores) but I still grab bigger sizes because I look at them and say there is no way that is going on this body it is way too small.....then OMG it fits. It is a great feeling.  Remember they work on our bodies not our minds, we have to work on that and it takes a while.  Keep up the great work, hug the hubby and let him know how much you appreciate all his kind words and enjoy the ride.

Thanks, yes my mind is in need of working on when it comes to some things. I did 
hug him & tell him how much I appreciated him after writing this post. I got all emotional.
It is a journey & one that you should not have to go at alone. I told him he was my rock & I
don't know what I'd do without him. He's all I could ask for.

 I feel the same way when I shop..until my 15 year old daughter whom I am very close with said really mom try this, I did and it fit...Sometimes its hard to grasp that the weight is actually coming off...I compare pictures often so I can try and catch my mind up with my body....Good Luck

I have the same feelings! I just wore my 1st pair ofr size 16 jeans on Sunday!

I rummage sale a lot and basically am shopping for things that definitely won't fit at this time. I usually feel the need to explain myself to whoever is having the sale. I have bought some size 12s that I think are a waste of money because ill never be a 12 but in the next instant I'm pushing myself on in a 'you can do this' manner.

My sister had the surgery 12 years ago and has finally just now decided size 1 to 3x are too big and she should give them up...which works for me right now...lol.

Keep your chin and your confidence up! As a boost last night my husband gave me a piggy back ride! I can't ever remember one of those. I laughed the entire time...mostly nervous that I would make us both topple over!