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I'm in a **** for food eating spiral. Woke up drenched in sweat, cold and clammy at around 3 am the past two nights. My food is crap.
Today would have been my baby brother's 34th birthday. The pain is just as great now as it was 9 years ago when I lost him in a car accident.
I don't want to hear anything about him being in a better place or anything like that. There's no better place than here surrounded by peeople who love you. And I know I'm being totally selfish when I say that because I just miss him so damn much and would give anything to roll my eyes and throw a curling iron at him just one more time. It just hurts.
What I need to hear is how food doesn't change things and how my eating crap isn't going to make me feel any better.
These are things I know, but they aren't really registering with me.
Today would have been my baby brother's 34th birthday. The pain is just as great now as it was 9 years ago when I lost him in a car accident.
I don't want to hear anything about him being in a better place or anything like that. There's no better place than here surrounded by peeople who love you. And I know I'm being totally selfish when I say that because I just miss him so damn much and would give anything to roll my eyes and throw a curling iron at him just one more time. It just hurts.
What I need to hear is how food doesn't change things and how my eating crap isn't going to make me feel any better.
These are things I know, but they aren't really registering with me.
Heather
Since 2008 my team has raised over $42,000 to fight breast cancer.
Since 2008 my team has raised over $42,000 to fight breast cancer.
Oh gosh I am soo sorry... what a horrible loss :(
Eating crap isn't going to make you feel better, but neither is beating yourself up over it. You deserve to grieve safely, I hope you can find a way to do tht. Maybe the structure of sitting down and planning every detail of a good meal... to the way it will look on the plate.
Take care of you....
Eating crap isn't going to make you feel better, but neither is beating yourself up over it. You deserve to grieve safely, I hope you can find a way to do tht. Maybe the structure of sitting down and planning every detail of a good meal... to the way it will look on the plate.
Take care of you....
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