Ashamed
It's hard to stay on track. I had my surgery a month before you.
Everyday is a new day. Everyday is a new opportunity to eat healthy. Quit feeling ashamed. For me, taking away the shame about food/eating/weight was the biggest gift the surgery gave me. I refuse to accept it again.
By the way, I've never met goal. I'm 5'4" and weigh 165 most days - sometimes down to 160 for a minute; sometimes up to 170. My doc says I should weigh 129 - I wanted 145 or 150. But I feel good; I enjoy eating and don't feel hungry. I have energy and I can live my life without all of the weight. I mess up all the time - today it was chips. Tomorrow I'll do better- thanks surgery for making me nauseated with the chips :) It helps to leave them alone (sometimes).
Point is - girl, we're all there with you. It's a struggle. We're going to make it.
MSROMAGNOLA
I don't know if this will hel*****t. But I was about 3 years out and had gained about 15lb. I wear a size 4 and it was getting tight. I had an internal argument with my self about just buying a size 6, but I had been a size 4 for more than 2 years at this point. But a size 6 is still good right, but if i wasn't a size 4 I would not have been one this long. I was at my goal of 125lb, I am 5'2".
Then i remembered something my PA said at a support group years before. She said most "normal: people don't go buy a larger size of clothes they change what they are doing. So I paid closer attention to what I put in my mouth, you know like we do when we began this journey. I lost that 15lb and I am still in my size 4s. My surgery was almost 4 1/2 years ago.
Good luck pulling up your boot straps (my Dr's quote referring to what I did)
