My brain is broken and my body too......

That would be great!

Martha

You are smart, beautiful and inspirational.  This is just one step on the journey of life.  Cir****tances change, new medications and treatments are introduced everyday.  You may find yourself in a totally different situation one of these days.  With your talent for writing, I think that a job will just appear that will work out for you.  Social Security has programs to train people for new careers.  There might not be anything right now that would be right for you, but that could change.

Take care of yourself and remember that government benefits are there because you or your family members have worked and contributed to the system.  It is there for all of us when needed. 

As far as size I know that I look and feel better in a 4 than I did in zero or 2.  My skin is firmer with a little weight.  You are still in a size that most of the world finds unattainable.  Never give up, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and going forward.  When I look back on my life, I realize that I often did not get the things I wanted, but I did get the things I needed.

Thanks so much White Dove. I am hoping that someday there is a new development that will help me. I went through the process of being evaluated for a spinal cord stimulator through Mass General. The consensus of the team there and myself was that it wouldn't be worth the risks involved for me. They did tell me that I should come back in a couple of years. As for retraining I am willing but am considered to probably not be a good candidate at my age (56).

Again, thank you for the kind words!

Martha 

Martha I have missed you on here and am so thrilled to have you back!!!! I am so sorry for what you are dealing with and know it sucks. We are here for you and you can vent to us and we will love you and offer you love and understanding and support when ever you need it!!! 

I hate filling out any kind of applications like that. It's frustrating and a Pain in the Rear!!!! I feel for you!

((((((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))) Can't wait to give you a real one in October!!!!!

I am looking forward to meeting (and hugging) you in October too! I imagine by then I will have my rejection from SS, but I am prepared to file an appeal! 

Thank you for your kind words. 

Martha 

I'm praying for a positive response from SS for you!!!!