The deep end

also, now that I have had some thinned out juice and protein and a long walk - it all looks a bit silly in hindsight. I guess I can thank my hormones for that! :)

 

Thanks for all the advice. :)

I know its hard....your mind was not operated on and you'll have to find a way to trick it for awhile while you develop better habits.  But you can fight this.   I have moments when I think about some bad habit of the past, and wish I could just zip into the drive through line and grab a burger and fries and eat quickly.  I never do it because I've changed my habits, and I know how I feel when I eat just a little badly, so that would be a disaster.  But there are still moments where I wish I could remove my tool for one more meal.   But then I am happy because I do have the tool and I can't revert back to my old ways, I won't go back.  Looking good, feeling the way I do, is so much better than a quick burger and a shake.     

It will be easier as you transition back to regular food, because you can find alternatives you like.  And you CAN have bites of fries or a burger even though I eat mine without a bun and only 2 or 3 fries, eventually, no food will be completely out of the question.  

Hang in there.  You can do this.  We all faced different demons.  

I am 2 weeks post op.

It seems like I spend a lot of time looking forward to that next tiny meal of 1 1/2 oz puree.

Then my cousin calls and wants to know when I'll be ready to meet for dinner out.

In the morning I am taking my wife and granddaughter to breakfast. They will have chocholate pancakes and I will have decaf and a newspaper.

Stay strong.

 

The first two weeks after surgery (I'm 10 months post op) were by far the hardest for me. I think when you (I) are used to comforting yourself with food, using it to 'take care of yourself' and then suddenly can't, it is Really difficult to not wonder what the heck have I done to myself?!?! I remember watching food commercials and thinking, "if only I hadn't had this surgery, I could be eating that right now!"

On my plan I was allowed, at week 3, to start eating things I could actually chew...that made all the difference for me. Also that was the week I was able to get back to work, which helped.

Hang in there.