What's on the menu today, RNYers?

Daisy, the head games, the shame and the guilt is working me over too. I just had a realization about how much sagging skin I had this weekend while I was calling myself fat in my head and then realized it had to be skin the way it hung. Then, like an idiot I looked for more sagging skin. LOL! When will I ever learn? People tell me I am small and I have lost weight BUT I still find things to play mind games with myself about and things to feel bad about. SAD I know. I pray we both stop this immediately for our sakes.   

Wow, thanks everyone for posting such honest, thoughtful responses.  I am 2 months and 3 weeks out and I'm really starting to notice the saggy skin now.  When I was younger I used to think I had pretty nice legs, and while they don't resemble the tree stumps they did 60+ lbs ago, they are incredibly lumpy.  On my drive into work this morning I was literally thinking about my savings plan for plastic surgery and how I had to spend some time today looking into PS cost.  That being said, I agree 100% with the people who've said despite the saggy skin, they would still do the surgery in a heart beat.  I feel better than I have in YEARS, so it's worth it.  Still, I am in shock how far I let myself go.  I'm 269 today, which is still about 70 lbs heavier than the first 28 yrs of my life, how I let myself put on 140 lbs is something that still bothers me (and something I need to get to the bottom of).  I try and remind myself that it's a process, and at least I was willing to take steps to put a stop to it before it turned into 150+.  Still, some days I'm able to focus on the silver lining and some days its a struggle.  Thank god for OH, it's the only place I can even begin to discuss/read about these issues with people who understand them.  Thanks again everyone for being so open and honest!

B - Greek yogurt w/chia seeds

L - Premier Protein

S - Premier Protein

D - Piece of leftover turkey meatloaf with grilled veggies

V - On track

W - working on it (really need to pick this up though)

E - Hopefully a kickboxing DVD when I get home.

Have a great week everyone!  And thanks again, I'm truly inspired every day that I come here!

Hey Dodgergirl - I'm 263 so we are similarly weighted :)  Amazing how others starting weight is lower than my current weight and I feel lighter than air already lol.  I agree - eff the skin - I would do this again tomorrow.  But yes, let's get that plastics fund started :)

Y'all have turned my struggle into a silver lining day, so THANK YOU!

Hi everyone! 

I love this thread. DCgirl you are looking great. 

I am 3.5 months out, 59 lbs down and my hair is falling out by the fitful. I have always had giant arms, so the bat wings are getting really noticeable. You know what though, at this point I don't care. I am amazed that I don't care. I doubt I will ever have PS bit if I do, my arms would probably be my first choice.

B: premier protein shake

S: 2 scoops syntrax iced tea nectar

L:  2 chicken meatballs in 1/2 C marinera sauce

D: not sure yet but probably some soup

E: walked 1.5 miles at lunch and going to Curves tonight

V: all done but the iron

Thanks, Sandra! You're doing awesome :) I'm so glad you are appreciating the life you are gaining and not thinking about the skin. We can all take a page out of your book! Hope you had a good night at Curves. I did 3.5 miles on the treadmill and now even after a shower I wonder if I will ever stop sweating lol!

It's crazy how we all have the same voices in our heads. I think back to my first info meeting and the Dr said he wanted to talk about plastics.  He said "no one ever died from excess skin but a lot die from excess fat." I try to remember that when the sag bugs me!  The excess skin certainly doesn't look any worse than the fat I've been carrying around the last 25 years.  I may be saggy but I feel 10 years younger!  I had funny thing happen yesterday.  I went to my step grandson's birthday and ran into 3 of my step grand kids and they didn't recognize me initially! Ages 4,11,10. They haven't seen me since Christmas and I never told their parents. (I'm the wicked stepmom..I figured if they knew I was having surgery they would be praying for my demise!  Now I'm going to live longer just to spite them!) LOL

As usual I'm late to the party! I just don't get my menu planned in advance the way many of you do. But I still feel the accountability, knowing "Uh oh, if I eat that I have to enter it in my MFP and post it!" is a great deterrent when I'm feeling like munching something I shouldn't have!

About the PS and sagging skin...ladies, I have to tell you, this is my new spirit animal:

Just yesterday I noticed that the skin on my forearms has started getting crepey and wrinkled. WTF, my forearms?!? I've never even heard of a forearm lift! And even if such a thing exists, it's way behind all the other surgeries I'm thinking I have to plan. Ah, well, excess skin or dying from obesity... *makes a weighing motion with her hands*

LOL! Cute picture of me! When did you sneak up and take it?

Hello and happy Monday to all of you as well! Hmmm, plastic surgery. I don't think I will ever be able to afford that so I guess I will just hoist the skin up and tuck it in places. DC, looking great in your picture.

Went back to work today. Not bad, really. Felt good. The best part was that my scrubs were not squeezing the life out of me. I was stuffed in them preop. 26lb loss had loosened them some. I'll take that small victory.  Here's my menu for the day. Diner was my rather dry attempt at a low fat buffalo chicken dip. It did taste good though. I wonder if I may be eating too many calories? Calories were not discussed in my post op NUT visit. In 3 weeks since surgery I have lost 12 lbs. Not rapid but I am ok with it.

Breakfast- better oats maple Nd brown sugar instant oatmeal: 100 calories   With 1/2 sscoop of vanilla protein powder: 65 calories

Snack: dannon light and fit greek vanilla: 80 calories with 1/4 cup raspberries: 15 calories

Lunch: 2 slices whole wheat heiners 70 calories with 1 tbsp pizza sauce: 15 calories with 8 turkey pepperoni: 35 calories with 2 slices great value mozzarella cheese: 100 calories. Makes me two pizza bread slices!! Yummy

Dinner:  3 oz chicken breast 138 calories with 1 tbsp kraft bbq: 25 cal.     Cup grilled cabbage: 22 calories

Snack: maple brown sugar oatmeal: 100calories with 1tbsp pb2: 22 calories.. tastes like a no bake cookie! 

Totals: 783 calories and 80 gms protein