Need some points of view because my brain is on hiatus!

Thank you all for the support, honestly it's made me tear up (which I couldnt stop btw when I told my family about my decision) to see that I am not alone in this situation.  You all have helped me more than you could know. 

Yo-yo dieting is the worst thing we can do to ourselves and leads to Metabolic Syndrome which can be almost fatal--Diabetes II, High Cholesterol, uncontrollable high blood pressure, etc.

You are doing the absolute best thing you can do for yourself.  Go for it!

I am moving forward, thank you!

For many of us we have done the diets. Every diet out there and still re-gained. I was 60 and already had high blood pressure, diabetes and cholesterol. Now just cholesterol.

Only you know if you are ready for this. It is a lifestyle change you have to be ready to make to be successful.

I am now 3 years out and am very happy with my new lifestyle. It is hard sometimes but well worthit

Every day that you wait the diabetes gets stronger and you chances of RNY putting it into remission get lower.  You are being offered a chance that most people don't get.