On my B-day!
(deactivated member)
on 3/1/08 11:22 am - Greenfield, TN
on 3/1/08 11:22 am - Greenfield, TN

Happy Be-lated BD to you. Gald you got to meet some of the loser's but you need to come Sat and hopefully meet some more of us. Don't feel bad about posting stuff on this board, we are here for the good,bad,ugly,sad, whatever you need support for we are here. I don't know what the heck I would do without these folks, they have always been there for me and we will for you.
Cheryl
My sweet Melissa,
I want you to know that it took me sometime to be able to reply to your post. I absolutely could not come up with one word to say. Everything to me felt so insignificant and stupid.
I have so much admiration and respect for you. You are so strong and such a fighter. I could only hope to have a sliver of your strength.
I have watched you from the sidelines for so long. I never knew what to say to you. I didn't know how to help. I still don't.
There are many of us that "live on your street" so to speak or know exactly what you are talking about because most of us have experienced those same exact feelings. I have so much respect for you because you have always stood up and said this is who I am and this is how I feel.
I, my friend could not do that. I was humiliated, ashamed and could not even admit to my own self what I was feeling. That is where Jaded Julie came from. I not only had become a recluse in my own house because I was embarrassed and afraid I would not be accepted by the outside world, I also felt like in the cyber world too if I could hide behind something, then I couldn't get hurt or no one could use that against me. Julie was a name that I always loved and as a child when we would all pretend to be another person my make believe name was always Julie. Maybe I am dating myself here but Bobby Sherman was my true love and Julie Julie Julie do you love me? was the big hit on the radio in my day...LOL.. and then the word Jaded... well you can draw your own conclusions from there.
It wasn't until I had lost 156 pounds from WLS and had regained my self confidence that I could truly say to this wonderful board that I am not Julie my name is really Trina. The day I did that this board never ever judged me. As a matter of fact they did quite the opposite. They encouraged me, told me they understood how I felt and even wanted to start a Jaded Julie section for those that weren't ready. Talk about support. I love the people on here more than anyone could ever know.
This board also caused me to realize that it is now my responsibility to pay it forward. There are many Jaded Julies out there that will read what we will post and we will never hear from them.
Melissa, you are stronger than you realize and the impact that you have on someone else will be huge.
Isn't that what it is really all about anyway?
You mean more to me than you will ever know.
I luv u much,
Truly,
Trina
Awwww. Thanks Trina!
Now I don't know what to say. I am not always as strong as people think. I am impulsive and often have to be strong to get through the devastation that follows my impulsive decisions. I have been trying to make better choices but I have been working on that. I want to believe that my weight has not made my life so hard but I know it has. I hate feeling helpless so often being strong is a good front on my part. I often have no clue of what to do next. I hope to step outside my comfort zone a bit more. I actually hide out alot more than I used to. I am not sure that this Doctors Diet is working... I am trying really hard and it is starting to be discouraging. It is so expensive to follow it. I only hope I can help encourage one person and this will all be worth it.
Love ya... Melis.