Starving and wanna cry!!!!

Sorry I been MIA for like 2 days. Well Im on my 5th day of my 2 week liquid diet. I feel like Im going to loose it. I dont think I can take it anymore. I know, I Know all bout Im doing this for change, and to become healthy. But I also know that when I have surgery I wont have a normal stomach like I do now it will be 85% small. Anyway I know everyones diet is different becuz that is what the doctor & nutritionist came up with and I also know this is to shrink the liver. But some ppl can eat other things. I need to know what those are because like I said I cant take it anymore. My cat is lookin like a piece of chicken running across the room Im ready to throw him on the grill lol. Jus Jokin Peta ppl I dont eat ppls pets.
Anywhoo I didnt set out to cheat or plan on doin it but Jus in cause i dnt want to eat any of the wrong stuff. I will love to jus get some ideas from ppl who may not have such a strick diet like me. Oh I forgot to mention something. My liquid diet has all the dam stuff that I dont really care for so that makes it another problem. I dont like milk or any real milky items. I only dank milk wit cereal and that was maybe once a month. Ughhhh Here is what my liquid diet consist of.

Morning: protein shake 
1/2cup cream of wheat (this has been really gross I cant do I keep tryin)

Lunch: protein shake

Dinner: protein shake
1/2 cup of lowfat soup & 4oz no sugar added applesause

Snack Protein shake


I can add 1 time a day  4oz pudding in between for a snack, I can also have all the popsicles, jello, broth, water crystal light , water I want. Here is the problem again Im not an Icey/popsicle kinda person nor jello, or pudding. I would buy that stuff for my kids but I never indudged in that. I know this is change but I rather have some veggies a piece of brocolli so to say.

Please help me and dont knock me either becuz right now Im also an emotional wreck. I cant take any of that I feel like Im getting enough of that ish from my sarcastic  fam
 
Happy Easter to all and thank you 4 all ur support & encouragement.

Kisha

Hey sweetie,  its tuff,  man do i know that.   The liquid diet doesn't really shrink your liver.  No way can a liver shrink in two weeks.  What happens is we eat carbs and that makes the outside of the liver fatty and slippery and can make it hard to keep it from slipping off the little tool they use to hold it out of the way.  The liver is right there by the tummy.  Some doctors have people do no carbs.  some can  have shakes and a sensible dinner, say some green veggies and protein.  The most iimportant thing is no carbs.  I'm not telling you to go against your doctor's orders,  i would never do that  but you asked about other people's pre op diet and i have read lots of posts that they could eat protein and veggies.  Not telling you to cheat am telling you no carbs.  its rough but its so worth it,  you don't want your liver to get nicked during surgery or have your doctor need to cut you open all the way to do it rather than doing it through tiny incisions so be good,  its all worth it believe me,  you can do it 
FOLLOW YOUR DOCTOR'S ORDERS,  IT WILL SHOW YOU YOU CAN BE STRONG WHATEVER WE HAVE TO DO TO GET THIS GIFT IS ALL WORHT IT IN THE END   :o)  jeani

Your liver CAN shrink in two weeks.  I never would have believed it myself.  But I'm an ultrasound tech and my co-worker scanned me and measured my liver the day before I started my liquid diet and again two weeks later.  It was almost 4 centimeters smaller!  That's a big change!!  We were both pretty shocked.

Kisha, I say this with the utmost good intentions in mind, but have you considered that this VSG surgery is forever.  What I mean is that you must be totally ready, mentally, for this, or you really can fail at it and that would be the worst possible outcome.  You know what is worse than being fat?  Being fat after you had to go through WLS.  So what I am asking you to do is really think about this.  Only you know if you are really ready to commit to do whatever you need to do to make this work.  I went through two weeks of a liquid diet even though my doctor told me I did not need it because I was a lightweight, but I knew it would shrink my liver and put me into the right mind set for surgery.  This surgery is not easy to live with unless you are sure that it is worth it and you would rather do anything than remain fat.  And as much dedication as the losing phase takes, the maintenance phase takes even more.  It is so easy to eat cookies, ice cream or graze all day long and totally undo the effects of this surgery.   Please think about this and do a self inventory.  Only you know if you are really ready.  I wish you great success no matter what you choose and I hope you will be honest with yourself and do what is best for you.  I am sending you good wishes and strength to do whatever is the right thing for you.

Thank you for being real. I know that I am preparing for a whole new life I understand that but I also understand that I am not there yet. I will be in a totally different mindset at this point. I have not had surgery yet. Once it is done my mind and body will be in a different place it will be a new everything for me.Right now it is hard to tell my old self with old body parts to change over night. That is the reason why I am here getiing surgery now, because I have a problem jus like most ppl on here. I need help and my help comes in when I have surgery and I will use that help/tool to the best of my ability. Just like working with any tools. It is very hard to get any job done if u dont have the proper tools to work with. Thats all Im saying. Its not a piece of cake and I totally understand that. I am willing to do what it takes. But I am no way perfect either. I want this more than anything. I have been thru hell to get where I am at right now. I been at this surgery thing since 2006 and have went thru numerous trials (hell), diets, changing eating habits, quit smoking after smoking 20+yrs, changing doctors, starting all over again, doctor appointments over & over again a none stop battle. But I did it. It may have took like 6 yrs but I did it. I stuck with something & worked hard at it. I never did that. In the past I would of never made it thru 3 hrs on this liquid diet so this is a big improvemnet for me. I am proud of myself and I normally aint proud of anything I do. I never in my whole life work as hard as I worked on getting something like I did with this. I have made many changes in my life and I continue to do so with this tool.

Sorry if it sound like im coming off harsh but It helps to know a lil bit of the background of a person so thats what I was giving u. I didnt jus wake up and get approved for surgery and not do anything. I have been working my ass off. Something I would of never did for anyone let alone my self. I have been commited to this. This has been my life for a couple of years now so Im ready. Thanks for ur concern. Im glad there are ppl that will tell it how it is. I know some folks dont work hard at this at all and expect miracles. But believe me I definitly aint one of those folks lol My whole household & famly is upside down because the changes I have made &  making. And I have dealt with that as well without giving up.


Thanks again Kisha

Kisha, it sounds like you are going to fight for this, and that is good.  You will need all of this strong energy and determination to get you to goal.  I want you to succeed.  Really that is my only concern here.  You have thought about this for a long time and you are going to get into you determined posture and kick some behind with this surgery.  Push through this part, it is hard, I know, but it is so very worth it.  I am so proud of you for kicking the smoking habit too.  That is so very hard to do, you have already done so much to get here, now you are almost at the surgery door, be strong and make it happen.  I am glad I got some strong push back from you, you will use that strength in the upcoming months.  Good luck, and remember to stay hydrated by drinking every 15 min. sip, sip, sip, for the first few weeks after surgery.  Also, make sure to breath into that little machine they will give you, (and if they don't give you one, ask for it), it keeps you from getting pneumonia right after surgery, another common problem.  You are almost there.  Good luck and have an uneventful surgery and easy recover.

My doc's instructions say that if I must eat something, it should be a piece of chicken, a lean steak, a hard boild egg, or some low fat cheese (i.e. string cheese).   So today I am going to have a hard boiled egg with maybe some vinegar, salt and pepper (no carbs).  And of course the ever important protein drinks.  Good luck chica.

 I feel ya girl! Tomorrow is my surgery and I too am starving and I HAVE cried this morning. Not only am I hungry but its Easter and a big eat day for most. At least you get pudding & soup. I've only got to have popcicles, jello, and clear drinks. Also for 2 weeks after surgery more of the same. But just look at it like this-one month from surgery we can have some food. We can do this! WE CAN!  It was explained to me like this-we are grieving the loss  of our best friend-FOOD-and thats part of why we feel like crying. It will pass.There are 5 stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression,and finally acceptance. If you know what to expect it may make it easier. You'll be glad when this is all over and you feel and look wonderful. We are all here for u if you need support.

Thank you all once again for all your support. Im not saying I am going to cheat and Im not saying I wont. I cant predict the future. But I wont sit here and act like Im a saint either. Lots of ppl cheat but dont have the guts to tell it on here for fear of getting knock down. I appreciate the ones that do tell because at least we know we are not the only ones struggling.

For instint -Someone who is getting off drugs and relapse we dont throw there faults at them we tell them its ok and hope that they wont do it again. We stick by their side. And let them know we are there for them and praise them for trying and taking the first step to sobriety.
 
The encourage I get from this site is my life saver. There were times I jus wanted to give up on life itself because of the support I dont get from ppl that are suppose to love me at home. I get more of that on this site and all of u. U guys have been there b4 or are going thru it like I am. I Jus hope & prAY I dont ever lose site of that when I become smaller.

Thank you for being there

Much love, Kisha

Kisha,
  I completely understand where you are coming from I am having surgery the day before you.  This two week diet is a killer; I am  on the Optifast diet  and we can only add in sugar free Popsicles and sugar free jello and any no calorie drink. Each day I am allowed 4 shakes a powdered soup and a protein bar; the protein bar being the highlight.     I was so hungry today I cheated with the one thing I thought would hurt the least Chicken broth.  I was good (who am I kidding I am just hungry) it made my headache go away.  I am praying the next 8 days go by quickly.