paranoid.
so now i'm worried that even though i feel fine, that something is internally wrong. like a leak (my leak test was fine at hospital) or internal bleeding, or something else. the only thing i have going on is lower blood pressure than normal. but it also may be because i lost 35 pounds in a month. i had borderline high.
does anyone else have these fears or am i certifiably insane?
does anyone else have these fears or am i certifiably insane?
I think if you had a leak you would not be feeling well. From what I have heard, you pretty much feel terrible and I think a fever. You could request another leak test or talk to your doctor. Are you experiencing anything bad or just thinking it might be possible? Sometimes I think the lack of solid food makes us silly! 
Hope all is well with you, hang in there.

Hope all is well with you, hang in there.
I take lexapro for anxiety, it has given me my life back, but I didn't take it right after surgery for about a week because I couldn't handle the idea of trying to get a pill down. By the middle of week 2 if was sure I had a terrible disease. So back on the meds I went and been even keeled ever since. Go back on your meds.
Don't feel bad; the same thought had occassionally crossed my mind but I cast it out every time. I don't know; you get so prepared for complications and pray against them and then you sometimes are paranoid that something might go wrong after the fact.
Accept it--you're fine, you survived and now the best is yet to come! Best of luck to you and keep up the good work!
Accept it--you're fine, you survived and now the best is yet to come! Best of luck to you and keep up the good work!
Sure sounds familiar! Each tweak I feel in the incisions, each gas bubble, I think I'm dying. I vacuumed the other day (bad idea) and I was uncomfortable for a couple of days and thought I was dying and leaking and all torn up inside. In the past whenever I have had serious issues, I would take care of them without much worrying, but now each of these little things have had me wondering if I had done something serious to myself. I think it's because now that the stomach's so small, there's little room for error. I think we'll get used to it and get over it.
OK I won't lie.
I will admit that I have my husband take my vitals every morning (except this weekend cause he's gone, and I'm not going to make him continue once he's back tomorrow). And I gently palpate my abdomen for any new tenderness. And inspect my surgical sites.
Is it necessary? Probably not. It just gives me a certain comfort level. Once everything checks out ok, I'm good to go, and I don't spend time worrying about it.
Its ok to have the fears - just don't let them get the best of you!
I will admit that I have my husband take my vitals every morning (except this weekend cause he's gone, and I'm not going to make him continue once he's back tomorrow). And I gently palpate my abdomen for any new tenderness. And inspect my surgical sites.
Is it necessary? Probably not. It just gives me a certain comfort level. Once everything checks out ok, I'm good to go, and I don't spend time worrying about it.
Its ok to have the fears - just don't let them get the best of you!














