Feeling Sorry For Myself..

I'm looking over my profile right now..... reading old journal entries about how excited I was to be getting divorced and starting a new life..... There was so much hope and vigor in me..........

Don't let anyone tell you getting the weight off fixes all issues.... It sometimes brings about the worst of them.. Whether or not you're ready to deal with them...

 I really hope people don't consider weight loss to be a magical ticket to a better life. Yes, it improves self image and can give you a lot of confidence, but it won't cure what is truly wrong with you. I have a pretty good case of OCD-Anxiety. That will not go away with weight loss. My bouts of unexplainable depression will not disappear because I no longer weigh 287 pounds. I'm not going to magically be great with every man I date, either. If anything, I need to be more careful about who I date, since my physical self is going to attract a different crowd.

Whatever your emotional, mental or physical situation is prior to surgery, make as best of a plan as you can to keep up with who you want to be. Seek help via therapy or new friends if you have to. Just never lose sight of what's important. Being healthy is fantastic, but healthy includes ALL aspects of life.

I fell deeply in love.. DEEPLY... but he had as many demons as I did/do.. and I ended up making my life about the relationship.... and bad behaviors.. and not my health..
now I'm on the path to going back to it.

 It's always horribly upsetting to lose someone you love so much. No amount of sympathy is going to make you feel better about it-- as you know, that's just something that happens with time. I'm sure you also know, though, that he's not the last man alive. You have all the time in the world to find Mr. Right. You need to make yourself priority #1 and be the person you have always wanted to be, before you try making someone else the person who will make you that way. I gaurantee, it's never going to work if you put that in someone else's hands. Best of luck in your revelations!

Hugs, Brandi. And good for you putting your health and well being first. It's so hard to walk away when you still have feelings, but you know it's the right thing to do.

Hi Brandi! I'm sorry you're going through a hard time, but it's good to see you posting again. This might not be true for everyone, but for me, my compulsive overeating and larger body have definitely been coping mechanisms that I need to have replacements for if I'm not using and I'm shrinking. I will be sending you hopeful and vigorous thoughts - I know that's all still in you, despite your hard times right now.

I have seen you go down and RISE like the Phoenix you are!!!  Good to see you back working on you.  It's an ongoing process!

Ms Shell

I have also been around for your rise and fall and am glad to be around for your second rising. good on you for coming to post. come around more often,maybe it will help

Brandi I have been down that exact road myself and it was worse than anyone could ever imagine. But I promise you can come back to from it and put yourself first. I truly am a stronger person now than I ever thought I could be, and I know you will be too. In the meantime, its painful and it SUCKS!

Big hugs, PM me if you ever need a friend who has been there or just need to vent.