regrets, I had a few, but then again....

I got up early today, not being able to go back to sleep.  I was a bit pensive, reflecting on all of the changes in my life since I had the sleeve 8 months ago.  I have absolutely no regrets about this surgery, and no real complaints - just wonderful things happening amidst the day to day stuff.  But, I'd be lying if I said I don't have any regrets about my life.  99% of the time, the cup is half full, with just 1% half empty.  Being 57, many opportunities in life that I could have had in my younger days are past.  That's part of getting older.  I think, though about the wasted time being so overweight, and that's where the occasional regrets surface.  Things like proms and being a dancer, etc. that didn't happen because of my weight and my attitude towards my self because of it, are in my regrets bag.  I know that my infertility, if not caused by my weight, was greatly effected by it, though I can't imagine loving a biological child anymore than I love my 2 beautiful adopted daughters.  There are other things, but I won't bore you with them.  Am I down in the dumps?  Heck no!!!  I just needed to acknowledge to myself the reality of my past, while I glow in the reality of today and, hopefully, my future.

It is okay to look back ...just don't go back...keep up the good work and congratulations on your loss

Thanks Sleeva!  I agree that looking back is ok.  In fact, my past serves to remind me why I don't ever want to go back there!

Dear Momsy,

I enjoyed reading your post and I think I know what you were getting at. I just wanted to say that in life, things happen for a reason. You may have paid a high price for your obesity, not being a dancer and not going to prom...But it may have been the catalyst that lead you to adopt your daughters. Enjoy their proms. Dance with them now! Children are a wonderful way to re-experience our childhoods!

...and if your kiddos didn't or don't go to prom, you can always dance at their weddings. Or dance just because!

Thanks so much!  Believe it or not, neither of my girls are old enough yet for a prom, so I still have plenty of time!  I agree things happen for a reason.  If I had gotten pregnant, it would have been disastrous, as my blood pressure wasn't under good control, even with meds.  Also, and the biggest reason is, my precious girls would not have come into my life, and I can't imagine a life without them!  As far as dancing, I am taking a jazz class and am in a recital in 2 weeks.  I'll never be able to set the world on fire with my dancing, but I'm having an absolute ball!!!