My epiphany.

louisamay
on 10/8/12 5:14 am
VSG on 04/27/12
Okay, I knew this.  I'd read it. I knew it. As you lose weight, it gets harder to lose weight.

I knew this. Duh. It's one of those facts that just made me shrug and think, yeah, okay, I know.

I sat in my nutritionist's office and she told me that I had to eat 2200-2300 calories a day just to maintain my weight when I started.  That by the time I get to goal, it will be more like 1200-1400, depending on my level of activity. (Can we say, sloth?)

So I knew all this.

Why did it come as such an "aha!" and also gut-punch when I was walking earlier today, then?

Before, I could control my weight easily whenever I tried.  I could just back off the heavy stuff and lose five to seven pounds in a few days. Fifteen to twenty if I sustained it.  I could even slip in fattening stuff without taking a hit on the scale.  I just couldn't stick to it long enough to lose enough weight to make a difference.  But I could eat fattening stuff and still lose weight.

The past two or three weeks I've pretty much spun my wheels.  I haven't done anything really wrong, anything way out of line.  I haven't gone and pigged out on Tex Mex or eaten a loaf of bread or a half gallon of ice cream.  But I've been stalled.  And I haven't really called it a stall because I knew I was using half-and-half in my coffee without measuring and/or counting, I knew I was sneaking in a bit of that kind of thing here and there, and knew I could do better, and that I had to do better.

But it wasn't until this morning that I connected the dots.  I could do that before and it didn't hurt me. I could still lose weight.  But now I can't.

Now.

I can't.

Okay, I'll admit that I still need to lose another twenty pounds to be at that 1200-1400 calorie point, and I also have been wearing my fitbit and been a LOT more active the past few weeks than before, so it does seem like some half-and-half here and there shouldn't make that much difference.

But something is making me stall, and since I'm more active than I was before and burning more calories, it has to be the intake.

So as of today I'm back on the straight and narrow.  We'll see if I can lose a few pounds before I go for my six-month checkup a week from tomorrow.

This changing lifestyles for the rest of your life thing is hard. Knowing it isn't enough. Getting gut-punched with it from time to time is painful, but necessary.

[I'm not gaining weight. I keep lowering my goal!] [I LOVE MY SLEEVE!]

                  

    
SFChorus
on 10/8/12 5:27 am - CA
Nice post, Louisamay!  I couldn't agree more - knowing something intellectually is HUGELY different from knowing it viscerally.  And knowing things "in your gut" as you say, takes a much longer time than wrapping your brain around the knowledge.  The great thing is that once once you know it in your gut, you never forget.  Or at least one would hope :-)

Stalls happen to everyone.  Hang in there!  Or as Frisco likes to say, "go old school" on it!

Fiona

  
  
Sleeved 12/15/11, 5'1", HW 185, SW 164, CW102

louisamay
on 10/8/12 5:40 am
VSG on 04/27/12
That's definitely what I'm doing--old school.

I have to remind myself that just because something would taste good doesn't mean I'm hungry.

[I'm not gaining weight. I keep lowering my goal!] [I LOVE MY SLEEVE!]

                  

    
moonglo82
on 10/8/12 5:41 am
VSG on 03/29/12
I feel your pain!  I'm right there with ya... and I had a similar epiphany last night.  Not that I've had that stall hit yet, but I know it's coming if I don't shape up RIGHT NOW. 

We are so close to goal!  Let's kick some ass and get there :) 

    
Highest weight: 277 Starting Weight: 250  Surgery Weight: 241  Current Weight: 130

Goal Reached in 10.5 months :)


 

louisamay
on 10/8/12 5:43 am
VSG on 04/27/12
Let's do it. I have gotten complacent, and it's time for me to shift back into gear!

[I'm not gaining weight. I keep lowering my goal!] [I LOVE MY SLEEVE!]

                  

    
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