Set Back

I had my endoscopy and colonoscopy yesterday, apparently my intestines are fine but my stomach is in really bad shape.

I have severe gastritis (inflammation of the stomach), on the 23 Jan I was hospitalised because of a large bleed and I had to have 3 transfusions. 

I have NASH (fat deposits in my liver) and the gastritis and the beginnings of varicose veins in my esophagus are most likely due to NASH and raised blood pressure in my hepatic portal vein, which is likely due to my weight. Varicose veins are serious, they can bleed suddenly and extremely and can be fatal. I now have to wait for a liver biopsy.

Of course my surgery is now on hold indefinitely (i don't even know what can be done about varicoses).

I feel like I've used my last chance and I can't tell if I've past the point of no return. I'm so down. At least I have no desire to eat.

I am so sorry for the problems you are having. Hang in there everything will work out. I will be praying for you.

Thanks. I'm tracking my food on my fitness pal and i'm going to do some DDP yoga.

I never seem to learn until its too late.

Sorry to hear that. Keep working MFP and taking care of you...and watch for some opening windows with that door maybe closing...

I am so sorry that you have this going on.  However, it all sounds curable or controllable with time and proper treatment.  Keep positive and put your health as your number one priority.

You are on a mission to get well and you have to take the first steps to achieve your goals.  Now you know what you are up against so that you can take the proper action.

Keep us posted and I am rooting for all of this to get resolved so that you can have your surgery.

Sorry to hear about your set backs -- but on the positive side, you are only 27, and getting these things addressed now is great thing! Would you have discovered these problems if you hadn't started this process?

Stay strong!  And keep moving in the positive direction that you started!

I'm BoofGirl on MFP.

Hello Sheltonator!

I bet that all of your doctors are on the same page as you -- they very much want to see you have your surgery so that you can get all of that health-harming fat off of you! I bet that they are very much in support of that plan...

It seems to me that you are already achieving the purpose of the surgery, which is improved health. What a wonderful thing that you are finding out about these significant health issues, and how wonderful it is that you discovered them as part of your preparation for surgery! My observation is that the benefits of the surgery can start long before the surgeon makes the first incision.Sheltonator, you are a prime example of this. How cool that you are addressing these issues...

You are obviously motivated to suceed - this would be a great time to maybe continue with whoever was helping you with your medically-supervised diet (if you were required to do one -- I have finished my 3 months about 2 months ago, but I am continuing to have monthly appointments with the Registered Dietician who did my 3 months, and she and I plan that I will continue with this throughout my weight loss phase, and perhaps beyond...) This would be a great time to begin to pick up some books and websites that address the emotional aspect of overeating and obesity. If you would like info about some resources for these, please let me know.

You are on the exact correct path, and you are doing the exact correct things. I urge you to find and emphasize the very real and positive aspects of your situation. Truly, you are in the process of saving your life, of learning new lifestyle patterns. These things are exactly what WLS is about...!

One of the great characteristics of obese people, I think, is that we have great persistance, and we keep coming back even when things may seem bleak. This is a time to really take full advantage of that strength! Please do not give up, and please, please definitely stop telling your self that you are past the point of no return. Me, I see lots of reason for hope in your situation. The fact is that help has arrived, there has been an honest assessment of the problems, you are connected to expert medical assistance, and -- this is the most important part -- you have what it takes to succeed -- you have knowledge, persisitence, desire for success, and fabulous support here on the Obesity Help boards. Keep on keeping on! What are the most important motivators that you have -- what are your deepest wishes -- that make you want to take the big step of surgery? Talk about them, Write them down...hang on to your vision...

We care about you.

Keep us posted :)

Thanks for your post :)

I would be really interested in the resources you talk about please do send me some links. xx

Thanks everyone I needed some encouragement.

I would have been diagnosed because all this was really follow up from when I was hospitalised, but looking into wls has at least given me more knowledge in general.

I'm concentrating on getting my diet lactose/gluten free cutting out alcohol (obviously), spicey food and fats.

I'll keep you updated. xx

I am definitely praying for you....you are so strong, you can do this!