9 lbs from goal and feeling the jitters with pics
My ticker is slow to update, but this morning, I weighed 174. I started this process at 240. My surgeon's goal for me was 165, but I'm pretty sure I will be happy at 145-150, so I plan to keep going for it. One goal at a time, I guess.
The jitters I feel aren't because I feel like I'm going to fail. I know how to work this sleeve. I don't know everything, but I'm pretty damn good with the basics. I feel the jitters because for the first time in my life, I'm not afraid of living. I'm not afraid of being stared at for being so big. I'm not afraid to grab something off of a "normal size" rack. It's not a bad feeling, but a "WOAH' feeling.
Hubby always says that he can't really tell a difference because he sees me everyday. Last night, he gave me a hug as he went off for work, and it hit him. He said that he could actually put his arms around me and lift me with hardly any effort. I brought up some of my before pictures, and it clicked. I could see the pride in his eyes. It took him a while, but he's finally got it! lol
240 lbs Playing Wii with the family
174 lbs Playing around with my new self esteem
Laura- HW:240 SW: 224 GW:165 Surgery date 12/10/12
Winning the battle against obesity and PCOS!
I am SOOOO proud of you Laura! Look at that sass in your progress picture! I love it! Keep it up...9 lbs! You are definitely in the home stretch girl and you aren't even that far post op! I definitely think you can get to 140....maybe even lower if you wanted to! Keep it up! Side note...did you decide to sign up for the Take Back the Night 5K? Just wondering if I might catch up with you at the start line =)
Ht 5'4. HW 232 GW 138
