Major FAIL! & trying to avoid another.

I am baking three batches of cookies today to take to a shower tomorrow.  One batch is sugar cookies, rolled out and shaped. I made the sugar cookie dough to refrigerate and test and see it was going to work  and

 

 

and

 

 

I ate it.

 

Okay, eventually I threw it away but not before I ate 2/3rds of it.

 

A few days later, this morning, the scale is back to normal. And today I have to do it for realz.

 

Cover me, peeps. I'm going back in.

 

I ate a high-fat, high protein breakfast hoping it will make me feel full and stay full. A fried egg, a piece of bacon, and some greek yogurt. I never eat this much for breakfast but I just did (and I do feel full in a good way).

See ya on the other side.

You fell off the bike and got right back on! Nicely done! Now don't ever do it again. The win is being able to make sugar cookies and not eat the dough. 

Part of the problem--actually a large part of it--was the dough was too dry and crumbly. (Glad I tested it first.) I'm no baker but I added a little milk hoping to get it to at least stick together and it did, very heavy and thick, and I wasn't sure whether it would work. I needed to test it, but it had to be chilled before I could. And once chilled, it was so very hard, I was pretty sure this wasn't right.

What all this means is that from the beginning it seemed like a batch of disaster that wasn't working and I was pretty sure I was going to have to find another recipe and start over. And I just kept sampling and eating. I am relatively certain (relatively) that had it been okay, I would have kept following directions and baked the cookies instead of staying at the dough stage so long.

The only other time I made cookies that you roll out and cut into  shapes, I was following a video on youtube and they turned out perfectly. I'm going to do the same, find the video and follow it, and do this, instead of using the recipe here that I made a mess for me.

But aren't they cute?

 

Could buy some nice cookies? That is what I would do, but I'm not a baker or cook.

I'm actually considering that. Seriously.

No... you will be OK. You will bake them yourself and you will not have any and you will feel soooooooooooooooooooo gooooooooooood about it that you will not regret not having any. Honestly. Trust me. Just do it. And report back. You can do it. I am so sure of that.

Thank you so much. I appreciate your confidence and support. What I'm thinking is that it will take a load off my shoulders. I had said I'd bring three different cookies. This is a "tea" we're having so variety is everything. Pretty little things. And I think what I'm going to do is go to Whole Foods (wonderful pastries, and no additivies, made with real ingredients instead of chemicals, etc.). Pick out two different "pretty/fancy" cookies and buy them. And then make one batch myself from a family recipe. Not pretty, just delicious and my mom's recipe, which will make everybody feel loved. We miss my mom.

Dough will still be an issue. Heck, the cookies will be, too. But I am going to get my friend to take the cookies today (it's at her house) so they are out of reach, and then use good old fashioned will power when I bake the family recipe.

Report back and I want to see pictures of those cookies!!! All of them!!!

You can do it. I really think it is best to not avoid the foods that are our triggers and our 'monkey on the back' or whatever you want to call it - but face them straight on and win the battle. Take back your power. Then you will be able to maintain for life. If we are forever running away from cookies or pizza or whatever then we are just never going to face our demons head on and look them in the eye and say 'I've got this'.

That's why I never ever even considered clearing my house of all of my potential trigger foods - Apart from the fact that all food for me is a trigger to eat more... I live with four other (normal sized) people. They practice moderation and are able to eat whatever they want (healthy stuff) and why shouldn't they? It is my battle and my journey - I can't impose my rules on my family.

So you can do it. Consider it empowerment therapy.

Sounds like a plan. Taking the cookies to a friends house is a good idea. Whole Foods has great looking cookies, not that I have tried any of them.

If it is a problem, I say don't bring something into the house until you can resist it. I have done that with certain things from time to time. Would you keep alcohol around an alcoholic in the early stages of recovery? Or drugs around someone who abuses drugs ? Food is an addiction for many of us.

True. I didn't really think of it that way but yes... still I think that confrontation is worth a try in some cases even with addiction. Saying no is a learned thing. Gotta start somewhere.