Yesterday was not a good day

I completely feel you.  I had a rough day yesterday too!  (And came home to aunt flo!)  

Good for you for owning up to it so quickly.  We are back on track today.  Success is great, but we can't let it derail us.  

Good luck today!

I feel ya Michelle! I too am having my TOM and my cravings turn into a big freaking ugly monster. I was trying to eat clean and while I was running around at work, I saw some lovely little chocolate cupcakes sitting on the counter. They were mini flourless cupcakes topped with a ganache. Immediately I picked the one dusted with gold glitter and took half in one bite. Then I popped the rest in my mouth.

That mini cupcake was DAMN good, but then I was so pissed at myself for being weak and eating it. Part of the issue was that it was out of habit. Work is a big trigger for me. There is food everywhere (dinner trays, candy at the desks, goodies from families), and you're running around usually stressed out. At work I physically remove the sweets from my view so I can't see or smell them. But these cupcakes were out at another nursing station.

So, I was pissed at myself, partly because I enjoyed it so much and partly because it's just a fleeting moment of pleasure. I KNOW that going down in sizes brings me even MORE pleasure that lasts longer. It also comes with a sense of pride. The next morning I started fresh and had a good eating day, and good protein and water. And now, I'm almost 4 lbs down since then!

It's going to forever be a struggle, so I'm trying to find a healthy way of dealing with it. And planning for it. I know that my TOM is my weakest point so I stocked up on water flavorings, flavored coffee, pickles, and yogurt. For me, reaching for a yogurt with 80 calories and good protein is better than reaching for a cupcake. Sometimes I put a dollop of SF cool whip on top if I need to.

As obese people, I think we've learned to accept guilt and feelings of failure as our normal. For me, I am trying to change that and love myself. I've come to realize that I have lost the love I have for myself, and it needs to change. Whether I am 255lbs or 155lbs, I am a good woman deserving of wonderful things. Those wonderful things just happen to be family and life, as opposed to cupcakes and cookies. I'm done with the "guilt" and feelings of failure!

Yesterday was yesterday--don't dwell on what you did wrong.  That's counterproductive and won't get you to your goal.  Focus on what you did right and what you did to fix it, and move forward.  No one is perfect, and you will stumble plenty of times along the way.  The falling down is not the part to worry about--it's the not getting back up that you should be worried about.  Get up, dust your butt off, and keep going! 

PS...what is "normal," anyway? :)  You are also learning to live with a NEW "normal," and that adjustment is tough to make.  Give yourself time.

We are human.Sometimes things we do are not the best choices.But please when you find normal let me know.We have to change but change can not happen overnight.

I think sometimes it is a learning experience when we have problems with food.It reminds us of the surgery.Let it go and move on.Get rid of all of the things that may be trigger foods in the house.Such as frosting.

I hope your day got better.

Well, we have Easter candy in the house right now... and the kids had a babysitter last night that made the cupcakes (and left the frosting LOL!).  I'm much better tonight than I was last night.  I'm not even thinking about eating any of the candy or anything tonight.  I'm so relieved.... last night was just so difficult for me.  I was wondering when those cravings were going to kick in.  I agree, it's DEFINITELY a learning experience when dealing with food.  It reminded me that I had this surgery for a REASON...  so I will NOT be able to eat too much at one time, to eat better, healthier and to become fit.  I just have to remember this stuff when the damn candy calls my name ;)

Hello  stop feeling  guilty  yesterday  is gone each  day is  new so start  a new day  and  forget that  overwhelming urges  that  came in  I've  done the same thing  and ended up  throwing  up  so  today  i'm  starting  my diary  on my health  journey.   Just  know  you  are not  going  to do  this  type of behavior everyday  now  you  forgave  yourself move on to the new day !  and LOL

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