Confessions of the Fat me.......

I'm sure I used to do this regularly...but I blocked it out. More so I remember the awkward times when I didn't do it...like once when I only bought a block of mozzarella cheese and a large bag of M&Ms (yep, dinner) and the cashier said, 'that's an odd combination.' I just sort of smiled, grabbed my bag and hauled my fat ass out of there. 

1) Going to a grocery store completely across town to avoid certain cashiers who I knew would remember me and my huge junk-food laden purchases from previous days.

2) Once having a huge McDonald's breakfast on a Saturday morning and then getting a surprise brunch invite from friends an hour later.  I went, didn't mention already eating, and scarfed down another huge meal.  Must have been 3,000 calories before noon. 

Wow! You guys are sooooo creative! I just ordered what I wanted and I figured when they took one look at me, it was pretty obvious who was going to consume that. I also felt that other people (strangers) really didn't give a rip what I ate - part of the whole being invisible thing. If I didn't care about myself, why should they? I don't recall any bug eyes or comments on the volume except the occasional jab from DH about how I ate as much as him (which usually pissed me off royally - Mr. Never Overweight). It is SOOOO awful to feel you have to lie or cover up what's really going on. It just adds another layer to the guilt....Hugs to any Pre-Op still going through this.

Deb

I'm with you.  I never did any of these things because I thought that I was invisible and no one actually cared or noticed what I looked like or what I ate.  I remember stopping off at KFC and ordering a family sized popcorn chicken, large coleslaw and all the other fixings and just eating it in the car so that Alan would not see the evidence.  I also remember ordering a full meal at Burger King and then going to get a large milkshake at BR.  I also remember ordering a large pizza and having it all in one night every time Alan needed to go out of town on business.  I am so glad that those days are over.  

Eating Pizza, burgers, tacos, pasta, french bread, ice cream........ while reading up on Weight Loss Surgery here on OH thinking about getting surgery to get skinny.....

frisco

After all of my pre-op supervised visits with the nutritionist and surgeon, I would stop and go through the drive through of Zaxby's (fried chicken finger/fries). I justified it that I barely ate anything prior to the appointment because I was worried about weighing in.  I'm so very grateful those days are behind me!!

I can honestly say I have done any of those things.  I never cared what people thought when I purchased food for two or three at the drive up and such and it was all for me. I was a Taco Hell fan and would always order a ton of food. Sometime I would go in to consume it all.  

Nope, can't say that I was ever that creative. I was one of those who was convinced I ate healthy balanced meals and great quality food, and not THAT much and couldn't figure out how it was that I was 220 lbs. at 5ft. In the immediate post op period it became pretty clear how it all happened but before, I was too much down the river in denial to engage in any covert operations to cover up the evidence. To me there was nothing to cover up. 

I still don't like eating in public.

I have done all those things....except for the cake, although it sounds familiar so maybe once.

I used to order double portions for myself at drive thru and eat one portion before I got home so no one would know I was eating twice as much as them for every meal.

I always had an excuse as to why we needed a dozen donuts for the weekend or a cake, pastries, etc

I ALWAYS drank diet coke and convinced myself that I was ingesting less calories because of it.

I guess I had no shame. I would go to Cap'N D's and order a family meal with a coke and eat it in the restaurant.