Confessions of the Fat me.......

Buying massive amounts of bagged candy before (and half-price sales after) Halloween, Christmas, and every other holiday for the ...family event, school party, harvest festival ... or any other lie that I  thought sounded believable. 

I used to do a lot of these things but somewhere along the line I thought- screw you people! When I go to the grocery store and put items on the belt, I hide things like veggies and put the "bad" foods on the top for everyone to see. When I go to Sees to pick out a pound of chocolate and they ask if I want it gift wrapped, I say h--l no, that will just slow me down, I'm eating it on the drive home. Whenever I feel judgmental stares (real or imagined) I ask them to pass me the butter. 

They're going to think whatever they're going to think. I'm tired of shame based on what stupid people think. Bring on the butter!

I'm laughing because when I discussed this thread with my husband he said, "I just never cared what the hell people thought and ate whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted it!"  

Shows you the difference in our upbringing.  In his childhood, eating lots was always encouraged and everyone in that family was largebut it was different in my household.  My family was filled with thinner people and my grandma and mom were forever-and-a-day on a diet and my chubbiness as a child got constant attention.  So I learned at a very early age to go undercover with all my eating behaviors.  

Ughhhhhh I used to come hone from work pick up my kids hungry or not and go for fast food and also claim I had to get for another kids 2 of them id buy my food and then get 3 happy meald one for each kid and one forme plus my food!!!

I think I've done every single thing listed here.  In fact, because of my sneaky habits I've had a rule since surgery that I do not eat alone.  The only time this rule is not in effect is when I'm working nights, because I'm alone all night, but nothing is open so I have a fixed amount of food (what I bring) and no ability to get more.  

Frisco - this thread has been oddly comforting because I've always felt so alone and so much shame in these tricks that probably fooled no one but made me feel better as I made myself feel worse.

You know, Tricia, the first time I realized that other people actually did the same weird **** with food that I did was when I went to my first OA meeting.   I truly did feel like I had "come home" because I was hearing people talk about the same things I had secretly done for years! 

Tracy - I really go back and forth on whether I should attend OA.  I'm afraid people will talk to much about foods they love?  I can't handle "food porn".  It's too much for me, still, to think on the foods I used to abuse.  But I know it has really helped you.

People ins OA are pretty careful not to talk about specific foods.  They don't want to trigger anybody.  But they do talk about their behaviors with food.  That is helpful!

Oh, that does sound helpful!  I may have to see if I can find a local meeting.  Thanks, Tracy!

man i deff did some of these u guys are very creative i could easily see myself doing any of these things