Nobody's Perfect
Up until yesterday I've been on point with my nutrition just about every day since surgery. There may have been a few days where I didn't quite reach my protein goals or my calories were a little bit higher than I liked (around 800) but for the most part I'm proud of how consistent I've been with my nutrition. That is until yesterday. I don't know about the rest of you, but I am sick to death of water, protein shakes, and crystal light. That's all I have been drinking since about April and it's to the point now where I want to absolutely gag at the thought of drinking one more sip. I've changed it up with different flavors but they are all just different versions of ultimately the same taste. So yesterday my boyfriend brings home a bottle of wine (for himself) and I allowed myself to have a glass. That one glass turned into 2 glasses. I didn't really get drunk fast like I thought since reading all of the posts on here about alcohol after surgery but I did get a little buzzed. Pre-op I had a high tolerance for alcohol as I drank pretty often. I felt a little guilty after both glasses were gone but it felt absolutely amazing to drink something different. My carbs and calories yesterday were WAY higher than they should have been and for that I feel like crap but today when I weighed in on the scale I actually dropped a pound. Of course I could very well step on the scale tomorrow or the next day and be up 2 pounds but I'd like to think that one day off plan isn't going to kill me, as long as I don't let it become a habit. When I would diet in the past I always allowed myself to have "cheat days" and they would always end up in me cheating EVERY day and the diet would be over. I don't want to revert back to those days. But I do want to allow myself to have something nice every once in a *great* while. If I want to have the occasional "treat" is that really going to hurt me? Or is this just dangerous thinking? Am I never going to be able to enjoy and indulge in food and drink ever again?
No lectures about alcohol post VSG please. I've read the posts and done the research and I know I made a bad decision. I'm only human, and nobody's perfect!
My opinion...so take it for what it's worth...one occasional treat is not going to hurt! But....that is very dangerous thinking considering all you've gone through to make your life healthier and better. I am in the same boat...the thought of never having a gummy fruit snack again is not fun, but I know that I won't stop at the little snack size bag...I'll eat the whole huge bag every time! So...no more fruit snacks it is! My health...and yours...are way more important than succumbing to that temptation.
Once in while or at a special occasion seems OK with in limits. But its a slippery slope, as you mentioned. My cousin has a vsg and once a week goes out for 1 drink with her friends, either a glass of wine or a vodka/orange juice...Its once a week and she never finishes the drink. She also makes sure to eat before going out. I can't eat bread or crackers, they are sliders for me and can send me into an eating frenzy. But in the end I don't think you should punish yourself, and everyone deserves a small treat ever so often. Just try not to make it an every night kind of treat. If that's too hard to do then I would avoid the trigger.
one a different note:
I can't drink crystal light cause the sweetener after taste gets to me after a while. I drink a lot of cold and hot tea with stevia these days. ( I know that's not a lot of help but it might be worth checking out for some variety.) I also switch up my protein shakes by trying out sample packets.
You don't have to be that hard on yourself...but one thing I don't see this as is a diet. Most likely you had to change some of your eating habits before surgery and so now its just modifiers to slowly re-incorporate solids.
The wine..hmm...never thought about it..but if it was a welcome thing in the past...you will revisit it. Another thing...if you are weighting yourself everyday...I would stop. Weekly weigh in would be a little better...because every time you slip up...you gonna fly to that scale and in my opinion...I see other habits forming in place of the healthy ones you've worked for.
we aren't here to lecture...at least I'm not. I can only offer what I would do if I had your situation.
My plan is moderation and, for me, that works fine. For some people, it doesn't. So you've got to ask yourself if you can have a treat in moderation or if, for you, that is dangerous thinking. Only you can answer that for yourself.
VSG with Dr. Salameh - 3/13/2014
Diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder and started Vyvanse - 7/22/2016
Reconstructive Surgeries with Dr. Michaels - 6/5/2017 (LBL & brachioplasty), 8/14/2017 (UBL & mastopexy), 11/6/2017 (medial leg lift)
Age 42 Height 5'4" HW 319 (1/3/2014) SW 293 (3/13/2014) CW 149 (7/16/2017)
Next Goal 145 - normal BMI | Total Weight Lost 170
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