Completely Freaking Out!

Ok well I am less then 48 hours from surgery!!!! I am working today and tomorrow and then surgery is Wednesday. I am trying really hard to pay attention to what I have to do before I leave (I am a nurse at a Family Practice) and make sure that I have left my girls with enough help to cover me being gone. I mean I am ready (got all the vitamins, foods, protein, you name it) But still I can sit here and if I pay too much attention to thinking about the surgery I could literally break down in tears. I know I don't post a lot of things but sometime I think I need to vent to people who know what I am going thru. Granted my support system at work is PHENOMENAL!!!!!! But all everyone is saying is "Oh...You'll be fine"......HOW DO THEY KNOW???I don't. I mean I anticipate that everything will go without any complications but this sense of panic is sitting in the pit of my stomach. I find myself spacing out even when my DH is trying to talk to me. I know it's normal and I know everything will be alright but it's hard!!! VERY HARD! I was really just looking to vent a little. I hope everyone has a great Monday. 

Wow, you are doing great I wished I would have freaked only 48 hours before surgery, BUT I freaked for two months before surgery! It was like dooms day all the time! This is the last time I will eat this, what if my hair falls out, what if something goes wrong...on and on! I was very emotional and have read where some people have cried all the way to the operating table! I think that fear of not know what will happen if you lose the pounds...will you still be you, will people treat you the same. It is just all this unknown...what if it is not what I though it would be! All I can say is take a deep breathe remember why you are doing this and I am sure it will all work out~ Holli

Thank You so much Holli for your kind words...I WILL make it thru this....I just need to look at the end picture...Instead of freakin out that they are gonna put more holes in me then I already have..But again Thank You so much!

Yeah!!! Me too!!! I work today and tomorrow and then its off to the chopping block! THat sounded pretty bad.

I am so nervous, I started freaking out on Saturday. Im moody and weepy. I hope that I can get everything in order before I go. I know that I am forgetting something. I just need to calm down I think. I know I will be ok. I have to be right?

Dont worry surgery sister, your not alone!

Congrats on your upcoming surgery !  That is awesome and amazing and the best thing you can ever do for yourself! We are always here for ya....

It is so hard those last couple days, not to mention being deprived of something to chew and all you can do is drink clear liquids. Doesn't help get you're mind off the upcoming surgery! But everything will be alright, some how some way it will. Can't even tell you to chill because I couldn't and wouldn't expect anyone else to, but I can say I'm soooo pleased with my results that I would do it all over again! Best wishes to you guys!

 

Laura

I think that we forget sometimes how much food is an emotional crutch for us.  I freaked out to.  But i realized that part of my fear was from knowing i could not count on food to make me feel better anymore.  there is always the fear of the unknown.  i hated it when people said you will be fine, how did they know.  just let your emotions go.  Let yourself cry, you are saying goodbye to a part of you that wont exist anymore.  i think that you should not be so hard on yourself for feeling the way you do!