Saturday, December 6, 2025

119 - due to pizza intake last night.

It is incredibly foggy out this morning. You can't see anything across the marina. Really weird. We may have to walk in it as it isn't supposed to clear until 10 or so.

A yoga break yesterday was really nice. I plan to repeat that today, followed by a golf clinic.

I was thinking about the houseguest effects. We don't really have to take them places to entertain them but while they are here there is constant chatting. Tough to get much done because I feel weird to walk away to get something accomplished. 5 more days! Then 5 days alone until we leave for Massachusetts.

Strange what they eat and their perspective on it. Pop tarts for breakfast, hot dogs/grilled cheese/chicken fingers/hamburgers/pizza for lunch/dinner. Snacks like butter pretzels and Cheetos in between. The older sister who is probably 35-40 pounds overweight says she doesn't know why she is heavy since she only eats small meals. Which is true but highly caloric small meals and snacks. Luckily they buy their own snacks.

Time to get some laundry started then start a walk in the fog. I hope it clears earlier than forecasted!

Have a sweet Saturday!

Liz, remember nutrition education was really limited back in the day. When I was in my late teens and 20s everyone was all about low fat, no fat, etc... Remember that woman on TV Susan Powder or something like that who espoused eating baked potatoes and not eating meat??? Entenmann's came out with fat free danish that was loaded with sugar, then there were fat free potato chips, etc... We all just got fatter and fatter.

So, DH's sisters may just not know. My Ron still holds on to believing that fruit juice is a healthy beverage. I know a lot of people who believe meal size is more important than the macronutrients the meals contain. BFF will eat half a turkey and cheese sandwich with potato chips a Coke for lunch then have some chips or crackers and dip for a snack and complain that he doesn't eat much so he should be losing weight. He is very much a calorie in, calorie out believer, but doesn't realize that 4 Ritz crackers have more calories than a small apple or a hard boiled egg and spike blood glucose, etc...

So, 202.2 today for me. Had a good session with NUT therapist. While I was grooming Buster yesterday I was struck by the idea that I might be sabotaging myself because you know, if I'm not trying to lose weight, who am I? A lot of my inner identity is wrapped up in thinking I should always be trying to lose weight.... When we discussed this idea she asked me if I was feeling rebellious. I was honestly able to answer no. But then something started to trigger me and I realized I was having issues around believing that to get below 200 I needed to withhold food and I have significant issues with "Don't take my food away!" type thinking. When I start thinking I will be deprived, my eating disordered thinking kicks into high gear. I felt good getting to the crux of that.

Another gray and gloomy day. The sun is threatening to break through the fog. Fingers crossed it does.

DD, hope the orchestra concert was great. CC, glad you had fun last night and fun playing with your new robot washer! Diane S, glad you are getting sun!!!! Paula, enjoy that lovely pool. Have you seen any gators yet? Those prehistoric creatures give me the heebies!

Have a super Saturday everyone.

Greetings all

Quick check in before I head off for gallery duty. Early December is slow for us but there are a number of events in the small town of Trinidad so maybe more people will come in. It is foggy but it seems to be letting up. I kind of like fog but it can become too much. Like last night when it blotted out the super moon.

Interesting on your guests eating habits Liz. I used to study the eating habits of others and check out what people have in their carts at the grocery. Not so much any more. But it shows what highly processed foods can do. Maybe your guests are eating that way because they are on vacation and seeking convenience.

I hear you Peps on life being about dieting. I breathe - therefore I diet. I personally have often felt rebellious about the oppressiveness of weight and society which has led me to "so I am fat **** you" thinking. Not in my best interest. I loved it when i was super thin after vsg - as low as 117. Felt light as a feather. I would like that again but just can't seem to get it together. No insight.

Pot roast is in the slow cooker. Dinner solved for a few days. Lunch today was 1/4 of a cheeseburger that DH brought home. That was plenty.

Gotta go.

Diane S

The concert last night was fabulous! It was a classical program with pieces from Haydn and Dvork. We had a guest conductor who was very theatrical. DH said she was a firecracker. Tonight we switch gears and go to a jazz/pop Christmas concert.

I finally finished the Christmas decorating. Last tweak is I need to buy some candles to replace the ones that are mostly burned down. I'm not sure why I was dragging my feet so much, because now that it's done it looks so happy and cozy.

I finally ordered the new chairs I'd picked out over a month ago. I was happy that we were able to meet up with the same salesperson who helped us then so he could get the commission. The last time I bought furniture that did't come in a flat box that you assemble was when DD was in high school (family room couch) She's 33 now, so it's been awhile. I ordered 3 chairs, two club chairs that match, and then a little bit bigger, deeper chair with an ottoman to be my reading chair. That one I even special ordered with the fabric selections offered. Who wee, I've never done that before. I was a little nervous thinking, what if how I'm envisioning it is not how it will look. But I think in the end I will love it.

Interesting thoughts about nutrition, and all the fads we went through. A million times at Weigh****chers, Cabbage soup diet, Stop the Insanity (low fat), Atkins, (the only one that worked at all for me). Did anyone try the brown rice and fruit diet? That lasted a couple of days for me. And always feeling like a failure. Now I look back and think I tried really really hard. Harder than people who don't struggle with obesity could ever understand. I remember during one Weigh****chers try, laying in bed, trying to sleep and so hungry, wondering if I could make half a piece of whole wheat bread work in my points for the day.

The first time I did Weigh****chers in college (1982) I was 162 pounds, and I got down to 132. I was so hungry, but I began to enjoy the feeling, and thought of it as being clean. Certainly flirting with an eating disorder at one point. I remember feeling so guilty for eating a banana, because in the WW fruit exchange at that time, one fruit = 1/2 a banana.

I feel pretty okay with food choices, really, since I was sleeved. The only thing that troubles me is protein. Meat is a struggle, and even protein sources I liked one day, I don't the next. I'm looking at you cottage cheese.

And speaking of feeling okay, I love being in my 60s and finally at peace with myself. In high school, I always felt kind of ugly and chunky (although in retrospect I was not really FAT). I never felt like I had the bloom of youth on me in my teens. In college, I had my "The summer I turned pretty" moment. Glad DH was along for the ride, because I pulled a fast one on him by gaining over 100 pounds in my 30s. He had his memories. Actually, he never once made me feel bad about my weight. Even though I was morbidly obese, I probably liked myself better than I had in my teens. But now, past middle age, I am so much more comfortable in my own (very saggy) skin. I'm okay with the imperfections, because , WOW! I'm still here. And it's grand. : )