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Okay, I hope I got this right...



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I was trying to post these last night and it was giving me a hard time. So lets see if it works on here...

  I'm down to the lowest I've ever been at memorial. I'm 140 this morning. Can't seem to move any lower than that. The lowest gas been 136, but I bounce around from that to 140. Today a friend walked uP to my hubby and whispered in his ear, "Don't tell your wife I told you this, but she's a keeper! Very hot! And nice of course, but she's gorgeous!' Always makes you feel good to hear someone say something like that!  

Anyways, here's a few pics. 

 

I'm just wondering if I can add pics here from instagram... I'm gonna try!

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I posted this on the forum, but, I had to save it on my blog too...   So this weekend we had a convention and a friend walked up to me and said she needed to talk to me. I was thinking, "oh-uh, what did I do now?"   So she starts out with, "I don't want to offend you but you need to know. When people lose weight..." (Now I'm thinking she's gonna say something about my dress or something, thinking she's gonna say people start dressing sexier or something. Not that I think I'm sexy, that's just what went through my mind! Anyways...)   She continued, " when people lose weight, a lot of them get really snobby. I've known a few that have gotten very stuck up. But you haven't! Matter of fact, you haven't changed at all! You're still the same cheery person I've always known. You always smiled and you still do! I just wanted to commend you on a job well done and for not letting it get to your head."    I said thanks and told her that getting skinny was never the objective of the surgery. I just wanted to feel better. And I do! Boy do I! Anyways, here's a few pics... Don't know if it'll work, but if not, they're on my profile. 

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I went to buy a wig this past weekend. The girl who helped me kept making comments about my size saying things like "you tiny little thing," "you're such a cute little thing", "you're so tiny and cute", "you're such a little cutie", "any smaller and I'd have to put you in my pocket" and so on and so forth.(This lady doesn't know me and doesn't know I was 307 lbs before)  I kept saying thanks but didnt know what else to say to her. The word tiny seems foreign to me. 

My husband even noticed the comments. He said later in that she was flirting with me. I didn't see it that way, but, he's a guy, he would notice those things. 

Lately, though, I have received a lot of comments about how "tiny" I am. I don't feel any smaller, and I haven't lost any weight. I've been between 139-141 all December and January. My clothes for about the same. Yet I keep getting the comments that I look tinier or thinner than before. One friend said, " I know I haven't seen you for a week, but it looks like you lost ten pounds since the last time I saw you. You're so tiny!"  

Even my mom, who I haven't seen since December, said I look smaller (we face timed today. She's in Central America). She said, "stop losing weight, or when I finally see you I won't recognize you!" 

Today I had to go shopping for new pants. The pants I'm wearing (size 7) kept falling off. I had put off buying new pants because in my mind theres no way I can be smaller than this. No way! but after pulling up over and over I said, enough is enough! I need new pants!

I went and tried a size 5/6. They fit fine, but I decided to try on size 3/4 (they were on special $4.00!)

They fit too! Now, I didn't get too excited over it, cause I know some pants run a little larger, so I went and grabbed another pair, different brand, size 3/4... and they too fit! So I went home with 3 pairs of pants today, size 3/4!

I just can't believe it! How can I, who used to be in a size 28 or 5X, fit into these tiny pants?! How? Is this really possible?

I still can not believe this. It seems impossible. I havent even lost weight in over a month. But I lost inches I guess, cause my butt fit these incredibly tiny jeans!

 

That I can post a picture here, but not on the RNY Forum? I keep trying but every time...FAIL! I GIVE UP!

Yesterday at meeting a sister came up to me and said, "You look so long and skinny!" I laughed and told her no ones ever called me long before. I mean, I'm 5'1, so not long at all. But she laughed and said, it's a compliment, you look great!" I thanked her. A few minutes later another sister came up to me and said, "You look skinny! You've done such a great job. I'm proud of you." I thanked her too and have her a hug. I'm feeling pretty good. Except for the low sugar. 

Ive been dealing with that and low blood pressure. It's not terribly low, but my blood is usually 70-80. And my BP is usually 90/55. 

So here's my dilemma:
My doc wants me to eat more carbs. As in bread or crackers. I explained to him I can't, but he says to me, "At this point your not desperately trying to lose weight. Your BMI is 28, you're healthy. There's no reason why you couldnt eat some bread. You need it to get your blood sugar up." 

So, in my head, I can't eat bread. I just can't. I realize it's for my own good, cause of my low bs, but I can't. And honestly, I won't. I like how I look and feel and eating bread to me is like failing. It leads to the road to failure. I told him I was eating beans, they have carbs. But according to him, not enough. I told him that my nutritionist has told me to eat veggies because they have carbs. Again, he said not enough.  I don't want to change how I'm eating. I hate change. At this point I really would like to try to get to goal first before I start changing things up. 

Im just frustrated. I want to listen to my doctor, but I also want to listen to my nutritionist. She wants me to get to goal, my doc wants me to be healthy. What I don't think he gets, is that for me to stay healthy, I have to avoid the things that got me to 307 lbs in the first place. I don't know what to do...

 I am 20 lbs. from being a "normal" weight. I have to reach 132 lbs to have a BMI of 24.9, which is normal. Right now, my BMI is 28.9. Still overweight, but, oddly enough I don't feel over weight. I feel good. Yesterday I wore heels from 2:30 -10:00 pm without getting sore feet. And these weren't little heels! No sir! These were like 5 inch heels! But I was fine. So, even though I have a BMI that states that's I'm overweight, I feel pretty darn normal. 

But, after I wrote this it sure sounds like it, so please forgive me. It's not my intention. Okay, here's what I wrote:

 Yesterday we had a special day convention and I saw people I hadn't seen since maybe July, which was our last convention. Apperantly I've lost more since then cause people were still coming up to me saying I look even better! I was told I look gorgeous (which I've never been told, pretty yes, gorgeous, never) a guy asked me if I was 21/22 years old, to which I laughed and said thanks, you've made my day! But then I got told a few times how young I look. Everyone kept saying I look 22 or so. So I guess I look way younger than I am. I also got told I was skinny, don't loose more weight! I said I'm working with my doctor to get me healthy, so I'm doing good, thanks. ( I learned that here in OH). I was complemented left and right, that I ran out of things to say and at the end I would just smile and say thanks. Even my husband kept saying how sexy I looked and then at the end of the day he said he saw a lot of guys checking me out, which I didn't notice cause I never notice those things. My brain just doesn't work that way. Anyways, I had a great day, enjoyed the info, enjoyed the compliments, and most importantly, enjoyed the company of so many friends. 

Oh, and I totally forgot! My in laws were there, and I haven't seen them since July either. I walked up to them to say hi and they didn't recognize me at first. They were like, oh! It's Dee! You get more beautiful everttyine we see you! 
Thats was an awesome NSV!