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My New Year
Jan 02, 2012
Wow... I have not been on this site in forever. I posted my story from my old profile and my last entry was 12/2004! Where has the time gone. So much has happened in the past few years! As I approach my 9th year anniversary (wow), I reflect over all the time that has gone by. Let me see if I can summarize here....Separated and divorced. Remarried. New Job. 3 surgeries (none WLS related), Health related issues, Menopause and a HUGE weight gain. When I started this journey, I said I wanted to get down to 135 as my goal. I cheated from the start and my weight came off very very slowly. I finally reached 170 and size 10 and because of my height, realized 135 was to small. I was ok at 170 but would have perhaps gone to 160 (which is my new goal now) had I kept going in the loosing direction. I have continued to go up the scale and presently today I weigh in at 242. I have tried unsuccessfully to get the weight off numerous times and have failed due to MY lack. I am back at HATING my look and getting dressed. I feel like a stuffed sausage and my clothes get tighter and tighter. I have been BATTLING MAJOR depression lately over my weight and feel like I am in the same place I was before my WLS. Last week it hit me and I realized my weight is not that far from where I started and I have NO ONE to blame but myself. I REFUSE to cry because I did this! With all this being said, I AM DETERMINED to get this weight off. I woke this morning with a determination that since my life is being rebirthed and renewed (My Spirituality has been increased and I believe the LORD is doing a works in me) that I would start NEW and try this again. I HATE to exercise but love to walk and dance. So to the gym I go and will do a walkout on MWFand taking a dance class on Tuesday and water aerobic class on Thursday. My eating is what is out of control so I have a MAJOR challenge in that area but AM determined to win this time. Naturally, I received a NEGATIVE comment from my sister about going to the gym as a New Year's Resolution. As I explained, it's not about a resolution, but a way of life that I need to grab hold to and do this thing. My attitude is to use her negative as fuel to keep going to prove to MYSELF, I WILL do this thing and WILL NOT STOP this time..So...here I am again and I will journal this thing out. Sharing my success and progress no matter what. I can only go up from here cause I am at bottom!!!!!
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About Me
Saint Paul, MN
Location
44.4
BMI
Surgery
01/24/2003
Surgery Date
Dec 27, 2002
Member Since
Before & After
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day before surgery 1/23/03
316lbs
taken 11/28/03 (Boy what a difference)
189lbs