Emily D
5-5-04
Looking forward to a new beginning.
I can't live in this condition anymore!
Please help.
Looking forward to a new beginning.
I can't live in this condition anymore!
Please help.
6-04-04
My name is Emily I live just outside Amarillo. I have been reading and learning about WLS options. I had my stomach stapled in 1986. I lost 100 pds in about 7 months then I got pregnant. The surgeon said abortion and so did my gyno, but it wasn't an option for me. I finally came up with the plan to call every gyno in the book and ask if the Dr. was catholic. Well it worked of course I didn't no anything about being catholic except they didn't beleive in abortion. Long story short I gave birth to my third son all went well. I have since gained all 100 pounds back plus 75 or so more. Weighing in at a depressingly 364 pounds. I have battled weight all my life. I am tired of the battle. I have been stuck on self destruct for way to long. I just turned 44 (6/1/60) . I have 3 sons, 20, 18, 16. The 20 year old moved out recently to Nashville Tenn. I worry about him and miss him. My husband is a LT. Fireman for the city. We also own a roofing business. I keep the books. We joke and say I am the brains he is the brawn. I have lots of health problems that may wind up keeping me from being approved for surgery. Not to mention money issues. So I guess I am just in the wishing stage. I wish I could change the direction of my life. I wish God had installed a on off switch. I would have switched the off button a long time ago. But since that is not going to happen I must come up with other options. I have to get this weight off my body. I know I am trying to kill myself with food. I went to see a shrink a couple weeks ago he is the one that suggested WLS. He also put me on Lexapro. I can't tell any difference for the better.
.........update on Prozac now....
My name is Emily I live just outside Amarillo. I have been reading and learning about WLS options. I had my stomach stapled in 1986. I lost 100 pds in about 7 months then I got pregnant. The surgeon said abortion and so did my gyno, but it wasn't an option for me. I finally came up with the plan to call every gyno in the book and ask if the Dr. was catholic. Well it worked of course I didn't no anything about being catholic except they didn't beleive in abortion. Long story short I gave birth to my third son all went well. I have since gained all 100 pounds back plus 75 or so more. Weighing in at a depressingly 364 pounds. I have battled weight all my life. I am tired of the battle. I have been stuck on self destruct for way to long. I just turned 44 (6/1/60) . I have 3 sons, 20, 18, 16. The 20 year old moved out recently to Nashville Tenn. I worry about him and miss him. My husband is a LT. Fireman for the city. We also own a roofing business. I keep the books. We joke and say I am the brains he is the brawn. I have lots of health problems that may wind up keeping me from being approved for surgery. Not to mention money issues. So I guess I am just in the wishing stage. I wish I could change the direction of my life. I wish God had installed a on off switch. I would have switched the off button a long time ago. But since that is not going to happen I must come up with other options. I have to get this weight off my body. I know I am trying to kill myself with food. I went to see a shrink a couple weeks ago he is the one that suggested WLS. He also put me on Lexapro. I can't tell any difference for the better.
.........update on Prozac now....
Skyler Chase Mike Emily Justin
9-16-05
The last year has been very busy and has passed much to fast. We have had a son graduate ,one move back home with pregnant girlfriend, get married have baby and divorce. Can anyone say stress? I guess its no wonder I am at a all time high weight of 387. It is a record breaking total disgusting truth. So there I said it three hundred eighty seven. Yesterday I met Dr. Udekwu the new surgeon in Amarillo. I think everything went well . He said he would do a revision. But the problem would be with insurance because as he remembers he got a letter a month ago that my insurance would no longer cover WLS. DARN IT a month ago grrrrrrrr!!!!!!! Can they change policy like that? It doesn’t seem fair at all. I am going to try anyway , maybe a revision is different. I can only hope and pray at this point.
10-18-05 Still working on the WLS approval I have had the psycho test , diet consult, sleep Dr. report, upper GI, referral letter from PCP, yesterday I had cardio ECHO test and medical records have been requested. Now I guess its WAIT WAIT WAIT. The angels are working in my behalf I can feel it. I will continue to keep the faith.
11-16-05 I have decided to go to Mexico with Dr. Ungson. I will be there on Monday the 28th and surgery Dec. 1
This was posted on the DS message board and saved here because I need to hear this often and maybe it will help someone else.
Do not allow family and friends to give you advice they are not educated enough to give.....they have only heard about the bad things with weight loss surgery...they have no idea why you need to have it...they can not even fathom why you are willing to take such a risk...if they could feel for a second what we feel being super obese...they would shudder and cry at their insensitiveness and inability to understand...they would be a number 1 supporter.....but it does not work like that....you need to know the facts...........learn all you can...know the risk, the chance of problems.....weigh those against where you are in your life....and you'll know...no one will have to tell you and no one should change your mind that is not knowledgeable of this life style. everybody means well when they are throwing their 2 cents in but you have to know the other 98 cents....get informed....be focused...allow no one to stop you once you have decided this is for me....be on fire, be excited and never stop educating yourself on the new life and the new you that is coming....being informed is the number one thing you can do for you....know the difference between hear say and facts....and most of all know the difference between I think this is a good idea and I need to save myself now.
11-18-05 I have done more work today than I have in months. I have cleaned and organized and ironed and washed . Oh! my I have been busy. All the while thinking to myself if I don’t come back from Mexico I have got to clean and throw away all this crap before my mother in law comes in here and sees that I lived like a slob. I wrote my Dear Friends and Family Letter . I still have so much to do before I leave. I called Cingular and got on the Mexico plan so minutes will be 59 cents and not 99cents. I set my TIVO to record Gilmore Girls. Very important indeed. I have been making a list and checking it twice. HO HO HO I ordered some big ole panties and some loose dresses cause I wear tight suck me in panties and no dresses. But I found some cheep ones and I hear that’s what will be most comfortable after surgery.
please excuse the poor use of grammar in the following letter. Spell check will only do so much. I flunked English. Back in the early 70’s skipping school and getting high was all I was interested in. Also didn’t help much that I am dyslexic and have ADD. I was in my 40’s before I got a diagnoses. Teachers always told me and my parents I was just too fat and lazy and was a daydreamer. I think they must of put a curse on me.
Dear Family and Friends
I am writing this letter to update you with what is going on in my life. I have made arrangements to go to Hermosillo Mexico on Nov. 28th to have what is called Biliopancreatic Diversion . DS for short. The DS is a weight loss surgery that combines restrictive and malabsortive components to weight loss. I have always struggled with my weight as I am sure you all know. I have gotten to almost 400 pounds I weigh 387 pounds now. I am 45 years old My Doctors have told me that I will be an invalid soon that my heart will need a new mitral valve soon . These things and worse are in my future if I don’t get this weight off. This is of course not the first attempt at losing weight for me as many of you know I have lost and regained many times in the past . I have even had WLS in 1987 so this will be my second stomach surgery. Needless to say I am high risk, but the risk of not going ahead is just as great. I have spent months trying to get my insurance to cover this but they just will not cover the DS. I am going to pay for this myself (with a loan and credit cards) that is why I am going to Mexico. Here in the states the DS cost apx. 35,000.00 in Mexico it will be 11,000.00 for the DS and about 1,000.00 to travel. I am going alone but rest assured that I have done many hours of research and I am confident that I am going to be in the best of hands. Dr Gilberto Ungson will be doing the surgery on Dec. 1st at the Cima Hospital in Hermosillo. I will stay and recover there for about 10 days. I will have my lap top with me and will be checking emails.
Now that I have that out of the way I want to take this time to tell you how much I love you and that I am grateful to have such wonderful family and friends. I have not been very good at all in keeping in touch. I think it is mostly due to lack of self esteem and depression. I keep to myself for the most part out of shame ,387 pounds tends to do that to ya. So I ask you to please forgive me for not being closer to you as I should. I want desperately to be close to all my family and friends. I live such a lonely and isolated life now but I have done that to myself. I am praying for the best of outcomes for surgery . I would like you to keep me in your prayers also.
1. To just survive.
2. To lose this prison of weight.
3. To Establish better and new relations with my friends and family.
1. To just survive.
2. To lose this prison of weight.
3. To Establish better and new relations with my friends and family.
Ever since MOM (Patsy) passed away family ties have been strained. It is no doubt that she kept a good hold on the ties that bind family together. I know even she didn’t have a easy job doing that. But I have just flat dropped the ball. I have seen Skyler receive his Eagle scout badge, Skyler and Chase graduate High School ,Justin graduates in May , Skyler has gotten married and the birth of granddaughter (Karlee….my sunshine) to all of these occasions my friends and family have been there to shower my kids with there love and support. You probably did not get a thank you from my kids so I just want to say an extra special thank you from me I am truly grateful and in ah at your generosity. I t has not been easy raising these boys but I do think Mike and I have done a pretty terrific job.
Husband…Sons….Dad…Brothers….Mother in law … Father in Law ….Daughter in law…Grand daughter .... Aunts…. Uncles…. Sisters in law.…. Brother in law.… Nieces …. Nephews .… Cousins…. Friends…..Mom and Nanny’s and Grandpas in heaven…………
I LOVE YOU
Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I plan on having a “Coming out of my fat party” in about a year I hope you will plan to come. We need a family reunion anyway.
May God Bless You and Yours, Happy Thanksgiving and Merry Christmas
May God Bless You and Yours, Happy Thanksgiving and Merry Christmas
Emily
11-22-05 I had a nice talk with my PCP he was so nice. I was really afraid to tell him I was going to Mexico. I had that feeling of being in trouble and heading to the principals office, I hate that feeling. I took him a print out of all the information on Dr. Ungson. And I knew my stuff. He said he could tell that I had done my homework. I don't think I have ever been told that before. Very empowering. I like it. We talked for about 30 minutes, he was very supportive and wants to see me as soon as I get back. He didn't even charge me for the visit. SHOCKING
The clothes I ordered came. My hubby said they look like curtains. I really don't like loose dresses either. This too shall pass. Grandbaby is coming over today. It's really going to be hard leaving her. I just love her to pieces.
God Bless and stay out of the principals office would ya.
The clothes I ordered came. My hubby said they look like curtains. I really don't like loose dresses either. This too shall pass. Grandbaby is coming over today. It's really going to be hard leaving her. I just love her to pieces.
God Bless and stay out of the principals office would ya.
Me and nurse Erica
Emily at WalMart the flowers were beautiful
Mike and Emily Valentines 2006
Six months and down 120 pounds.
9 months and down 153 pounds.
