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What God Has For Me, It Is For Me-Me-Me'Thank you for visiting my page I will give you a brief summary of my life. I am a 32 y/o mother of 3 children that try me sometimes. I have be overweight for the past 12 years and each year I gain more wait. I have been researching this surgery ever since the doctor tried to get my mother to have it but she said no on the day of surgery. She let her friends talk her out of it and now she wants it and cant get it. Well from that day I told myself that I could not be like my mother, aunts, grandmother in which are all ladies of PLENTY. So during the Christmas holidays 2004 I was in Augusta at my aunts house and we were talking about my weight. So when I returned home I made the proper calls to start this ball to rolling.July 2006 Well I have been having a hard time this month to start I am without a job as of 11 July. I have became very ill for no reason no sign just went in and "bam" the doctor have me taking all this test and I am feeling ok on some days and a hot mess on others. I am not going to go into deep detail about whats going on but I will say that last went the nurse called and told me I needed a blood tranfusion and I told her no due to my own reasoning. So she told me to pick up some meds that the doc had called in for me. Well I started to take them right away and eating everything I could think of that was high in iron and went to the doctor on Monday 24 July and my blood iron had came up from what it was. To god be the glory. June 2006 I cant remember but I have been taking my vitamins and drinking.
I cant really remember everything now that happen in this month the kids got out of school and left home. My oldest went to my mother and my yougest went to her god parents. What a blessing it is to have good people in your life. I also meet Fred in this month I went to the club not planning on going. I was sitting there and he came in with two females so I assumed one of them was his girl well as it turns out NO. They were just friends work together so I asked him to dance and he asked me for my number so we have been together every since. 12-April-2006 Hello Fam well my life has been nothing but trouble these last couple of weeks for one my sister passed away on 30 March 2006 and she never got a chance to see me since I have lost the weight. My mother came to stay with us for a week during the time my sister passed that was horrible we dont get along and never have but she is my mother so I make it happen. But in the mix of all this confusion my niece had a healthy baby boy (Elijah) on 01 April 2006 see how god works he takes one life and gives you another. As for me its like my weight has stopped I will loose two pound and gain them right back that is what it seems like. I have been taking the vits and drinking water like crazy sometime I catch myself not eating at all just drinking. Well I went to a party Saturday and boy was that fun and excited all eyes on the use to be FAT GURL but that was a comment that was made and I just laughed. I was grinning from ear to ear cause everyone was telling me how good I looked and the men were wwwhhheeeeeeeewwwwwww LAWD. I left there and went to the club and the first person I see is my ex and this dude followed me the whole time I was in the club. But I still enjoyed myself while I was there. March 2006 Well since my last post alot has happen to me well last night me and my man called it quits. Yes not too long ago I was raving of how sweet he was too me and the kids but I cant be with someone that is making me miserable know matter what. I have learn to deal with what comes my way and him, I can do without. I know your wondering what happen with us well I will just give the short version. He knows I had surgery I told him in the beginning and showed him so photos he was very supportive of me even gave me some pointers on working out. Well it all started because he wants to be my father and not my man. We have talked several times of him acting like he is my father and he just say that is the way he is and that he will work on it but it was not getting better it is getting worst so last nite was the final line for me. He called to see where I was I told him I had just picked up my oldest from the beauty shop so he was like come by the sub shop so we can get some sandwiches and watch the game. So my daughter was cool with that when I got there he had already ordered for him and I then my daughter ordered well while she is ordering he made a comment about my pants (negative) I brush the comment off and continued to and changed the subject. Then it came up of him coming to my house well he didnt like the fact that I said I will be to his house so he stated that so you dont want me to your house and got loud with me in the parking lot at the sub shop. Well I got in my car and left him standing there. So I got to his house turn the TV on sitting there we began to talk and then it all came out again I ask him not to start with me and he said dont grumble and stay so I ask him not to say that again cause I will leave. He said ok then we started talking I was telling him he is still treating me like a CHILD at time and I tired of it so he say dont grumble and stay 3 times. So I got up and walked out so I know this relationship will never work cause he will never change. That was the short version and sorry for rambling. So I went to the club last night and had a DAMN good time and I will be going out tonight I am not looking for anyone just to get out the house and get my dance on.
06-January-06 Other things are still the same I take my vitamins everyday and drink as much water as I can daily at least 64oz+ per day. I dont eat as much as I should cause of my job but I do get my exercrise in I workout 3X a week.
I went to Six Flags on Saturday first time going and had a good time got on every ride I could think of. Left Augusta went to see my mom and..........finish later 19 August 05 Well today we had another family dinner and everyone was saying how good I was doing cause I was preparing plates for everyone and not eating. Everyone was saying they could not do it but I have to get use to the fact that I can not eat like I use to so I am fine with it. Thank you Jesus.18-June-05 My family had a dinner for my cousin that is a truck driver today and he was not there to get the meal he was stuck somewhere else but I had a good time and now the cat is out the bag my family knows that I had the surgery and they are more supportive in my face than I thought they would be But I did make the comment to one of my relatives that if anyone had any thing negative to say for them to keep it to themself. Cause I didnt want to her it so now my aunt came out to tell me that she was thinking of having the surgery and she was asking me questions. Good thing my angel showed up to answer some of the questions too. My angel is the best Cookie Luscious.17-June-05 I went to the doc today and I had my 1 month check and I have lost 27lbs so you know I was screaming in the office.03-June-05 I went to the doc for my 1 week appt and I had lost 10lbs and he released me to go back to work on light duty. 27-May-05 Well Today the doc came in and said that I was doing fine and that if things are still going great that I could go home by the end of the day. Well I here to tell you that things went very well and I went home. Thank you Jesus.26-May-05 Today I have been walking up and down the halls taking in a little bit of fluids. I forget that I am not eating. My Angel (Cookie Luscious) came to see me today we walked the halls. My aunt stayed with me last night bless her heart I love her so much.25-May-05 Today I went for my Barium test that is some nasty s**t the guy really pissed me off cause he going to tell me to keep drinking until he tells me to stop and I told that will not happen cause I am finished. That was my first drink since surgery and I was not about to get sick for drinking to much. I had to take some pain medicine when I got back from all the moving I had done but this was my last pain medicine no more after this. I walked a little bit today and they took the cath out (I begged them to take it out so I could walk)24-May-05 Well last night I slept very well a little miserable from the last meal but I did sleep good. I was up on time and at the hospital. I took some before pictures at the hospital. I have not had a chance to get those pictures developed yet. Well the only thing I really remember before surgery is that they could not for the life of me find a vein. I was stuck to many damn times and finally they got one just (2 minutes) before I was sent in for surgery. As my sister and the doctor tells me I showed out after they gave me the jolly juice (LOL) I was saying things that just made everyone laugh. They surgery only last for 1 hour and 15 minutes so the doctor said that that was very good and that night I was up moving around. Thank you Jesus.23-May-05 I made it to Augusta went out to eat to have that last meal and enjoyed myself with my family before that big day. My uncle was a little worried of everyone else cause he continue to ask me if I was ok and if I am sure this is what I want to do. Well I took my shower with the medicine they gave me said a pray and put it in God's hands and went to sleep. 21-May-05 I went to a party last night I dance like there was NO tomorrow and believe me I am paying for it now the knees are asking for a PRAY for themself.(LOL) 20-May-05 I went to get my hair done today and the chic cancelled on me well as everyone knows it is the weekend and most of the places in this area if you dont make an appointment the week prior you will not get one until the next two weeks. So I am looking like what in the H@#% am I going to do. Well if I cant find someoone to do it for me tomorrow I will have to do the ponytail thing. 19-May-05 Was my last day at work and I did not tell them what I was having surgery for but I will keep them informed of my progress. 17-May-05 I went for my last appointment before surgery and everything went well. Except I was so nervous that I was sweating like I had ran a marathon (LOL). I went to the hospital after that did all my bloodwork done, EGC and took X-ray. It took me about an hour to get everything done cause it is all in the same area. 06-May-05 I am so sorry for not posting more often but things have been hectic with me just starting a new job that means working two jobs, the kids and trying to get myself ready mentally for this life changing experience. So I have made it my business not to tell alot of people cause I dont want negative people around me at no time. Well before I posted about my sister making the comment about me sticky to the new change. Well I dont know what has gotten into her but she wants to spend every Thursday with me. I was so surprise for the pass couple of Thursday she has call to see what I was doing and says lets go hang out. Also today I got a call from my surgeons office stating that they need to change my appointment for my preop testing it will be two days earlier. 26-March-05Well it has been a week since I last posted well if you remember I have been approved and I still do not have a date. Well I called the surgeons office they say they have not recieved the confirmation for the insurance company so I will have to wait until they get it to schedule my big day. I have been approved since 16 March. By the way the doctors will not call the insurance company and the insurance company will not call the doctors office. So I will just have to wait until they get there confirmation letter so I am looking to be having surgery somewhere in the next 3 months cause as of now my surgeon is backed up until May. So I am just keeping myself prayed up and waiting cause what god has for me it is for me. 18-March-05 I called the surgeon office today to inform them that I had been approved as of 3/16. The nurse informed me that she would have to wait until the letter comes in before she can set a date. She also stated that the doctor is booked out as far as May. I was a little disappoint at first but then I start to think of my children. It will be better for them cause they will be out of school. They can go with me to Augusta for surgery I have a aunt that lives there and she told me that they can stay with her. I love this woman so much she is behind me 100%. 16-March-05I went today to get the results of my sleep test and the doctor told me that I need to lose major weight or get on the CPAP but I told him that I would like to wait before I get the machine cause I am planning to have surgery and he said that he will give me 2 months and if I have not had surgery by then that I will have to get on the machine no exceptions So I called the surgeon of to get the fax number so they can fax over the results and she said tht I didnt need them so I was like ok thats kool but will you please tell me why I had to take them if you dont need them. 14-March-05 I call the surgeon's office today and was told that my paperwork just went in on 09-March-05 boy was I hot with her that has been 2 weeks that she had my paperwork holding on to it and that could have been the 2weeks the insurance could have had it 23-Feb-05I went to my sleep study it went ok I was just tired as scrape when I left 21-Feb-05 I meet my surgeon today I think he is the best very nice and charming he explained things to me and he saw that I had some papers with me that I had been reading he answered all my questions and told me to get ready cause I was almost at the finish line. 10-Feb-05 PCP called today and gave me my appointment date and told me if I needed to change to let them know so I did change it to a better day that was convient for my children. 08-Feb-05 Called the PCP today to see if she had sent in my referral and she told me that she has not had time but that she will be getting to it this week. 01-Feb-05 Called the PCP today to see if she had sent in my referral and she told me that she has not had time. 27-Jan-05 Today I got up called my PCP and told them of the situation and she told me if I find a doctor to take the insurance call her back and she would give me a referral so I went on the mission I called several dotors to hear that they no longer do the surgery or they don take my insurance. But at one office I called she said that they didnt take the insurance so I asked if she knew of someone that did and she gave me the doctors info so I called them and asked if I could schedule an appointment and the lady to me that I had to be referred first so I called my PCP and gave her the info. She told me good job cause I had did all the leg work for her. After all the calling I had to pat myself on the back. 26-Jan-05 I went to attend a meeting at the hospital for WLS and at this meeting is when I was told that they do not accept my insurance I was so heart broken but it did not last long cause before I left the lady there gave me some names of other doctors. 07-Jan-05 Is the day I started on the path to become a loser. I went to see my PCP and discuss the problems that I had been having and how the holidays went for me and he said what do you think of WLS and I told him that I have been doing my research on it so that is all it took and he referred me to a doctor.
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