Steph O.
Worrying...Part II
Feb 20, 2007
I feel the scared to death, insomnia, constant worry phase coming on...will I survive this alone? Am I doing this for sheer vanity? Will my kids be okay without me for 10 days? Are my boobs that ugly now (yes, okay...that was an easy one!).
I know I need the panniculectomy. The exercise alone is just not putting a dent in it...but do I really need the full lbl?
I guess I just have to keep praying for whatever is supposed to happen, to happen. It is just so hard to know if I am making the right decision. My hubby says go for it! Gosh I love that man! He loved me at 330+ pounds and loves me now and can't wait as he says to have the "souped up model" (as in cars). He is truly one of a kind. Anyhow, I can quit rambling now. I wonder if anyone else goes through this or if I am just obsessive!!?!??
((Hugs to all)) ~ Steph
Worrying...
Jan 31, 2007
They say the average weight/size loss of a patient who had LBL is 2 to 3 dress sizes. WOW how I would LOVE to be a 12/14! It just seems so un-real. I haven't been that size since 7th or 8th grade. I am going to go to Dr. Soberanes in TJ. I will stay at the recovery house for 8 nights. The cost looks to be around $13,500. They wanted 18K in Seattle for just the LBL so once again for those of us who self pay, Mexico seems to be at least 50% less than the states.
I tried on bridesmaid dresses yest. with my soon to be sis in law. I needed a 20 to fit around my boobs! (uuuuggghhh!!) We decided not to buy my dress though until 8 weeks post op since I am hoping to be down in sizes by then. The wedding isn't until June 2nd so we have time.
Well, I should go now. Thanks for reading if anyone did :o)
Blessings~ S.
Me today 01/24/07
Jan 24, 2007
Okay, so I have decided to try and write me "important" info and updates in here. So here is all about me today :o)
I had a fill yest. with Dr. Kelley. It went well. She brought me from 3.8 to 4.2 in my "4" cc band.
I spoke to Jessica with Dr. Soberano's office and am waiting to hear back from them about whether he thinks he can do both my surgeries at the same time or not. For those not knowing, I am hoping to have an extended tummy tuck and breast lift w/augmentation in March or so...
I am nervous about going somewhere in MX where I have never been and going alone again. I just keep reminding myself that I am never alone and that if it is supposed to be, then God will lead me.
I was asked to be a bridesmaid in my brother in laws wedding in June and would love to be healed by then and be able to "cut a rug" on the dancefloor with the best of them (or on the barn floor as it were).
I am solidly in a size 18 right now. I started at a 26. I am hoping to end up in a 14. That is my Ultimate goal. 199 and a size 14 and I will be one happy Momma! LOL
Okay, I will go now. Take Care all & Don't forget to Count your Blessings today!!!
