kathy in horseheads
3 year surgery check up
Mar 01, 2009
I'm very late in writing this, but things have been bad for me. My 3 year anniversay was Jan 24. (It's now Mar 1). At the time of my appointment I had re-gained from 140 lbs to 172 lbs. My surgeon asked the ususal questions about eating right etc. I told him that I had been grazing, but it was usually due to my severe acid reflux. I had it before my GBS and it has actually gotten worse since surgery. To make a long story short, he did an endoscopy & said that everything looked good. My pouch was a little stretched, but no more than a normal 3 yr old pouch. Instead of offering help he looked at me and just said.."don't give up & stay in touch"..STAY IN TOUCH!!! I was pissed, hurt and disgusted. I have been eating non-stop since. I graze all day long & never really eat anything good for me. (Although I have never missed a vitamin or supplement). I am up to 182 and size 14. I'm miserable!!!!!!!! I'm trying to stop eating, but I haven't been able to conquer the monster in my head. I joined a group on here to get back on track, but it just made me more depressed. The people on there have re-gained 10 or 15 lbs. I didn't stop then..........no,,,,,,,I had to regain 40 before I even stopped to think about things.I've been to a psychiatrist to get off the paxil as that makes me gain weight. But, after being on it for 14 years it is impossible for me to stop it. She said the only alternative would be to be admitted as an inpatient & they would detox me from it. Well,,,,,I work in a psychatric hospital & that is NOT an option for me. (It is the only psych hospital in the area). Soo that was a disappointment for me.
I'm not sure if I regret having this surgery or not. At least before I could blame all of my shortcomings on my weight,,,but after going to such drastic measures I have nothing to blame but myself & my lack of self control
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About Me
horseheads, NY
Location
43.0
BMI
Surgery
01/24/2006
Surgery Date
Jul 08, 2001
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