Onederland!

Dec 20, 2008

I did it!!!  I set my goal for Christmas to make it to Onederland.  Then just yesterday, I got on the scales and it said 198!  I have had a hard time getting my head to believe it.  It seems as though after nearly 7 months the numbers on the scales just change and I have come to expect that they will.  I don't see the thinner me the way everyone else does.  I see it in my face and can tell it in my clothes but, it's just weird for me that I can't really SEE it for myself.  I try taking pictures and then I notice small things but ... to really SEE a thinner me... I just don't.  I am not letting it get to me though.  Others have told me it takes time to get your head to adjust to the new you.  I am just going with it and hopefully one day I will realize it for myself. 

My family and friends keep telling me to stop wearing big clothes.  I have worn these sizes for 21 years so its hard to get past that as well.  One of my friends that had the surgery is becoming the drop off point for me.  By this I mean, I give my clothes to her when they start feeling too big or lose.  She is just a couple sizes bigger than me for now and can use them.  It makes me happy to have someone close by that I can share them with.

I am truly blessed by this surgery and have nothing but great things to say about it.  Even more valuable than the surgery is the friends that I have made on OH.  I am blessed everyday in one way or another by the people on this site.  God shows me a lesson and a blessing in so many of the friends I have here. 

I think my Christmas gift this year from God was to find ObesityHelp.com!

Huge hugs,
Tracy

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