Anita O.
Two weeks away from surgery
Jul 05, 2009
I am so scared. Not of the surgery but of the what if....s. What if after the surgery I still do not lose weight? What if I lose my hair after surgery?All my life, I had a problem with controlling my weight. But I did a fairly good job of keeping it under 150 and I am 5'3. Not skinny but not fat either. After menopause, it was a different story. I am now 185 pounds and climbing up.
I have tried everything from weight watchers to jenny craig to personal trainers to going to spas and fat farms and dieting on my own. I have no willpower, no discipline and feel like I am in a vicious cycle of feeling hungry, eating too much, hating myself, shame, feeling upset and eating more and again....
After two years of thinking about it, I finally had to admit to myself and my husband that I cannot do it on my own. That either I have to stay fat all my life or do the WLS.
I had decided on the band. While talking to the doctor, I told him my concern about all the post op visits, the adjustments and mostly my distrust in myself, etc. He mentioned VSG which was very new to me. After studying and mainly talking to the lady at the doctor's office who told me she had the band, did not work, (she made sure to tell me that it was not the band but HER), she had the VSG and is now 95 pounds lighter and is very happy with it.
I guess what I saw in her and am lacking myself was how at peace she looked. Not mention confident and happy.
