The blessed 120's

Jan 29, 2008

HURRAY HURRAY!   I weighed 129.8 this morning.  That means I am less than 10 pounds from my goal weight of 120.  I also have been trying the 5 day pouch test (I am on day 4) and I think it's actually working!! Lately, I felt like I could eat too much and I never felt full.  So I tried the test (www.5daypouchtest.com) and after dinner tonight I felt extremely full. AAAHHH, what a relief!!  My self-control is NOT good and I constantly worry that I am going to be fat again.  I do have a tendency to snack and pick at food.  I need to find something I can pick at all day that isn't so bad for me.  Eat all day and consume very little calories -- that is my dream come true!!

Other than that, things have been going pretty well.  I went to my cancer doctor today (I'm 10 years cancer free, but still go for regular check ups).  They had a picture of me in my file and told me that since it didn't even look like me anymore, they were going to take another.  I literally took up 1/2 the space in the picture as before.  She gave me my fatty picture as a souvenir (of what, I'm not sure.)  Anyway, I showed it around at work and people kept saying, "You weren't that big!!"  OH BUT I WAS!!  I guess I should be glad people forgot how huge I was!! I wish I could forget!!  OH - I bought a new scale that measures body fat.  YIKES!  Depending on the time of day, sometimes I am almost 100% FAT!  Well, maybe that's a little of an exaggeration, but really.  What does a girl have to do for God's sake????

Okay - exciting things that have happened:

- I wore a size 4 for the first time
- I wore bikini underwear for the first time in a long time without the underwear completely disappearing
- I got down into the 120s
- I found out my insurance covers tummy tucks if they are medically necessary
- Somebody called me "Tiny"

A new year!!

Jan 01, 2008

Wow - it's 2008.  The first new year in a long time that I wasn't FAT!!!!  Today, I weighed in at 132.8 pounds.  That means I met my doctor's goal weight.  Only 12 pounds to go to reach MY goal weight.  2008 is going to be GREAT!!!!

The Good and the Bad

Oct 24, 2007

The Good - I reached a new milestone.  On Monday, I ran 4 miles!!! The bad - I am so hungry and I snack at night.  I gained 2 pounds!  What to do, what to do . . .

7 Months Out

Oct 18, 2007

WOW!  7 months.  First, I must grumble a little bit.  Well, I am not losing as much per month as I would like.  This month I only lost 6 pounds, and that has been the average for the last 4 months.  I weighed 144.6 this morning.  My lowest is 144.0.  I desperately want to be 136 so I can say I am no longer overweight!!!!!  I find that I am soooo hungry all the time lately.  I just can eat eat eat.  It makes me nervous because I still have bad habits - eating at night, picking at sweets, etc.  UGH!I do not want to be fat again.  Okay, enough of the neurotic stuff.  

New Milestone:

10/15 - I wore a size 6P suit to work.

The 140s

Sep 22, 2007

I hit the 140s today.  I really want to be in the 120s, but, hey, I'm no complainer.  Hopefully, if I can just stop snacking at night, I will zip through the 140s in no time.  I am pretty happy, however, because I was stuck at 150 for a good 2 or 3 weeks.  My scale is such a tease!  Oh, I found some half naked pictures of myself, which I took as before pictures. (Me in just underwear.)  I think when I'm hungry, I will go look at those.  They make me pretty nauseous. 


6 Months Out

Sep 15, 2007

Well, I can't believe 6 months have gone by!! On the one hand, I wish I were thinner.    On the other, I can't believe 69 pounds are GONE!! 
I'm healthy, I exercise and I feel great.  I think I eat a little too much, however.  I can sure put it away and I have to be careful.  Be sure to check out my before and after pictures in the photos section.  The "before" sideview picture is especially disgusting, so prepare yourself.   I also put a before and after of my husband.  He did not have the surgery, but started eating more like me and lost 59 pounds.  

Okay, here are some milestones:

3/28 - I finally left the hospital and I was ALIVE

6/13 - I weighed the same amount (169) as I did after the dreaded Atkins Diet.  I also went shopping and did NOT have to shop in the fatty section.  I was a 14 again!

7/20 - I went from OBESE to OVERWEIGHT on the BMI chart

9/8 - I went shopping and bought clothes that were size 10 petite.  SIZE 10?!?!!?!?  Can you believe it.  That last time I wore a 10 was 12 years ago! ( Although my husband says I was always a 10  )

FUTURE GOALS

Lose 15 pounds and weigh 136.  I will then be NORMAL on the BMI chart.

Lose 16 more pounds - I will then weigh 120 pounds - MY GOAL WEIGHT. 

5 MONTHS OUT

Aug 17, 2007

What a wild 5 months!!!  I have now lost 66 pounds and I'm a runner!! Okay, I only run 2-3 miles per day, but . . .   I have had no other complications since leaving the hospital for the 2nd time.  I did have a sinus infection last week and being sick brought back lots of bad memories, but I am over it now.  I have 34 pounds to go.  If I can make it to 120 pounds, I will  be so happy.  I went to my class reunion at the end of July and many people told me how good I looked.  It was very flattering.  I have to admit I would not have gone if I still weighed 220 pounds.   My chiropractor told me I was disappearing and a person I work with on occasion asked if I was on crack!  (ha ha) 

3 months out

Jun 29, 2007

Okay - I'm terrible at updating.  Well, I am three months out now and feel fantastic.  I have lost 55 pounds and would like to lose another 45.  I started running again.  Right now, I only run 2 miles at my snail's pace of a 15 minute mile, but it's exercise!   I finally had the courage to give away my "fat" clothes.  I keep worrying that I may need them again, but I have to get out of that frame of mind.  Basically, everything is going well and I have never felt healthier!

All better now - 2 months out

May 17, 2007

Well, several people have sent me messages asking for an update, so here it is - 

It is AMAZING how quickly your body can heal.  When I got out of the hospital on March 28, I did not even have the energy to comb my own hair.  I could walk in a store for about 5 minutes, and then had to find a place to rest . Now?  I am exercising 45 minutes, 5 times a week.  I stay awake all day (that's right - no naps.)  Although I still have residual back pain from my hospital stay (what in the world happended to me in there?), I feel really amazing.  Despite everything that happened, I would do it again!  Oh, and the best part, I have lost 43 pounds!!

Surgery Recap

Apr 11, 2007

  I  had gastric bypass surgery on March 13.  I was released from St. Luke's hospital on March 15 and went home.  However, I could not keep any food down and found myself in extreme pain most of time.  I returned to St. Luke’s on Friday (March 16) and an upper GI was performed.  I was told I was fine and sent home.  My doctor was out of town and I was forced to deal with an on-call doctor.  He told me nothing was medically wrong with me and maybe the inability to keep food down was “normal for me.”  Well, I begged to be admitted to the hospital on Friday, but no dice.  (A sad day when I, a fine trial attorney, cannot convince someone to do what I want!)  Anyway, I continued to call the on call doctor all weekend, because I was terribly sick and in so much pain.  I threw up so violently on Sunday night, I injured myself.  I again called the doctor and he told to follow up with my regular doctor on Monday.  I spent Sunday night in agony, doubled over in pain and nausea. 

 

On Monday morning, March 19, 2007, my insurance company called to follow up on my progress.  I let my agony spill out to poor nurse assigned my case.  She was very nice and told me she was going to consult with a doctor and call me right back.  In the meantime, I had called my regular doctor, Dr. Oakley, and was told he would call me back in the afternoon.  Well, Dr. Oakley obviously recognized the seriousness of my condition and called me back 10 minutes later with instructions to get the hospital ASAP.  As Kevin (my husband) and I were getting ready to leave, my insurance company called back and said I needed to get to a hospital quick!  (Now, when even the insurance company thinks you need to be in the hospital, that can’t be good!)   Anyway, I was admitted to the hospital, and tests were done.  It turned out I had a bowel (intestinal) blockage which required further surgery.

 

On Tuesday, March 20, 2007, I had the surgery, but “aspirated” during the procedure, leaving me with aspiration pneumonia.  Although somewhat oblivious at the time, I now know the following:  The aspiration almost completely filled by right lung.  As a result, my liver decided it may not wish to cooperate any more and began shutting down.  Not to be outdone, my blood pressure went dangerously low.  I was put in the intensive care unit at St. Luke’s from Tuesday. March, 20, until Sunday, March 25.  My sister called to check on me and was told if she was family, she “better get to the hospital.”  I hit some very low points during my stay there, but my sister came every day, some days twice, to keep me cheery.   The nurses got to know her as much as me.  Kevin spent a night in a hospital chair by my side during my first night in the ICU.  I had so many tubes sticking out of me for the next five days, I could barely move.  Kevin took all his vacation time and stayed by my side during those dark days in the ICU. 

 

My pneumonia finally cleared enough to release me from the ICU on March 25.  On Sunday, I was moved to a regular room, where my recovery began.  The first night out of ICU was painful and frightening.  I was subject to nightmares most of the night, only to wake to the crushing pain (and no morphine!) of two surgeries and pneumonia on my body.  I was delirious and accusatory when I woke in the middle of the night.  I thought I was being tortured and let my night nurse know!  He was very nice and understanding, however, and explained to me what had happened and brought me some hot tea. 

 

 By Wednesday, March 28 I was well enough to go home.  However, as an added bonus, I found out the radiologist read the Upper GI wrong and I should not have been sent home from the E.R.  As of today, April 11, 2007, I still cannot take a deep breath without coughing and I get winded walking down the street, but I am hopeful I am on the mend.  After all, it’s a far cry from laying flat on my back, unable to roll over without assistance, with a zillion wires and tubes sticking out of me!


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