Jamming-Fender
Is tomorrow really here?
Jul 10, 2011
Well, I'm offically getting sleeved tomorrow. I really don't know what to think or feel at this point. My emotions and my thoughts at are a loss of words really. Last night I couldn't sleep at all, it was a very restless night I can only imagine what tonight is going to hold. Everyone keeps telling me everything is gonna be ok, tries to give me positive thoughts, which was fine until last night when the what if came into my mind. Terrible feeling.
So its about 3am, and I wake up my wife and I tell her just how much I love her and tell her how grateful and thankful I am that she is and has been in my life, for everything she has ever done for me, and support she has given me no matter what. I tell her thank you for loving me the way you do. So she starts crying and tells me to stop talking like that, and I just tell her I want her to know that no matter what happens. My night was litterally one of my favorite Garth Brooks Songs in reality "If Tomorrow Never Comes"
Through this whole process the one constant on support and motivation has been my wife. Honestly I haven't told many people, I don't know if its embarssement or is it because my whole life I've actually been pretty private about my personal feelings. Other than my wife, I've told my Dad, Mom and siters. My Wife has told her Mom and only one of her sisters. Thats is, and truly I am very dissappointed in the ammount of support I have gotten. My Mom and my sisters act like if its no big deal, don't say much about even though they say they are behind me. Never once have they tried to talk to me about it or asked if I even need anything. My mom even went as far as to say she didn't know if she could be there for my surgery cause she had to take care of my nephew. I mean seriously, My sister couldn't make one exception to find another way or stay home to take care of him. Then to make things worst my Mom sends me a text, I mean freaking text message " Its a go, I'll go ahead and be able to be there Monday" Wow unfreakingbelievable don't do me no favors. I don't know sometimes I feel maybe they are back lashing since they are obese and I'm trying or have the means to do something about it. My Dad on the other hand has been pretty cool, which was very surprising actually since no one is really close to him, but thats another story.
Anyway, tomorrow is here! I'm scared, nervous and actually anxious as to get it over with so I can focus on changing this life. I tell you it ain't easy being big and overweight your entire life. I honestly can't wait to be on the otherside of things and not having to put on a facade of something I'm not.
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So its about 3am, and I wake up my wife and I tell her just how much I love her and tell her how grateful and thankful I am that she is and has been in my life, for everything she has ever done for me, and support she has given me no matter what. I tell her thank you for loving me the way you do. So she starts crying and tells me to stop talking like that, and I just tell her I want her to know that no matter what happens. My night was litterally one of my favorite Garth Brooks Songs in reality "If Tomorrow Never Comes"
Through this whole process the one constant on support and motivation has been my wife. Honestly I haven't told many people, I don't know if its embarssement or is it because my whole life I've actually been pretty private about my personal feelings. Other than my wife, I've told my Dad, Mom and siters. My Wife has told her Mom and only one of her sisters. Thats is, and truly I am very dissappointed in the ammount of support I have gotten. My Mom and my sisters act like if its no big deal, don't say much about even though they say they are behind me. Never once have they tried to talk to me about it or asked if I even need anything. My mom even went as far as to say she didn't know if she could be there for my surgery cause she had to take care of my nephew. I mean seriously, My sister couldn't make one exception to find another way or stay home to take care of him. Then to make things worst my Mom sends me a text, I mean freaking text message " Its a go, I'll go ahead and be able to be there Monday" Wow unfreakingbelievable don't do me no favors. I don't know sometimes I feel maybe they are back lashing since they are obese and I'm trying or have the means to do something about it. My Dad on the other hand has been pretty cool, which was very surprising actually since no one is really close to him, but thats another story.
Anyway, tomorrow is here! I'm scared, nervous and actually anxious as to get it over with so I can focus on changing this life. I tell you it ain't easy being big and overweight your entire life. I honestly can't wait to be on the otherside of things and not having to put on a facade of something I'm not.
The Day Is Near....
Jul 08, 2011
It seems my surgery date is just a few days away. I know for sure this is going to be the longest weekend of my life. My surgery is on Monday and Noon, and it just seems so real. Wonder what I can to to pass the time at literaly take my mind off my Big Day. So many thing are going through my mind and feeling so many emotions. I am ready for my new life to beging and be reborn. But still find it all so scary. Everytime I have a negative thought, ex. not ever being able to enjoy a huge gulp of water on a hot summer day or those tailgate parties were all the food is at. I take myself to that place a remind myself of all the benifits of taking this step. I mean what good is the tailgate party if you can't properly sit in the seat in the game, or make the walk to the stadium without breaking a sweat or gasping for air. I know there is so much more to life than food itself. But it is all still very scary!
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WTH Did I get myself Into??? Totally Freaking Out!!!
Jul 07, 2011
So I am brand new to the site, and I'm loving how helpful and Informotative it is. So I figured I would make my very own profile as I journey to my new life with all of you who have transformed theirs or in the process. I really just Can't believe what is about to happen. Unlike many people I know or have seen on here my journey through the process was extremely fast and I don't think It has really setteled in. I am extremely freaked out!!
I have been over weight my entire life and thinking of a gastric surgery for some time. Well about a month ago I call my Bariatric Office for information on how to sign up. They give me the info, and I go to the WLS Seminar and learn the process. I go home sleep on it and the Next Day I register online and give them a call. 10 Days later I get a call and they say can you come in to do your Nutrition Class and do your Pshyc. Evalutaion Which I did both the very next Day. They inform me they have submitted to my insurance but more then likely I will have to do a 6 month supervised diet before getting approval. I was like GREAT gives me one last chance to see if I can do this the old fashioned way with BST, diet and excersice. YEAH RIGHT!!! 2 days later which is on JULY 1st, I get another call from my Bariatric Office And they Tell me "Great News, Your insurance already approved your Surgery" WOW im like great so whats next you know how much time do I have to prepare for this? Lady Tells me well can you come to see the Dr. July 6, and he has an opening July 11, 2011 for surgery. Now I am really freaked out and without really thinking I say Great OK!!
So I seen Dr. Clapp Yesterday, real nice man and loved his sense of humor at the seminar and liked his sense of humor at our appointment. Always talking about the movies and actors. Really helped ease my mind if even for a bit. He goes into the details of the Procedure I have chosen (VSG) gives all the pros, cons, and of course all risk you may run into or could happen. As I'm sitting there, a couple of times I choke up and I really can't ask any questions I am so surprised by the speed things are happening. I never imagined it happening this way. I would comment to my wife all the time if this is going to happen it needs to happen overnight basically so I don't have time to think about it and chicken out. Well that is exactlly what Happened! Dr. Clapp, Check my abdomen area tells me well try to lose 10 lbs by monday your surgery date. So I'm getting Ready to leave and they give my work orders for the lab work to get done today, and tomorrow I have the Pre OP Class. I had my Lab work done this morning and seemed like everything went fine. I'm driving to the hospital and Dr. Office afterwards to pay my CO-Pay and deductible what is only a 15 minute drive took me 2hours. This was the first time I really had to take it in, and my emotions just came over me. Was bawling like a baby down the freeway. LMAO, I can honestly say that I am so scared and nervous that I have not slept a good night since finding out it will be THIS MONDAY!!! I am also very excited just the thought of being a healthy individual never in my life did I ever think of the possiblity of maybe, just Maybe being looked at and feeling like a normal person. That Dream seems like such a real reality now. I just ask God and my family and friends to really give me the strength I need just to make to the Hospital ON Monday and get through the 1st week. I know I can take it from there.....
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I have been over weight my entire life and thinking of a gastric surgery for some time. Well about a month ago I call my Bariatric Office for information on how to sign up. They give me the info, and I go to the WLS Seminar and learn the process. I go home sleep on it and the Next Day I register online and give them a call. 10 Days later I get a call and they say can you come in to do your Nutrition Class and do your Pshyc. Evalutaion Which I did both the very next Day. They inform me they have submitted to my insurance but more then likely I will have to do a 6 month supervised diet before getting approval. I was like GREAT gives me one last chance to see if I can do this the old fashioned way with BST, diet and excersice. YEAH RIGHT!!! 2 days later which is on JULY 1st, I get another call from my Bariatric Office And they Tell me "Great News, Your insurance already approved your Surgery" WOW im like great so whats next you know how much time do I have to prepare for this? Lady Tells me well can you come to see the Dr. July 6, and he has an opening July 11, 2011 for surgery. Now I am really freaked out and without really thinking I say Great OK!!
So I seen Dr. Clapp Yesterday, real nice man and loved his sense of humor at the seminar and liked his sense of humor at our appointment. Always talking about the movies and actors. Really helped ease my mind if even for a bit. He goes into the details of the Procedure I have chosen (VSG) gives all the pros, cons, and of course all risk you may run into or could happen. As I'm sitting there, a couple of times I choke up and I really can't ask any questions I am so surprised by the speed things are happening. I never imagined it happening this way. I would comment to my wife all the time if this is going to happen it needs to happen overnight basically so I don't have time to think about it and chicken out. Well that is exactlly what Happened! Dr. Clapp, Check my abdomen area tells me well try to lose 10 lbs by monday your surgery date. So I'm getting Ready to leave and they give my work orders for the lab work to get done today, and tomorrow I have the Pre OP Class. I had my Lab work done this morning and seemed like everything went fine. I'm driving to the hospital and Dr. Office afterwards to pay my CO-Pay and deductible what is only a 15 minute drive took me 2hours. This was the first time I really had to take it in, and my emotions just came over me. Was bawling like a baby down the freeway. LMAO, I can honestly say that I am so scared and nervous that I have not slept a good night since finding out it will be THIS MONDAY!!! I am also very excited just the thought of being a healthy individual never in my life did I ever think of the possiblity of maybe, just Maybe being looked at and feeling like a normal person. That Dream seems like such a real reality now. I just ask God and my family and friends to really give me the strength I need just to make to the Hospital ON Monday and get through the 1st week. I know I can take it from there.....
