K-in-PA
I have been fat and thin - at different times in my life. I was a big baby. As a child, I was average size. During my teens, puberty hit and I continued to be average but unfortunately my insecure self at the time didn't see that. And here begins the downward spiral of horrendous eating choices. My teen years overall were fun - - no regrets here. But I did feel the need to constantly compare myself to my circle of friends who happened to be quite slim. We'd do the usual lay outside and get tan. But we also decided to starve ourselves. And then it transferred to binge eating. And so on. I remember my senior year in high school wearing a size 0/2. Can't even imagine wearing a size 0/2 now!
So the years went on and so did life. And relationships. And continued poor eating habits that I 'learned' in high school. Also didn't help that I grew up in an environment where my Grandmother could cook and bake like no one else in the world. And every event, occasion or success was celebrated with food. I maintained a decent weight until the mid 90's. Was in an 'unhealthy' personal relationship and my weight spiraled out of control right along with the relationship. Don't get me wrong...I take full responsibility for my weight issue. I blame only myself. It has been enlightening to see the correlation as I've had the chance to reflect on my thoughts of "how the heck did I get here on the surgery table?!"
Fast forward to 2007. Life is good. Career is going well. Dating is fun. I'm at peace with the person I am on the inside. The one thing that weighs on my mind (pun intended here) is that I won't be around to enjoy this wonderful life I have created for myself. I can't let that happen. And like most everyone else, I have tried diets of all kinds. So after thinking and learning about it for many years, I finally made the decision to go for RNY.
There is so much more in this life for me to explore and enjoy. It's time to do all I can to ensure I have as many possible wonderful moments in this life as I can. So here I am. Ready, willing and able.
