Miss-Amanda

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WOW.....228lbs today.  In the 220's is crazy!  I never thought I would ever be here!  I am so happy and feel so amazing.  I put on my clothes and the ones at the beginning of June are all to big now and it has been only 3 weeks.  It is just so weird how much your body changes in such a short time.  I was at a stal lfor a few weeks and I was pretty discouraged....So back on the scale today and WOW 3 lbs gone! 

Today is going to be a good day....

Well I officially hit in the 250's mark...actually 259lbs!  Wow!  I have not been at this weight in soooo many years...actually so long ago that I cannot remember when it was.

Lately things have not been easy though.....mentally I mean.  As much as I like seeing my body change nothing can really prepare you for the losses you feel.  I have to believe that anyone and not just bariatric patients who cannot eat food like everyone else around them would struggle mentally with it.  When I was told about it I thought to myself... "well I'll be fine, that's no big deal...I'm going to be healthy and skinny and that's all that matters".  Well boy was I wrong!  I don't think anything can prepare you for the mental aspect of the changes at all.  It is a wait and see game. 

Maybe Optifast should be a 4 week process for everyone...and during the month of December so ALL temptation is around you....and then you can make the decision with your eyes wide open...and really open!  Don't get me wrong I do not regret what I did but if I could have been more mentally prepared that would have been better...but really...can you really be that prepared? 

I find it the hardest at family gatherings at this point.  Our family celebrates everything based around food/dinners.  For instance my birthday was 10 days after surgery.  My mother (I love her dearly) had the audacity to ask me what I wanted for my birthday dinner?!?!  What the HE**!!!  Like really???  I was so angry with her!  I even told her I didn't need a birthday dinner...can't we just get together for a visit with the family?  Oh no.....she said we" had to have a dinner because that's just what we always do...and we are not changing that because you had this surgery".  So I asked my son what he wanted...he picked spaghetti so that's what she made.  So dinner comes around and then to make matters worse she FORCED me to sit at the table with them...even made a scene when I said I didn't want to.... and watch them eat!  OMG I thought I was going to loose it!  I will not even discuss the birthday cake either......  I have to say that it was my WORST birthday ever! 

I have a friend who has gone through this surgery and she is a single gal and she lives alone.  I admire her because if she doesn't buy it (foods) she isn't temped by it.  Its hard to cook a meal for my husband and son and then to turn around and have to make something else for myself.  I guess over time these issues will go away/subside.......gosh I really hope so..... 

Well almost at the one month mark.  I have to say I haven't lost as much as I thought I would but thats okay.  It is winter here and being active here isn't very easy.  I will post my one month picture on the actual date.  Hopefuly there will be a noticable difference!
 
I haven't had any complications to date ( WOO HOO!!) and I have generally felt really good!  I had a bad day the other day after I started to eat an egg (although I have eaten them for almost 2 weeks),  I felt horrible and ended up being in bed sick for most of the day.  But today was back to normal and ate an egg and everything went well! 

I have to say I get very tired very easily....I am guessing that is due to the lack of vitimins etc.

Loving the feeling of my clothes getting bigger! 

Enjoying my miracle!!

I have been overweight my entire life.  I had tried every diet know to man and I never succeeded.  I have had many health issues over the last 8 years or so and I just wanted so badly to be healthy.  So after seeing several people I knew and educating myself I decided to get on the "Gastric Bypass Bandwagon" LOL.   I started Opti-Fast on January 17th, 2011 as I had to be on it for 3 weeks before surgery.  At first I was hungry...(which I am sure most people are) but after the first week it got better.  I found myself actually at the end getting grossed out by them as I was sick of drinking them.  But of course...short term pain for long term gain!!

My surgery date was February 7, 2011.  My surgery went extreamly well.  I have had no complications to date and I feel amazing! 

I have been very fortunate to have a large support network around me of family and friends who have been so encouraging to me on my journey!

I have lost exactly 30lbs today to date and I can't believe just in this short period of time how much my body has changed. 

Welcome to the beginning of my new life!!