Surgery Year 2003
Ms Jean
I am a 41 year old female and have struggled with my weight since high school. I have two children and a wonderful husband. I have gained and lost the same 100 pounds at least 5 times in the last 20 years. I am losing my battle with my weight. I now weigh 266 and am looking into WLS as a permanent option. I have had a meeting with my surgeon, gathered all medical records and am now waiting for my phyc exam. Once I pass the exam I should be able to get a date quite quickly. Wish me luck! -- Jean
10/31/02 - I completed the psyc evaluation--I had to do like a 300 question test (don't know the name) to determine my stability for surgery. They asked basically the same questions in many different ways. Lots of questions about suicide, I don't remember much else.The psychologist was very interested in how much I knew about the surgery--how much research I had done and if I knew the danger involved. I ended up going to two sessions because I had not told my husband about my plans for surgery--did not think he would be supportive and wanted to have everything wrapped up, finished, before telling him. That came out quickly in the first session--it laid doubts about my support system after surgery and she would not write her report until I spoke with him. I talked with my husband, he was very supportive, went back for a second session. She cleared me, but it took about three weeks to get her written report. I passed and the information was forwarded to my surgeon. My insurance has been approved and I am now waiting for the surgeon to review the file and give me a pre-surgery appointment. I am excited. Once I get that date the surgery will only be two weeks away.
11/08/02 - I called today to check my status. My file is now with the scheduler. They said I should get a call within 2 business days. I would really like to get this done before the holidays so that I do not have to spend additional time away from work.
11-12-02 - I HAVE A DATE!! I will have surgery on 11-26-02--less than two weeks away. I cannot believe it is happening so fast after months of waiting. I am nervous but determined. I have so much to do to get ready. I submitted paperwork to my employer today. I have to submit these stupid Family Medical Leave paperwork telling about my surgery. I did not plan to tell but it looks like I do not have a choice. The scheduler finally called and I asked for "first available." The 26th works well because I will be able to recover over the holidays and not return to work until mid-January. I will keep you posted and post "before" pictures soon.
Here is a photo of me and my "beautiful" people back in 1999 when I had lost 80 lbs on Atkins. I was a size 16 and consented to take a family picture--needless to say, I gained it all back and more.
11/14/02 - Wow!! This is all going so fast. I went for my pre-surgery appointment yesterday. It took about three hours. I had blood work, x-rays, a gallbladder ultrasound, met with the dietian and the surgeon's assistant. I got rules for the next two weeks and all of my pre-surgery "stuff."
11/20/02 - Six days and counting!!! I am wraping up things at work and telling myself that it is okay to leave things undone. I am making lists of all of the things I need to get done before surgery. I am struggling with writing "just in case" letters to my family--I am really torn about this. I need to get my christmas tree up and lighted before surgery. As you can see, I am all over the place.
11/24/02 - Two days and counting!!! There is so much I haven't gotten done. I am cutting my losses and just trying to prepare what I will need for two weeks after surgery. I am still nervous but still very determined. I have worked hard and jumped through too many hoops to get to this point.
12/01/02 - I made it. I had surgery 11/26. I am doing well, getting stronger each day. I will post more when I am feeling stronger.
Hospital & Care Evaluation - I am 3 weeks post-op and finally have the energy to sit down and put my thoughts about my experience with Bariatric Treatment Center, Ypsilanti Michigan (Forest Medical Center) in writing. I had surgery November 26. Dr. Rosemarie Toussiant was my surgeon. Dr. Toussiant was a professional in every sense of the word; she was clearly an expert in her field, confident, attentive and very thorough. I could not have asked for better care. My advice for anyone having surgery at BTC--take someone with you who can stay your entire hospital time. The nurses are very busy and do not give a lot of individual care. Also, that hospital time is a very "lonely" time. My family was 1.5 hours away and visited but were unable to be there for me each day. My sister stayed with me the first night. I was also there over a holiday weekend when BTC was on limited staff--it was not a good experience for me.
12/10/02 - I am doing well just stuggling with what I can and can not have. My doctor has me on 10 days clear liquids, two weeks full liquids, two weeks pureed foods. I am trying very hard to stick to the schedule but it is tough. I am struggling with getting the protein in, I haven't found a protein drink I can tolerate (help)! I am not meeting my protein goal each day. Drinking water hurts! It seems I can drink anything except straight water and do not have trouble keeping it down. I itch unbearably, I finally resorted to benedryl (it helps). I see the doctor for my two-week follow-up appointment on Friday. Hopefully I can address some of these issues at that time.
12/14/02 - (246 lbs) I had my 2-week visit with my surgeon. Things went well. I have had no complications and only spent one week on vicodin. I had to get off quick because I did not like to way it made me feel and also felt I needed to "feel" in order to gauge my progress. My wound is beautiful--no keloid scaring yet. I am only now taking vitamins and zantec. I am still working to get in protein each day and look forward to pureed foods starting this week. I have lost 20 lbs, 16% of my body weight, an excellent start. I am driving, walking each day and working to get back to my "superwoman" pace with much more energy. I return to work in three weeks.
12/28/02 - (238 lbs) I am healing well. I absolutely could not do ten days on babyfood/pureed foods. I opted to grind meats in a food processor and chew really well. I am basically on soft foods (egg beaters, soups, crackers, toast, low fat cheese) and still getting in my protein and liquids. I have responded well to very lean meats (ground well) and have had no problems with dumping or anything getting stuck. I do not eat sugar or things with a lot of fat. I am walking at least 30 minutes daily. I do not want this to sound like a fairytail existance following are a few realities: I miss food and going to restraunts with my friends. Christmas dinner was awful, I had the pleasure of watching my family enjoy all of the traditional foods, I am now amazed at how much people can eat and how little I can tolerate and how long it takes me to eat it. While baking cookies with my family (I did not even have one taste) I accidently took four huge gulps of water without thinking--oh my God! What an awful feeling, I hung out by the toilet for 30 minutes waiting for it either to come up or go down!! I am happy it was just water--I will never do that again.
11/08/02 - I called today to check my status. My file is now with the scheduler. They said I should get a call within 2 business days. I would really like to get this done before the holidays so that I do not have to spend additional time away from work.
11-12-02 - I HAVE A DATE!! I will have surgery on 11-26-02--less than two weeks away. I cannot believe it is happening so fast after months of waiting. I am nervous but determined. I have so much to do to get ready. I submitted paperwork to my employer today. I have to submit these stupid Family Medical Leave paperwork telling about my surgery. I did not plan to tell but it looks like I do not have a choice. The scheduler finally called and I asked for "first available." The 26th works well because I will be able to recover over the holidays and not return to work until mid-January. I will keep you posted and post "before" pictures soon.
Here is a photo of me and my "beautiful" people back in 1999 when I had lost 80 lbs on Atkins. I was a size 16 and consented to take a family picture--needless to say, I gained it all back and more.
11/14/02 - Wow!! This is all going so fast. I went for my pre-surgery appointment yesterday. It took about three hours. I had blood work, x-rays, a gallbladder ultrasound, met with the dietian and the surgeon's assistant. I got rules for the next two weeks and all of my pre-surgery "stuff."
11/20/02 - Six days and counting!!! I am wraping up things at work and telling myself that it is okay to leave things undone. I am making lists of all of the things I need to get done before surgery. I am struggling with writing "just in case" letters to my family--I am really torn about this. I need to get my christmas tree up and lighted before surgery. As you can see, I am all over the place.
11/24/02 - Two days and counting!!! There is so much I haven't gotten done. I am cutting my losses and just trying to prepare what I will need for two weeks after surgery. I am still nervous but still very determined. I have worked hard and jumped through too many hoops to get to this point.
12/01/02 - I made it. I had surgery 11/26. I am doing well, getting stronger each day. I will post more when I am feeling stronger.
Hospital & Care Evaluation - I am 3 weeks post-op and finally have the energy to sit down and put my thoughts about my experience with Bariatric Treatment Center, Ypsilanti Michigan (Forest Medical Center) in writing. I had surgery November 26. Dr. Rosemarie Toussiant was my surgeon. Dr. Toussiant was a professional in every sense of the word; she was clearly an expert in her field, confident, attentive and very thorough. I could not have asked for better care. My advice for anyone having surgery at BTC--take someone with you who can stay your entire hospital time. The nurses are very busy and do not give a lot of individual care. Also, that hospital time is a very "lonely" time. My family was 1.5 hours away and visited but were unable to be there for me each day. My sister stayed with me the first night. I was also there over a holiday weekend when BTC was on limited staff--it was not a good experience for me.
12/10/02 - I am doing well just stuggling with what I can and can not have. My doctor has me on 10 days clear liquids, two weeks full liquids, two weeks pureed foods. I am trying very hard to stick to the schedule but it is tough. I am struggling with getting the protein in, I haven't found a protein drink I can tolerate (help)! I am not meeting my protein goal each day. Drinking water hurts! It seems I can drink anything except straight water and do not have trouble keeping it down. I itch unbearably, I finally resorted to benedryl (it helps). I see the doctor for my two-week follow-up appointment on Friday. Hopefully I can address some of these issues at that time.
12/14/02 - (246 lbs) I had my 2-week visit with my surgeon. Things went well. I have had no complications and only spent one week on vicodin. I had to get off quick because I did not like to way it made me feel and also felt I needed to "feel" in order to gauge my progress. My wound is beautiful--no keloid scaring yet. I am only now taking vitamins and zantec. I am still working to get in protein each day and look forward to pureed foods starting this week. I have lost 20 lbs, 16% of my body weight, an excellent start. I am driving, walking each day and working to get back to my "superwoman" pace with much more energy. I return to work in three weeks.
12/28/02 - (238 lbs) I am healing well. I absolutely could not do ten days on babyfood/pureed foods. I opted to grind meats in a food processor and chew really well. I am basically on soft foods (egg beaters, soups, crackers, toast, low fat cheese) and still getting in my protein and liquids. I have responded well to very lean meats (ground well) and have had no problems with dumping or anything getting stuck. I do not eat sugar or things with a lot of fat. I am walking at least 30 minutes daily. I do not want this to sound like a fairytail existance following are a few realities: I miss food and going to restraunts with my friends. Christmas dinner was awful, I had the pleasure of watching my family enjoy all of the traditional foods, I am now amazed at how much people can eat and how little I can tolerate and how long it takes me to eat it. While baking cookies with my family (I did not even have one taste) I accidently took four huge gulps of water without thinking--oh my God! What an awful feeling, I hung out by the toilet for 30 minutes waiting for it either to come up or go down!! I am happy it was just water--I will never do that again.
01-09-2007
This post hurts! I would prefer to stay in the shadows and not admit that I have regained some of my weight. My lowest and goal weight was 164. I am now at 194--all my fault and I really dislike it. I am updating now because I need to get motivated and get on track so that I do not gain any more weight. I had a really bad year but am now ready to get back into the game. I am going to a support group meeting tonight with a friend who just had surgery and I plan to work with and support her as she loses her weight. I want to get excited again about losing. My new year resolution was simply to drink my water. I wanted to keep it simple because I know that if I drink, I do not have time to eat and munch. So wish me luck as I try to kick start my weight loss and continue to be successful into year five.
I discovered last month when I finally went in for blood work that I had a vitamin D deficiency. I was tired, depressed and really unmotivated. I thought it was just from all of the things going on in my life but found it it was more than that. It was a reassuring to know, I just could not seem to get out of the dumps. My doctor perscribed a course of vitamin D for a month, then once a month for four weeks, then I run the bloodwork again.
This post hurts! I would prefer to stay in the shadows and not admit that I have regained some of my weight. My lowest and goal weight was 164. I am now at 194--all my fault and I really dislike it. I am updating now because I need to get motivated and get on track so that I do not gain any more weight. I had a really bad year but am now ready to get back into the game. I am going to a support group meeting tonight with a friend who just had surgery and I plan to work with and support her as she loses her weight. I want to get excited again about losing. My new year resolution was simply to drink my water. I wanted to keep it simple because I know that if I drink, I do not have time to eat and munch. So wish me luck as I try to kick start my weight loss and continue to be successful into year five.
I discovered last month when I finally went in for blood work that I had a vitamin D deficiency. I was tired, depressed and really unmotivated. I thought it was just from all of the things going on in my life but found it it was more than that. It was a reassuring to know, I just could not seem to get out of the dumps. My doctor perscribed a course of vitamin D for a month, then once a month for four weeks, then I run the bloodwork again.
01/26/03 - (228 lbs) I am doing well. The weightloss this month has been painfully slow! The first thirty pounds went quickly, but after that...ugggghhh. Reality check--I have been walking and exercising daily, muscle weighs more than fat and I have been losing lots of inches. I started off in size 26 pants and can now fit into size 20 pants two months after surgery. The eating is going well. I try to eat at least 4-5 small meals each day. It is still a challenge to get the water and protein in but I try hard each day. Still no dumping--I am careful to stay away from fat and sugar. Lean Cusaine & Weight Watcher meals are my friends. I can't wait until spring to start outdoor activity.
02/05/03 - The weight loss is going well. I attended a professional conference for work this week and I felt like a totally different person. I am down about 45 pounds and I feel like a different person. My clothing looks and feels good. My confidence is back and it is so much fun to be complimented on how good I look. I will see this same group of people again in July--I can not wait.
03/24/03 - I hit a major plato...3 weeks with no weight loss! It is so very frustrating. I try not to get obsessed with the scale but it is hard. On the other hand, I look good. I am fitting into clothing I have not worn for years. I went today for my 3 month check (1 month late). I am doing well and have lost 51% of my excess weight (my goal is 165). I should reach goal by November, my weight is finally moving again. I had to start taking B12 shots because my levels are low. The doctor tells me I should have more energy after only a few days. I have been tired so long, I did not realize I had low energy. The eating is going well with no dumping. It is still a challenge to get all of the right meals in everyday. Getting protein and all of my liquid in is a daily challenge.
04/22/03 - This month was good. I think I finally understand my losing pattern. I lose faster when I stay away from bread and carbs and get my water and protein in. Also exercise 3-4 times per week is important. I have not had any dumping experiences. I have "not" felt well a few times. I think this is connected to my eating too fast and not chewing properly. I still stay away from sugar (as much as possible) and high fat foods. I started this process in sizes 22-24 (26 pant). I am now wearing size 16, the last size in my closet (after years of ups & downs). I will have to shop this summer but am holding out for size 12 where I expect my weight to stabalize.
05/12/03 - Another plato but finally 199!!!! It seems like I have been waiting a million years to reach 199--to be under 200 pounds--finally!!!! My first mini goal was to reach 50 pounds lost. My second mini goal was to be under 200 pounds, 199!! Happy, happy day.
05/29/03 - Weight loss this month has been slow, only five pounds. Eating has been going well, nothing seems to make me sick--that is scary. I can tolerate most things in very small amounts. I have to focus on getting in as much fluid as possible, drinking, then eating, drinking.... My goal is 170lbs. I have come so far from the 266 & 40 BMI I started with. I look good and no longer stress about the weight--I will get there. People are so funny, I have been losing weight steadily for six months, now after 70 pounds, people look at me in shock like I lost it overnight because they just noticed. In all fairness, it is spring and I did lose the heavy sweaters and winter coat--but still, I can't believe the reactions I get and the instant demand to know my secret. I just say diet & exercise. I do not explain unless it is someone I feel needs the information.
06-24-03 - Six pounds this month--oh well, I want to lose another 20 pounds but realize I will have to fight for every pound. I look good, I feel good but really need to focus to make my goal of 165-170 by November. I got sick once this month on corn flakes with raisins--something I have eaten many times before. I will stay away from that for awhile--getting sick was not pleasant. I am still taking my vitamins and tums each day, B-12 each month. I am enjoying playing on a women's tennis league, something I have not done in 13 years. I love shopping--I can even find deals in my size on the clearance rack. Still wearing 14-16, I have always been bottom heavy, so I need the 16 to accommodate my ample hips and thighs. I will post new pictures soon.
07/31/03 - Only three pounds this month--weight loss is really slow. My goal is still 170, 17 lbs to go. It has been many, many years since I have been able to say I only need to lose 17 lbs. I have thoroughly enjoyed being active this summer, playing tennis and actually going tubbing on a lake with my kids. In the past I would not be caught dead in a swimming suit. It is the little things now that are wonderful. When I was at top weight, I always wore skirts because I could not find pants for my height and weight. The other day I walked into a "normal" store and tried on size 16 dress slacks--and they were too big!!!! I purchased a size 14--can you believe it, me in a 14!! People are shocked when they see me--I look really good. I attended a professional conference in July, one I attend each year in D.C. I was surprised in speaking with people I have known for four years and found that they did not recognize me. I had to actually tell them who I was--I would get a polite "hello" which told me they had no clue, then I would have to introduce myself and explain that I had lost weight. The reaction was priceless. We will not even talk about attention from men--I am very happily married--but the attention of very confirming. I have some sagging skin on hips and thighs but do not think I will consider additional surgery. A good underwire bra and body slimmer will do the job. I have so much more energy and am so happy with my WLS decision. WLS is the best thing I could have done for myself--no regrets!
08/31/03 - Four pounds for the month--not bad. I do not expect big numbers any more. 182 looks good on my 5'8 frame. I am hitting a point where people are starting to ask "how much more are you going to lose?" My goal is 170, my doctor estimated between 160-165. I don't want to be too thin. People who know about my surgery always ask, how do you make the weight loss stop. I tell them, making it stop is not a problem for me, I fight now for every pound I lose. I find it funny how people always have an opinion about you being too fat or too thin. I have learned to ignore them all and stick to what makes me happy. My health is good. I don't tend to get sick unless I eat too fast or something that I know I should not have. I listen to how my stomach feels and reacts, when it says stop, I stop. I get blood work every three months, b-12 shots once a month, take tums and children multivitamins each day. I still fight to get in all of the protein and water each day, I mostly make it, it is now a part of my routine and I don't have to think much about it anymore. I stay away from caffine products. I do not drink pop.
09/26/03 - Only two pounds this month, I just want to crack into the 170's, it is taking so long. This drawn-out platoe is so frustrating. I want to reach my goal by my November one-year anniversary. I need to really focus on my eating for two weeks, high protein, low carbs and I can reach goal. I have had a good month--no sickness or problems. I have been hitting the gym at least four times per week my clothing looks good, wearing 12/14. One of the benefits of losing weight has been look and feeling younger. I do not tell people immediately I've had surgery, only those I think will benefit from the information.
10/31/03 - I finally dropped below 180 this month, happy dance, happy dance!! Hopefully I will reach my 170 goal by my November anniversary. I have had a really good month. No sickness, sad thing is that I can eat anything and not get sick. Sometimes if I eat sugar, my pouch does not feel good and this deters me from overdoing it again. I am still working out 3-4 times per week, sometimes I really have to push myself because I would really prefer to be lazy, my natural tendancy. I am sitting here today, Friday, thinking I have only worked out twice this week and need two more days before Saturday. Don't take me wrong, I enjoy exercise once I get into it, but getting started is the challenge. I am happy with my WLS decision. I love shopping and find I have to talk myself out of buying, I'm not used to having everything fit and having stylish clothing that I can select and actually wear, not limited to things that come in 24-26. I love it, but my checking account suffers :-)
11/30/03 - Happy re-birthday to me! This has been a remarkable year!! My one-year surgery anniversary was November 26. I have come a long way "baby." From a size 24-26 to size 12-14, from 266+ to 175. My life is very good and I am very pleased with my WLS decision. I continue to post to this profile in hopes that my story and information will help someone. I am healthy but terrified about the possibility of regaining weight. I am unfortunately one of those people who can eat nearly anything without getting sick. I had stablized at around 177, then was down sick and could not exercise for a couple of weeks. I gained 3 pounds (oh my god!!!). I was horrified! People, it is not automatic--you can re-gain! I cut the carbs and the sugar and am now on the losing track again. My personal goal is 170, my 100 lb goal is 166. I will be happy with 170.
02/05/03 - The weight loss is going well. I attended a professional conference for work this week and I felt like a totally different person. I am down about 45 pounds and I feel like a different person. My clothing looks and feels good. My confidence is back and it is so much fun to be complimented on how good I look. I will see this same group of people again in July--I can not wait.
03/24/03 - I hit a major plato...3 weeks with no weight loss! It is so very frustrating. I try not to get obsessed with the scale but it is hard. On the other hand, I look good. I am fitting into clothing I have not worn for years. I went today for my 3 month check (1 month late). I am doing well and have lost 51% of my excess weight (my goal is 165). I should reach goal by November, my weight is finally moving again. I had to start taking B12 shots because my levels are low. The doctor tells me I should have more energy after only a few days. I have been tired so long, I did not realize I had low energy. The eating is going well with no dumping. It is still a challenge to get all of the right meals in everyday. Getting protein and all of my liquid in is a daily challenge.
04/22/03 - This month was good. I think I finally understand my losing pattern. I lose faster when I stay away from bread and carbs and get my water and protein in. Also exercise 3-4 times per week is important. I have not had any dumping experiences. I have "not" felt well a few times. I think this is connected to my eating too fast and not chewing properly. I still stay away from sugar (as much as possible) and high fat foods. I started this process in sizes 22-24 (26 pant). I am now wearing size 16, the last size in my closet (after years of ups & downs). I will have to shop this summer but am holding out for size 12 where I expect my weight to stabalize.
05/12/03 - Another plato but finally 199!!!! It seems like I have been waiting a million years to reach 199--to be under 200 pounds--finally!!!! My first mini goal was to reach 50 pounds lost. My second mini goal was to be under 200 pounds, 199!! Happy, happy day.
05/29/03 - Weight loss this month has been slow, only five pounds. Eating has been going well, nothing seems to make me sick--that is scary. I can tolerate most things in very small amounts. I have to focus on getting in as much fluid as possible, drinking, then eating, drinking.... My goal is 170lbs. I have come so far from the 266 & 40 BMI I started with. I look good and no longer stress about the weight--I will get there. People are so funny, I have been losing weight steadily for six months, now after 70 pounds, people look at me in shock like I lost it overnight because they just noticed. In all fairness, it is spring and I did lose the heavy sweaters and winter coat--but still, I can't believe the reactions I get and the instant demand to know my secret. I just say diet & exercise. I do not explain unless it is someone I feel needs the information.
06-24-03 - Six pounds this month--oh well, I want to lose another 20 pounds but realize I will have to fight for every pound. I look good, I feel good but really need to focus to make my goal of 165-170 by November. I got sick once this month on corn flakes with raisins--something I have eaten many times before. I will stay away from that for awhile--getting sick was not pleasant. I am still taking my vitamins and tums each day, B-12 each month. I am enjoying playing on a women's tennis league, something I have not done in 13 years. I love shopping--I can even find deals in my size on the clearance rack. Still wearing 14-16, I have always been bottom heavy, so I need the 16 to accommodate my ample hips and thighs. I will post new pictures soon.
07/31/03 - Only three pounds this month--weight loss is really slow. My goal is still 170, 17 lbs to go. It has been many, many years since I have been able to say I only need to lose 17 lbs. I have thoroughly enjoyed being active this summer, playing tennis and actually going tubbing on a lake with my kids. In the past I would not be caught dead in a swimming suit. It is the little things now that are wonderful. When I was at top weight, I always wore skirts because I could not find pants for my height and weight. The other day I walked into a "normal" store and tried on size 16 dress slacks--and they were too big!!!! I purchased a size 14--can you believe it, me in a 14!! People are shocked when they see me--I look really good. I attended a professional conference in July, one I attend each year in D.C. I was surprised in speaking with people I have known for four years and found that they did not recognize me. I had to actually tell them who I was--I would get a polite "hello" which told me they had no clue, then I would have to introduce myself and explain that I had lost weight. The reaction was priceless. We will not even talk about attention from men--I am very happily married--but the attention of very confirming. I have some sagging skin on hips and thighs but do not think I will consider additional surgery. A good underwire bra and body slimmer will do the job. I have so much more energy and am so happy with my WLS decision. WLS is the best thing I could have done for myself--no regrets!
08/31/03 - Four pounds for the month--not bad. I do not expect big numbers any more. 182 looks good on my 5'8 frame. I am hitting a point where people are starting to ask "how much more are you going to lose?" My goal is 170, my doctor estimated between 160-165. I don't want to be too thin. People who know about my surgery always ask, how do you make the weight loss stop. I tell them, making it stop is not a problem for me, I fight now for every pound I lose. I find it funny how people always have an opinion about you being too fat or too thin. I have learned to ignore them all and stick to what makes me happy. My health is good. I don't tend to get sick unless I eat too fast or something that I know I should not have. I listen to how my stomach feels and reacts, when it says stop, I stop. I get blood work every three months, b-12 shots once a month, take tums and children multivitamins each day. I still fight to get in all of the protein and water each day, I mostly make it, it is now a part of my routine and I don't have to think much about it anymore. I stay away from caffine products. I do not drink pop.
09/26/03 - Only two pounds this month, I just want to crack into the 170's, it is taking so long. This drawn-out platoe is so frustrating. I want to reach my goal by my November one-year anniversary. I need to really focus on my eating for two weeks, high protein, low carbs and I can reach goal. I have had a good month--no sickness or problems. I have been hitting the gym at least four times per week my clothing looks good, wearing 12/14. One of the benefits of losing weight has been look and feeling younger. I do not tell people immediately I've had surgery, only those I think will benefit from the information.
10/31/03 - I finally dropped below 180 this month, happy dance, happy dance!! Hopefully I will reach my 170 goal by my November anniversary. I have had a really good month. No sickness, sad thing is that I can eat anything and not get sick. Sometimes if I eat sugar, my pouch does not feel good and this deters me from overdoing it again. I am still working out 3-4 times per week, sometimes I really have to push myself because I would really prefer to be lazy, my natural tendancy. I am sitting here today, Friday, thinking I have only worked out twice this week and need two more days before Saturday. Don't take me wrong, I enjoy exercise once I get into it, but getting started is the challenge. I am happy with my WLS decision. I love shopping and find I have to talk myself out of buying, I'm not used to having everything fit and having stylish clothing that I can select and actually wear, not limited to things that come in 24-26. I love it, but my checking account suffers :-)
11/30/03 - Happy re-birthday to me! This has been a remarkable year!! My one-year surgery anniversary was November 26. I have come a long way "baby." From a size 24-26 to size 12-14, from 266+ to 175. My life is very good and I am very pleased with my WLS decision. I continue to post to this profile in hopes that my story and information will help someone. I am healthy but terrified about the possibility of regaining weight. I am unfortunately one of those people who can eat nearly anything without getting sick. I had stablized at around 177, then was down sick and could not exercise for a couple of weeks. I gained 3 pounds (oh my god!!!). I was horrified! People, it is not automatic--you can re-gain! I cut the carbs and the sugar and am now on the losing track again. My personal goal is 170, my 100 lb goal is 166. I will be happy with 170.
01/08/04 - Just thought I would take a few minutes to update my profile. 2003 was a wonderful year for me! I am now trying to come to terms that my weight loss is a permanent change and not temporary as it has been in the past. I work out 3-4 days per week, more if I can fit it in. I normally gain a good 10 lbs between halloween and new years day (halloween candy, thanksgiving food, christmas vacation--food and new years). This is the first year in a long time where that has not happened. I was off work for two weeks and worked out almost everyday. The eating was a struggle (I can tolerate most things) but I increased my exercise. The pouch is a wonderful thing--feeling like I was eating too much, I increased my protein and water, laid off the carbs and saw an immediate difference. For those of you considering surgery, stay encouraged. This is a wonderful tool.
01/30/04 - Only two pounds this month--I am encouraged, at least the weight is still moving. I am still losing inches and the exercise is really helping me to firm up (I actually have muscle definition in my arms and legs). Eating is going well, nothing really makes me sick, so I really have to watch that I do not fall back into old habits. I am enjoying being a regular-sized person. I am a solid 12 on bottom and a 10 on top, I have always been bottom heavy. I have not been this size since college (20 years ago). I still take monthly B-12 shots, take children multi-vitamins, tums but recently added calcium citrate (I am still struggling with finding one that is not so big that I can swallow). My personal relationships are good. My children 15 & 13 enjoy having a pretty mom, they have never complained but it is fun seeing the reactions of their friends. My husband gets a little uncomfortable at times with the attention I get from men--but oh well, it will keep him on his toes. I am headed to a professional conference in Arizona tomorrow, I will see people I haven't seen in one year. It should be interesting. I will keep you all posted!
02/14/2004 - (170 lbs) 14 months - I picked up the dress in my "after" picture off of the sales rack for 75% off. It is a size 12. This may sound weird, but I look at the clothes on the rack and say to myself, there is no way I can fit into that, my hips will never fit. I guess in my mind, I am still an obese person--or based on my diet history before WLS, I will soon be again. I look in the mirror and I see the same person, definitely smaller but with the same body issues and flaws--but smaller. I exercise alot and try to eat the right things. It is going to take me awhile to reconcile my new size with my mental size. I think given another year--I will become a true believer that this is a permanent change for me. Please do not take me wrong--I love my new life and will do everything in my power to maintain--I just want to be honest about my thoughts and feelings. I think understanding myself and why I became obese is part of my healing plan to maintain my weight and life.
03/31/04 - I have adjusted my goal weight from 170 to 165. 170 is good, but I think I will be happier with my weight @ 165, give or take a few pounds and I will always be under 170. I also decided I want to hit the 100 lb loss mark. March was a good month--but darn--I had hoped my March post
would read "100 lbs loss." I bought the cutest dress for my "final" 100 lb Picture :-) you will have to wait for the official 1-0-0 for the picture :-)
Things have been stressful at work and I have not been able to work out consistently!!! I have been focusing on diet and getting in my protein and water, so I am not totally bumming. I did lose three pounds this month, haven't seen that in awhile. I will get back on track with my exercise--spring break is coming up and I will be able to hit the gym again. I am walking/running two miles on my treadmill. My exercise focus right now is to learn to run, a friend suggested 30 second intervals--then increasing the intervals. By summer I want to be one of those "well build in the back" sistas in tight spandex, stopping traffic--hey, a girl can dream!! Right????
My health is good, no problems--still taking B-12 shot each month, calcium citrate and childrens vitimans. I need to go in to have my 3 month blood work done. Loose skin is not a big issue for me. I have loose skin on my thighs and hips (how I carried most of my weight), but not enough to consider surgery. BUT MY BREASTs are so saggy, someone let the air out!!! I went from a 42-44D to a 36C!! I want a lift--and will call for a consult so that I can get all of the information and plan--LIFE IS GRAND!!!
WHO'S THE MOM? SISTER? DAUGHTER!!!!
March 04 picture with my daughter(15). People ask all the time now if she is my sister!!!!
04-30-04 - I took a trip to Florida for a girlfriend’s birthday party. She rented a house, pool, Jacuzzi with a screened in patio. The party was mostly women (only two brought husbands). After breakfast on the first day, we all put on our swimsuits and sat out by the pool drinking mimosas, shooting the breeze and catching up. The second night we went out to Universal City Walk & visited the different clubs. Of course we hit the malls. One of the best moments of the trip was when I was shopping with the girls, tried on a dress in a 12, then had to send someone for a size 10!!!!!! I have been flirting with 10’s for awhile, but really confirmed it this weekend.
Okay, so what was the big deal???? The big deal is that 1.5 years ago, before WLS, I would never have gone on the trip—and on my own no less, around a bunch of skinny women in swim suits!! I would never be caught shopping with a bunch of women while they look for a size 6 & me needing to find the women’s section, walking all day, uncomfortable!! I would have never agreed to go out to the clubs—but not only did I go, but was the first on the dance floor—partner less, who needs a partner when you can just go out, drink in hand and move with everyone watching— it takes confidence and I discovered the post WLS Ms. Jean has it This may not be a big deal to some of you (you may do this quite often, no problem) but not me, I hid myself away before surgery and did not want any attention, I was miserable.
I do not have a lot of advice to offer these days, but want to share what WLS means to me 1.5 yrs out. All of you pre-ops and new post-ops, please stay encouraged, your “time to dance with confidence” is in your very near future.
I did not lose any weight this month, but find that I am still losing inches (size 12 to 10). I am looking forward to summer here in Michigan so that I can wear tank tops and lightweight clothing. I bought a pair of white linen pants and wore them with a tight top--in the past, I would only wear clothing to cover my large rear end. Eating is going well. I would do better if I followed the rules totally. I got sick once this month, ate pork rines, then immediately drank a cup of tea, bad news, barf city. I watch my weight closely and buckel down if I start creeping up. I still want to lose a few pounds (maybe five) but am basically happy where I am. I exercise 3-4 days, I try hard to stay faithful--it is a life change.
06-18-2004 - I had WLS November 2002 and have lost 97 lbs. I loss from 266 to 167 and consider myself a WLS success story-BUT--each day I struggle with making the right food choices, getting my water in and choosing to exercise. I am approaching my two year rebirth anniversary and want you all to know that time does not make weight loss issues any easier!!!! It is a lifestyle change. I can eat more and can gain weight. Losing or gaining is a choice I make based on discipline, choices and habits.
I sometimes think, God, can't I ever relax on this weight thing and just enjoy life--the answer is no, I have to always be vigilant and keep it to the front of my life or else I will fall back into old habits and blow all that I have accomplished. I do not mean to sound depressing, but like to try to share where I am in my weight loss journey. At this point it is a mental game for me.
Please do not get me wrong, I love the way I look and feel. I returned to the tennis court this week (I have lost 40 lbs since last summer) OMG, I feel great and my game is getting much better--I can actually run!!!!! But maintenance is a B***h.
Take care and good luck with your individual WLS journeys!!!
07-03-04 - One of my girlfriends had a marriage renewal ceremony--a full out re-marriage ceremony celebrating 20 years with white dress, flower girl, reception and all. She looked great and we had a good time. I have to call this another one of my WLS moments because there is no way in heck that I would have agreed to walk down that aisle for her before WLS. I would have found some reason to not do it. I am forty two years old (43 next month) and I had a great time acting and looking like a twenty-five year old youngster. There were a couple of people who came that I had not seen in two years--and as you can guess--they did not recognize me. One lady I reintroduced myself to kept saying my name and trying to understand that it was really me. She kept asking, what did you do? I gave my usual spill, high protein, low carbs, lots of water and exercise. She was not a close friend, so I do not automatically explain about surgery.
August 1, 2004 - My photo albums have been in storage for about two years and I took them out this weekend. I have had several comments from people saying “you looked really good before surgery” you really did not need it, or you were a light weight. I decided to update my profile and include more of my “before” pictures (see the top of my profile). I searched through my photo albums and found that I was “missing in action.” I was always the person behind the camera, taking the pictures. When I did find a picture of myself, it was never a “full body” shot, I always had a child in front of me or was strategically positioned so that you did not get a full picture or just avoided the camera altogether. You see, if I avoided the camera, and did not go anywhere, there would be no record of the “fat” Jean. Everyone would only know and remember Jean as thin and beautiful.
After some thought, I realized that not only was I missing in the pictures, I was missing in many activities and key moments in my family’s lives. Like the camera, I avoided situations that were uncomfortable because of my weight. I would send the kids to the water/amusement park with friends. I did not want to go on vacations that required lots of walking. I was embarrassed to go to my kid’s school. I put life off until……
My good deed of updating my profile for those considering surgery was really kind of sad for me. I looked through 20 years of pictures and saw my up and down struggle with my weight. I saw the smiles and sadness and how much I limited my life because of my weight. Something good came out of it though. I no longer feel the need to justify my surgery decision. I no longer care what people think. I looked at those pictures today and saw the beauty of my decision and the beauty of my life today—all of the things that I can do, I want to do and the limits I no longer place on myself.
My WLS experience has been very positive. I can only wish the same for all of you considering surgery. -- Ms. Jean
August 15, 2004 - I just spent the last two weeks on vacation and totally out of my routine--AND--I gained weight but am waiting for the swelling in my legs to go down to determine how much. I estimate about 7 lbs. I am upset with myself because I should have made better food choices and treated myself better. The last week was a bus trip to Tennessee, Mississippi and New Orleans with about 50 high school students. We toured several black colleges, Lemoyne-Owen, Tougaloo, Southern, Dillard and Xavier. We spent hours upon hours on the bus and in hotels. My legs are so swollen it is not funny. Our meals were determined by the tour or in non-descript fast food places and I feel I spent my time either sitting or eating—not good at all--I was out of control. I should have planned my eating much better.
We went to a variety of activities including, six flags in New Orleans, a riverboat tour, a swamp tour (complete with alligators), bourbon street and cultural/historical tours of Tennessee, Mississippi & New Orleans. I took my children along (16 & 14) and we had a good time viewing and talking about colleges. I was comfortable with all of the things I was able to do. The walking did not bother me, and, I was able to pack light-weight comfortable clothing, tucked in my shirts and wore shorts!!!! Before WLS, I would have been miserable!!!!!
Now that vacation is over—I pledge to exercise each day and eat a low carb diet with no sugar, drink my water each day until I lose the weight that I have gained!!! I need to buckel down--I have worked too hard to lose ground. It should take me about two weeks--my skinny jeans are TIGHT!!!!
August 23, 2004 - Detroit meet and greet pics
August 25, 2004 - Today is a big day for me!!!! Just a quick update: I am 21 months post op, I started this journey at 266 lbs, I have been struggling for months to lose my last few pounds to goal—I then went on vacation and gained 7 lbs—8 days ago I bucked down on my diet (mostly protein) and vowed to continue until I reached goal—
Well!!!!!! Today is my birthday (43) ANNNNNDDDDDD my scale read 164 lbs this morning making me a 102 lb loser, a century club member (finally) and at my WLS goal weight!!!!!!! I am now considered “normal weight” and no longer “overweight.” So please be happy with me There are lots of pictures in my profile
Some of you researching surgery may ask “was it worth it” YOU ARE DARNED RIGHT, IT WAS WORTH IT!!!!!!! What I realized after my vacation was that I have this wonderful tool, and if used correctly it will help me to control my weight for life—that I have control—I knew this, but it took gaining again to believe it – that I will never have to be obese again. This is the real deal.
What is life like now? Most days (I estimate 5 out of 7), I drink my water and take my vitamins & calcium. I get a B-12 shot each month; I try to exercise 3-4 days each week. I am healthy and strong and can take on any activity I choose. My children love it when I come to their schools because kids think that I am their sister!! I have so much more energy for EVERYTHING!!!!
Don’t get me wrong, my world isn’t perfect, I still have to work at maintaining my weight and making the right food choices but now I know that I can do it long term!!!
For those of you just starting this process, please stay encouraged!!! Your dreams can happen!!!!!! - Jean
September 12, 2004 - A college friend invited me to attend the Michigan State Football game on Saturday. The former “fat girl” reared her head and I started to think, I will not enjoy that—75,000 people packed into the stadium, walking to the stadium, climbing stadium stairs, sitting in the sun all day, sitting in those tiny seats, packed in—OMG –I can’t do that. The sad part is that in college, I used to love going to football games and being a part of the crowd--that is until I gained weight.
Then it dawned on me—Why not!! It is a beautiful day, I should be able to climb to the seats with no problem, I can fit into the seat without spilling over—get over it, take a hat for the sun—it should be a good time. I took my 14 yr old son with me and we had a wonderful time. I enjoyed the day and the people. We even bought smoked turkey legs to eat instead of hot dogs!!
As I looked around at the people, I noticed that there were very few obese people in the crowd. It is an activity not geared towards the obese—downright uncomfortable—most probably stay away because of the reasons I mentioned above.
For those of you pre-op/newly post op, I just want you to know that there are soooo many things ahead of you. I am nearly two years post op--and like the football game--I discover/rediscover new things each day and am enjoying my post-WLS life. -- Please stay encouraged--
9-21-04 - My 3 yr old niece and I had a lunch date at Chucky Cheese (a kid restaurant with a giant mouse as the central character, games and rides for smaller children). Anyway, I let her go into the giant tubes that hang from the ceiling, connected like pipes for the kids to climb through. It has been awhile since I have had small children, so I did not think about the consequence!!! She got lost/stuck and couldn’t find her way down. I was calling her, could here her crying, but she would not come down. I finally had to kick off my pumps, discard my jacket and climb into the narrow tubes to get her. Several parents were watching my dilemma and laughing while watching me climb into the tubes. The funniest thing is that I was laughing at myself, for getting into that predicament!!! What was I thinking????? My immediate concern was getting to the child!!!!
BUT!!!! The beautiful that was that I COULD go into the tubes and get her myself!!!! I did not have to find someone to go—I could physically climb, crawl and fit into the tube to get the child—so yes, it was definitely a little undignified, but a true testament to my WLS success. I actually brought down several children who were stuck up there—so I actually felt like a super hero at the end of the day
I could not wait to share my indignity/funny with my WLS family! Please stay encouraged!! Hopefully your WLS moments will be as "undiginified" as mine or better.
10-21-04 - I try to keep my profile updated for newbies out there. I will be 2 years post op next month and have been having a ball. I have lost 102 lbs and am at goal. I have gotten everything I ever dreamed out of my WLS experience. I did not have any complications with the surgery, exercise 3-4 times per week. I try to take my vitamins daily and take a B-12 shot once per month. My hair is back--thicker than it has been in years!!!!!!
So much has changed in the last two years. I aboslutely love to shop!! New things for me--I love purses, changing them everyday, I love belts--my new matra is "tuck it in" everything looks better tucked in. I absolutely love pants!!! When larger, I could not find pants in 26 Long and wore skirts and pantyhose all of the time. I love skinny heeled shoes and boots--the pointier the toe and skinnier the heel the better , Ms Jean loves the fashion--and looks darn good doing it
I enjoy being a part of OH to support pre-ops, newbies and those considering WLS. I am here to support you, answer any questions you may have or just to cheer you on when you are down--that is my purpose!!!
11-20-2004 - Michigan Diva Gathering
It was wonderful meeting a few of my WLS sisters in Detroit last night (Anngee, Carlyce, Hazel Eyes - Crystal, Ms. Marie and Bonnie. Sisterhood is a wonderful thing! You are all very beautiful women, doing the WLS thing and working your tools! Keep up the good work. I look forward to seeing you all soon.
11-26-04 - My life is so different now. My daughter and I got up this morning at 6:00 a.m. and hit the mall for some pre-Christmas personal shopping. I bought several shirts in size medium and a new pair of boots (I may wrap them and put them under the tree so that I do not feel too selfish ;-)
Two years ago today, I had surgery the day before thanksgiving and was walking the halls of BTC Ypsilanti recovering. I started at 266 size 24-26 and am today at 164 size 10-12. I am at goal, but I honestly would like to lose about four more pounds so that when I have my “up” days, I will still be under 165—I know, call me crazy . I can eat pretty much anything, rarely dump and have to work hard at maintaining my weight. I do gain weight when I do not follow the rules—not get my water in, not get enough protein, eat too much sugar or not enough exercise—so NO!! It is still not easy.
I lost the majority of my weight in the first year. It was a year of change and learning to love myself again (maybe a little bit too much at times ;-)). Year 2 was also wonderful—a time spent convincing myself that my weight loss was not temporary (like in the pass) and that I could maintain my weight through diet and exercise—maintain my new lifestyle. That WLS is a tool, not an automatic fix—It takes work and dedication to maintain.
What is life like today for me?? I exercise 3-4 days per week. I take a multivitamin and calcium citrate each day. I get a B-12 shot once per month. I get blood work done once every six months. I just started trying to get in one protein drink each day. I am in no way perfect yall, I struggle with old habits and my preference for sweets. I have just learned to pay for my sins as I go and not let them add up on me (into pounds).
I have to say that this surgery is not for everyone. I rolled the dice/took my chance and I got the extreme best result possible, it doesn't happen that way for everyone. Anyone considering this surgery, please do your research, know what you are getting into and make your own decision, not based on someone elses success—with that in mind—
I wish you all the wonderful success that I have had in my WLS journey.
Surgery Year 2005
01/30/04 - Only two pounds this month--I am encouraged, at least the weight is still moving. I am still losing inches and the exercise is really helping me to firm up (I actually have muscle definition in my arms and legs). Eating is going well, nothing really makes me sick, so I really have to watch that I do not fall back into old habits. I am enjoying being a regular-sized person. I am a solid 12 on bottom and a 10 on top, I have always been bottom heavy. I have not been this size since college (20 years ago). I still take monthly B-12 shots, take children multi-vitamins, tums but recently added calcium citrate (I am still struggling with finding one that is not so big that I can swallow). My personal relationships are good. My children 15 & 13 enjoy having a pretty mom, they have never complained but it is fun seeing the reactions of their friends. My husband gets a little uncomfortable at times with the attention I get from men--but oh well, it will keep him on his toes. I am headed to a professional conference in Arizona tomorrow, I will see people I haven't seen in one year. It should be interesting. I will keep you all posted!
02/14/2004 - (170 lbs) 14 months - I picked up the dress in my "after" picture off of the sales rack for 75% off. It is a size 12. This may sound weird, but I look at the clothes on the rack and say to myself, there is no way I can fit into that, my hips will never fit. I guess in my mind, I am still an obese person--or based on my diet history before WLS, I will soon be again. I look in the mirror and I see the same person, definitely smaller but with the same body issues and flaws--but smaller. I exercise alot and try to eat the right things. It is going to take me awhile to reconcile my new size with my mental size. I think given another year--I will become a true believer that this is a permanent change for me. Please do not take me wrong--I love my new life and will do everything in my power to maintain--I just want to be honest about my thoughts and feelings. I think understanding myself and why I became obese is part of my healing plan to maintain my weight and life.
03/31/04 - I have adjusted my goal weight from 170 to 165. 170 is good, but I think I will be happier with my weight @ 165, give or take a few pounds and I will always be under 170. I also decided I want to hit the 100 lb loss mark. March was a good month--but darn--I had hoped my March post
would read "100 lbs loss." I bought the cutest dress for my "final" 100 lb Picture :-) you will have to wait for the official 1-0-0 for the picture :-)
Things have been stressful at work and I have not been able to work out consistently!!! I have been focusing on diet and getting in my protein and water, so I am not totally bumming. I did lose three pounds this month, haven't seen that in awhile. I will get back on track with my exercise--spring break is coming up and I will be able to hit the gym again. I am walking/running two miles on my treadmill. My exercise focus right now is to learn to run, a friend suggested 30 second intervals--then increasing the intervals. By summer I want to be one of those "well build in the back" sistas in tight spandex, stopping traffic--hey, a girl can dream!! Right????
My health is good, no problems--still taking B-12 shot each month, calcium citrate and childrens vitimans. I need to go in to have my 3 month blood work done. Loose skin is not a big issue for me. I have loose skin on my thighs and hips (how I carried most of my weight), but not enough to consider surgery. BUT MY BREASTs are so saggy, someone let the air out!!! I went from a 42-44D to a 36C!! I want a lift--and will call for a consult so that I can get all of the information and plan--LIFE IS GRAND!!!
WHO'S THE MOM? SISTER? DAUGHTER!!!!
March 04 picture with my daughter(15). People ask all the time now if she is my sister!!!!
04-30-04 - I took a trip to Florida for a girlfriend’s birthday party. She rented a house, pool, Jacuzzi with a screened in patio. The party was mostly women (only two brought husbands). After breakfast on the first day, we all put on our swimsuits and sat out by the pool drinking mimosas, shooting the breeze and catching up. The second night we went out to Universal City Walk & visited the different clubs. Of course we hit the malls. One of the best moments of the trip was when I was shopping with the girls, tried on a dress in a 12, then had to send someone for a size 10!!!!!! I have been flirting with 10’s for awhile, but really confirmed it this weekend.
Okay, so what was the big deal???? The big deal is that 1.5 years ago, before WLS, I would never have gone on the trip—and on my own no less, around a bunch of skinny women in swim suits!! I would never be caught shopping with a bunch of women while they look for a size 6 & me needing to find the women’s section, walking all day, uncomfortable!! I would have never agreed to go out to the clubs—but not only did I go, but was the first on the dance floor—partner less, who needs a partner when you can just go out, drink in hand and move with everyone watching— it takes confidence and I discovered the post WLS Ms. Jean has it This may not be a big deal to some of you (you may do this quite often, no problem) but not me, I hid myself away before surgery and did not want any attention, I was miserable.
I do not have a lot of advice to offer these days, but want to share what WLS means to me 1.5 yrs out. All of you pre-ops and new post-ops, please stay encouraged, your “time to dance with confidence” is in your very near future.
I did not lose any weight this month, but find that I am still losing inches (size 12 to 10). I am looking forward to summer here in Michigan so that I can wear tank tops and lightweight clothing. I bought a pair of white linen pants and wore them with a tight top--in the past, I would only wear clothing to cover my large rear end. Eating is going well. I would do better if I followed the rules totally. I got sick once this month, ate pork rines, then immediately drank a cup of tea, bad news, barf city. I watch my weight closely and buckel down if I start creeping up. I still want to lose a few pounds (maybe five) but am basically happy where I am. I exercise 3-4 days, I try hard to stay faithful--it is a life change.
06-18-2004 - I had WLS November 2002 and have lost 97 lbs. I loss from 266 to 167 and consider myself a WLS success story-BUT--each day I struggle with making the right food choices, getting my water in and choosing to exercise. I am approaching my two year rebirth anniversary and want you all to know that time does not make weight loss issues any easier!!!! It is a lifestyle change. I can eat more and can gain weight. Losing or gaining is a choice I make based on discipline, choices and habits.
I sometimes think, God, can't I ever relax on this weight thing and just enjoy life--the answer is no, I have to always be vigilant and keep it to the front of my life or else I will fall back into old habits and blow all that I have accomplished. I do not mean to sound depressing, but like to try to share where I am in my weight loss journey. At this point it is a mental game for me.
Please do not get me wrong, I love the way I look and feel. I returned to the tennis court this week (I have lost 40 lbs since last summer) OMG, I feel great and my game is getting much better--I can actually run!!!!! But maintenance is a B***h.
Take care and good luck with your individual WLS journeys!!!
07-03-04 - One of my girlfriends had a marriage renewal ceremony--a full out re-marriage ceremony celebrating 20 years with white dress, flower girl, reception and all. She looked great and we had a good time. I have to call this another one of my WLS moments because there is no way in heck that I would have agreed to walk down that aisle for her before WLS. I would have found some reason to not do it. I am forty two years old (43 next month) and I had a great time acting and looking like a twenty-five year old youngster. There were a couple of people who came that I had not seen in two years--and as you can guess--they did not recognize me. One lady I reintroduced myself to kept saying my name and trying to understand that it was really me. She kept asking, what did you do? I gave my usual spill, high protein, low carbs, lots of water and exercise. She was not a close friend, so I do not automatically explain about surgery.
August 1, 2004 - My photo albums have been in storage for about two years and I took them out this weekend. I have had several comments from people saying “you looked really good before surgery” you really did not need it, or you were a light weight. I decided to update my profile and include more of my “before” pictures (see the top of my profile). I searched through my photo albums and found that I was “missing in action.” I was always the person behind the camera, taking the pictures. When I did find a picture of myself, it was never a “full body” shot, I always had a child in front of me or was strategically positioned so that you did not get a full picture or just avoided the camera altogether. You see, if I avoided the camera, and did not go anywhere, there would be no record of the “fat” Jean. Everyone would only know and remember Jean as thin and beautiful.
After some thought, I realized that not only was I missing in the pictures, I was missing in many activities and key moments in my family’s lives. Like the camera, I avoided situations that were uncomfortable because of my weight. I would send the kids to the water/amusement park with friends. I did not want to go on vacations that required lots of walking. I was embarrassed to go to my kid’s school. I put life off until……
My good deed of updating my profile for those considering surgery was really kind of sad for me. I looked through 20 years of pictures and saw my up and down struggle with my weight. I saw the smiles and sadness and how much I limited my life because of my weight. Something good came out of it though. I no longer feel the need to justify my surgery decision. I no longer care what people think. I looked at those pictures today and saw the beauty of my decision and the beauty of my life today—all of the things that I can do, I want to do and the limits I no longer place on myself.
My WLS experience has been very positive. I can only wish the same for all of you considering surgery. -- Ms. Jean
August 15, 2004 - I just spent the last two weeks on vacation and totally out of my routine--AND--I gained weight but am waiting for the swelling in my legs to go down to determine how much. I estimate about 7 lbs. I am upset with myself because I should have made better food choices and treated myself better. The last week was a bus trip to Tennessee, Mississippi and New Orleans with about 50 high school students. We toured several black colleges, Lemoyne-Owen, Tougaloo, Southern, Dillard and Xavier. We spent hours upon hours on the bus and in hotels. My legs are so swollen it is not funny. Our meals were determined by the tour or in non-descript fast food places and I feel I spent my time either sitting or eating—not good at all--I was out of control. I should have planned my eating much better.
We went to a variety of activities including, six flags in New Orleans, a riverboat tour, a swamp tour (complete with alligators), bourbon street and cultural/historical tours of Tennessee, Mississippi & New Orleans. I took my children along (16 & 14) and we had a good time viewing and talking about colleges. I was comfortable with all of the things I was able to do. The walking did not bother me, and, I was able to pack light-weight comfortable clothing, tucked in my shirts and wore shorts!!!! Before WLS, I would have been miserable!!!!!
Now that vacation is over—I pledge to exercise each day and eat a low carb diet with no sugar, drink my water each day until I lose the weight that I have gained!!! I need to buckel down--I have worked too hard to lose ground. It should take me about two weeks--my skinny jeans are TIGHT!!!!
August 23, 2004 - Detroit meet and greet pics
August 25, 2004 - Today is a big day for me!!!! Just a quick update: I am 21 months post op, I started this journey at 266 lbs, I have been struggling for months to lose my last few pounds to goal—I then went on vacation and gained 7 lbs—8 days ago I bucked down on my diet (mostly protein) and vowed to continue until I reached goal—
Well!!!!!! Today is my birthday (43) ANNNNNDDDDDD my scale read 164 lbs this morning making me a 102 lb loser, a century club member (finally) and at my WLS goal weight!!!!!!! I am now considered “normal weight” and no longer “overweight.” So please be happy with me There are lots of pictures in my profile
Some of you researching surgery may ask “was it worth it” YOU ARE DARNED RIGHT, IT WAS WORTH IT!!!!!!! What I realized after my vacation was that I have this wonderful tool, and if used correctly it will help me to control my weight for life—that I have control—I knew this, but it took gaining again to believe it – that I will never have to be obese again. This is the real deal.
What is life like now? Most days (I estimate 5 out of 7), I drink my water and take my vitamins & calcium. I get a B-12 shot each month; I try to exercise 3-4 days each week. I am healthy and strong and can take on any activity I choose. My children love it when I come to their schools because kids think that I am their sister!! I have so much more energy for EVERYTHING!!!!
Don’t get me wrong, my world isn’t perfect, I still have to work at maintaining my weight and making the right food choices but now I know that I can do it long term!!!
For those of you just starting this process, please stay encouraged!!! Your dreams can happen!!!!!! - Jean
September 12, 2004 - A college friend invited me to attend the Michigan State Football game on Saturday. The former “fat girl” reared her head and I started to think, I will not enjoy that—75,000 people packed into the stadium, walking to the stadium, climbing stadium stairs, sitting in the sun all day, sitting in those tiny seats, packed in—OMG –I can’t do that. The sad part is that in college, I used to love going to football games and being a part of the crowd--that is until I gained weight.
Then it dawned on me—Why not!! It is a beautiful day, I should be able to climb to the seats with no problem, I can fit into the seat without spilling over—get over it, take a hat for the sun—it should be a good time. I took my 14 yr old son with me and we had a wonderful time. I enjoyed the day and the people. We even bought smoked turkey legs to eat instead of hot dogs!!
As I looked around at the people, I noticed that there were very few obese people in the crowd. It is an activity not geared towards the obese—downright uncomfortable—most probably stay away because of the reasons I mentioned above.
For those of you pre-op/newly post op, I just want you to know that there are soooo many things ahead of you. I am nearly two years post op--and like the football game--I discover/rediscover new things each day and am enjoying my post-WLS life. -- Please stay encouraged--
9-21-04 - My 3 yr old niece and I had a lunch date at Chucky Cheese (a kid restaurant with a giant mouse as the central character, games and rides for smaller children). Anyway, I let her go into the giant tubes that hang from the ceiling, connected like pipes for the kids to climb through. It has been awhile since I have had small children, so I did not think about the consequence!!! She got lost/stuck and couldn’t find her way down. I was calling her, could here her crying, but she would not come down. I finally had to kick off my pumps, discard my jacket and climb into the narrow tubes to get her. Several parents were watching my dilemma and laughing while watching me climb into the tubes. The funniest thing is that I was laughing at myself, for getting into that predicament!!! What was I thinking????? My immediate concern was getting to the child!!!!
BUT!!!! The beautiful that was that I COULD go into the tubes and get her myself!!!! I did not have to find someone to go—I could physically climb, crawl and fit into the tube to get the child—so yes, it was definitely a little undignified, but a true testament to my WLS success. I actually brought down several children who were stuck up there—so I actually felt like a super hero at the end of the day
I could not wait to share my indignity/funny with my WLS family! Please stay encouraged!! Hopefully your WLS moments will be as "undiginified" as mine or better.
10-21-04 - I try to keep my profile updated for newbies out there. I will be 2 years post op next month and have been having a ball. I have lost 102 lbs and am at goal. I have gotten everything I ever dreamed out of my WLS experience. I did not have any complications with the surgery, exercise 3-4 times per week. I try to take my vitamins daily and take a B-12 shot once per month. My hair is back--thicker than it has been in years!!!!!!
So much has changed in the last two years. I aboslutely love to shop!! New things for me--I love purses, changing them everyday, I love belts--my new matra is "tuck it in" everything looks better tucked in. I absolutely love pants!!! When larger, I could not find pants in 26 Long and wore skirts and pantyhose all of the time. I love skinny heeled shoes and boots--the pointier the toe and skinnier the heel the better , Ms Jean loves the fashion--and looks darn good doing it
I enjoy being a part of OH to support pre-ops, newbies and those considering WLS. I am here to support you, answer any questions you may have or just to cheer you on when you are down--that is my purpose!!!
11-20-2004 - Michigan Diva Gathering
It was wonderful meeting a few of my WLS sisters in Detroit last night (Anngee, Carlyce, Hazel Eyes - Crystal, Ms. Marie and Bonnie. Sisterhood is a wonderful thing! You are all very beautiful women, doing the WLS thing and working your tools! Keep up the good work. I look forward to seeing you all soon.
11-26-04 - My life is so different now. My daughter and I got up this morning at 6:00 a.m. and hit the mall for some pre-Christmas personal shopping. I bought several shirts in size medium and a new pair of boots (I may wrap them and put them under the tree so that I do not feel too selfish ;-)
Two years ago today, I had surgery the day before thanksgiving and was walking the halls of BTC Ypsilanti recovering. I started at 266 size 24-26 and am today at 164 size 10-12. I am at goal, but I honestly would like to lose about four more pounds so that when I have my “up” days, I will still be under 165—I know, call me crazy . I can eat pretty much anything, rarely dump and have to work hard at maintaining my weight. I do gain weight when I do not follow the rules—not get my water in, not get enough protein, eat too much sugar or not enough exercise—so NO!! It is still not easy.
I lost the majority of my weight in the first year. It was a year of change and learning to love myself again (maybe a little bit too much at times ;-)). Year 2 was also wonderful—a time spent convincing myself that my weight loss was not temporary (like in the pass) and that I could maintain my weight through diet and exercise—maintain my new lifestyle. That WLS is a tool, not an automatic fix—It takes work and dedication to maintain.
What is life like today for me?? I exercise 3-4 days per week. I take a multivitamin and calcium citrate each day. I get a B-12 shot once per month. I get blood work done once every six months. I just started trying to get in one protein drink each day. I am in no way perfect yall, I struggle with old habits and my preference for sweets. I have just learned to pay for my sins as I go and not let them add up on me (into pounds).
I have to say that this surgery is not for everyone. I rolled the dice/took my chance and I got the extreme best result possible, it doesn't happen that way for everyone. Anyone considering this surgery, please do your research, know what you are getting into and make your own decision, not based on someone elses success—with that in mind—
I wish you all the wonderful success that I have had in my WLS journey.
Surgery Year 2005
January 27, 2005 - Hello OH, I am 27 months post op and struggling like heck to maintain my weight. I got sick over the holidays and have been off track in terms of diet and exercise since then. Here is my confession, I have gained 7 lbs and really need to get on track to get it off. So, for those of you pre-op--the diet and exercise thing never ends. I just need to follow the rules and exercize, get my water in and I can take care of the weight.
Part of my challenge is that I have returned to graduate school and am spending tons of hours trying to get used to being in school again and am also shopping for a new home. I am going to pull it together starting today (since it is officially Monday). I am going to make my aerobics class tonight and get in at least four days of exercise this week. I am going to focus on a protein diet, and my water intake and see where I end up by the end of the week.
January 29, 2005 -The "real" Coach Carter (from the current hit movie about his life as a basketball coach) visited and spoke at my university recently and I got a chance to get this picture with him. Yes, I am cheezing for all. I thought he would be taller but still awfully cute.
4-17-2005 - Hey everybody!! Life is good at 29 months (two years, 5 months) post op. I can't believe that it has been that long since my surgery. I thought I would drop in today to say hello and hope that I find everyone doing well. My OH status these days is pretty much “lurker” but I still cheer for all of your successes and laugh at the jokes and comical happenings.
For those of you just starting or new to WLS, I thought I would answer the question “what can life like three years after WLS?”
I have finally settled in and feel comfortable with the new me and my lost pounds. I actually believe that I can keep the weight off for good and that this is not just a temporary phase. When I walk by a mirror now, I expect and am not surprised to see the “thin” me (don’t laugh, it took me two years).
There are times when my weight fluctuates between 5-7 lbs but I am able to tighten up and pull things back into perspective quite quickly. I still exercise 3-4 times per week, but I do not have time for the really long workouts until weekends, but I am desperately trying to find the time. I do not plan to have any plastic surgery done—may consider a breast job down the line—deflation is a terrible thing.
People rarely remember now that I was obese--it is strange, they rarely comment on my weight anymore. I honestly think that my biggest motivator to stay on course is my wardrobe. I love all of the pantsuits and beautiful clothing that I have acquired since losing weight (yes, I love shopping). When I put on something and it is a little tight--I panic and have instant motivation to hit the gym and protein.
Those “friends” who had a problem with my weight loss are no longer friends—I have made lots of new friends. My husband finally settled down and realized that I am happy at home and “ain’t” going nowhere—all of the changes really unsettled him and made him insecure—he is much more attentive and doesn’t take things for granted anymore—he is on this toes and very romantic.
I have returned to graduate school so life is really busy right now with school on top of a challenging job. I still take my vitamins daily, get a B-12 shot once a month and follow "most" of the pouch rules, still respect the waiting one hour to drink after eating rule. Every blue moon something will disagree with my stomach and I will react (some form of dumping). Restaurants are still a challenge—but I have gotten pretty good at ordering a little and then “sampling” off of my friends and family’s plates. Large amounts of foods like buffets just overwhelm me. WLS was the best decision for me. Good luck with all.
7-18-05 - Ms. Jean & Lavender in San Francisco CA
October 22, 2005 - Hello OH, I apologize that it has taken me so long to update my profile. I had a great summer that ended as a terrible summer. I am one of six siblings and lost one of my brothers in August in a violent episode with police in which they claim ended in suicide. This shook all of our worlds and I am still trying to find my balance again and resume some sibilance of normalcy.
Regarding WLS, I will be having my three year anniversary next month. I have not exercised since August and my diet and water have not been good. I have gained over ten pounds and am very unhappy with myself. In the middle of all this I moved to a new home (after fifteen years) and am still working to get my house in order and get the other house cleaned out and on the market.
I am focusing now on the positive things in my life—my family, my remaining siblings, creating new relationships and committing myself to a church (after being away for many years) and learning again about the power of prayer.
I began a protein focus on Monday of this week and am now on day 5 and am really focused—my pouch has kicked in and is appreciating the pampering. Today will be my first day back into the world of exercise; I will do a taebo tape and will be back to my routine of 3-4 times per week. I know that I feel better when I exercise and it will help me to move out of my depression.
I am finding that the challenge is being able to focus on WLS when life knocks you on your butt—or maybe the real challenge is what you do once you get up again. I will keep you all posted.
November 26, 2005 - Hello OH! I had RNY back in November 2002. Today is my three year anniversary.
I have had a tough time (non WLS related) with life these last few months but am trying to get on course again. I am now about 10 lbs above my acheived goal weight, but I will get back to it by setting some new goals and training over the next few months.
What is life like three years out???? It is good, though I need to focus more on diet, water and exercise -- the basics never change!! The surgery now seems like it was a world ago-- though I would not change anything and would do it again in a heartbeat—my life is just so much better. I can of course eat more and gain weight easily--I have to watch my old habits, especially the sweet tooth. I rarely dump anymore. I still take a b-12 monthly and a multi vitamin each day.
I wish you all of the success that I have had with WLS.
Part of my challenge is that I have returned to graduate school and am spending tons of hours trying to get used to being in school again and am also shopping for a new home. I am going to pull it together starting today (since it is officially Monday). I am going to make my aerobics class tonight and get in at least four days of exercise this week. I am going to focus on a protein diet, and my water intake and see where I end up by the end of the week.
January 29, 2005 -The "real" Coach Carter (from the current hit movie about his life as a basketball coach) visited and spoke at my university recently and I got a chance to get this picture with him. Yes, I am cheezing for all. I thought he would be taller but still awfully cute.
4-17-2005 - Hey everybody!! Life is good at 29 months (two years, 5 months) post op. I can't believe that it has been that long since my surgery. I thought I would drop in today to say hello and hope that I find everyone doing well. My OH status these days is pretty much “lurker” but I still cheer for all of your successes and laugh at the jokes and comical happenings.
For those of you just starting or new to WLS, I thought I would answer the question “what can life like three years after WLS?”
I have finally settled in and feel comfortable with the new me and my lost pounds. I actually believe that I can keep the weight off for good and that this is not just a temporary phase. When I walk by a mirror now, I expect and am not surprised to see the “thin” me (don’t laugh, it took me two years).
There are times when my weight fluctuates between 5-7 lbs but I am able to tighten up and pull things back into perspective quite quickly. I still exercise 3-4 times per week, but I do not have time for the really long workouts until weekends, but I am desperately trying to find the time. I do not plan to have any plastic surgery done—may consider a breast job down the line—deflation is a terrible thing.
People rarely remember now that I was obese--it is strange, they rarely comment on my weight anymore. I honestly think that my biggest motivator to stay on course is my wardrobe. I love all of the pantsuits and beautiful clothing that I have acquired since losing weight (yes, I love shopping). When I put on something and it is a little tight--I panic and have instant motivation to hit the gym and protein.
Those “friends” who had a problem with my weight loss are no longer friends—I have made lots of new friends. My husband finally settled down and realized that I am happy at home and “ain’t” going nowhere—all of the changes really unsettled him and made him insecure—he is much more attentive and doesn’t take things for granted anymore—he is on this toes and very romantic.
I have returned to graduate school so life is really busy right now with school on top of a challenging job. I still take my vitamins daily, get a B-12 shot once a month and follow "most" of the pouch rules, still respect the waiting one hour to drink after eating rule. Every blue moon something will disagree with my stomach and I will react (some form of dumping). Restaurants are still a challenge—but I have gotten pretty good at ordering a little and then “sampling” off of my friends and family’s plates. Large amounts of foods like buffets just overwhelm me. WLS was the best decision for me. Good luck with all.
7-18-05 - Ms. Jean & Lavender in San Francisco CA
October 22, 2005 - Hello OH, I apologize that it has taken me so long to update my profile. I had a great summer that ended as a terrible summer. I am one of six siblings and lost one of my brothers in August in a violent episode with police in which they claim ended in suicide. This shook all of our worlds and I am still trying to find my balance again and resume some sibilance of normalcy.
Regarding WLS, I will be having my three year anniversary next month. I have not exercised since August and my diet and water have not been good. I have gained over ten pounds and am very unhappy with myself. In the middle of all this I moved to a new home (after fifteen years) and am still working to get my house in order and get the other house cleaned out and on the market.
I am focusing now on the positive things in my life—my family, my remaining siblings, creating new relationships and committing myself to a church (after being away for many years) and learning again about the power of prayer.
I began a protein focus on Monday of this week and am now on day 5 and am really focused—my pouch has kicked in and is appreciating the pampering. Today will be my first day back into the world of exercise; I will do a taebo tape and will be back to my routine of 3-4 times per week. I know that I feel better when I exercise and it will help me to move out of my depression.
I am finding that the challenge is being able to focus on WLS when life knocks you on your butt—or maybe the real challenge is what you do once you get up again. I will keep you all posted.
November 26, 2005 - Hello OH! I had RNY back in November 2002. Today is my three year anniversary.
I have had a tough time (non WLS related) with life these last few months but am trying to get on course again. I am now about 10 lbs above my acheived goal weight, but I will get back to it by setting some new goals and training over the next few months.
What is life like three years out???? It is good, though I need to focus more on diet, water and exercise -- the basics never change!! The surgery now seems like it was a world ago-- though I would not change anything and would do it again in a heartbeat—my life is just so much better. I can of course eat more and gain weight easily--I have to watch my old habits, especially the sweet tooth. I rarely dump anymore. I still take a b-12 monthly and a multi vitamin each day.
I wish you all of the success that I have had with WLS.
